LOGINMarissa POV
"You see how we cut the line? No hassle. We are hot, babe," Hailey said, adjusting her cleavage in the mirror-lined hallway. Her blonde hair was snatched back into a high, lethal ponytail, her green eyes popping against thick, dark mascara. She looked like a predator in her shimmering bodycon dress. I, on the other hand, felt like a woman reborn in crimson. My red, sleeveless gown clung to my curves, the slit running high up my thigh, teasing with every step. My brunette hair was styled in deep, glossy Hollywood waves, and my makeup was a masterpiece of "revenge chic" a sharp winged liner and a blood-red lip that screamed I was no longer the girl waiting at home with a pot roast. "Damn," Hailey smirked, glancing at the line of girls outside. "Those ladies still waiting might curse us out. Let them. We’ve already achieved the goal." We pushed into the heart of the club. The air was thick with the scent of expensive perfume, high end gin, and the low thrum of deep house music. Hailey leaned in close to my ear, her voice barely audible over the beat. "This is the spot, Marissa. New York’s best. But look up there," she pointed to a frosted glass balcony overlooking the floor. "That is the VVIP tier. The highest ranking. Those people don't even let their faces be seen. They wear masks the entire night...total anonymity, total power. You don't get up there unless you're a god or a monster." "And what are we?" I asked, feeling the tequila from earlier hum in my veins. "Tonight? We are whatever we want to be." We headed to the bar. The bartender was in his mid-twenties, clearly Japanese, with hard, sculpted biceps that looked like they were carved from marble. I couldn't help but stare as he expertly flipped a shaker. "That’s rude," he said suddenly, his eyes snapping to mine. I furrowed my brows. Out of all the women practically drooling over him, he chose to call me out? "What do you mean?" "The ring," he said, pointing a tattooed finger at my left hand. "It signifies you are married, isn't it?. Looking at me like that... it’s a bit of a double standard, don't you think?" I froze. I hadn't even noticed I was still wearing it. Three years of habit had made the gold band feel like a part of my skin. I felt a surge of nausea, then a flash of heat. I yanked the ring off and shoved it into my clutch. "Arigato," I muttered, trying to soften the tension. He didn't smile. His brow furrowed deeper. "I may look Japanese, but I'm actually Taiwanese. Maybe ask before assuming next time." Goddamn. My luck was abysmal. If I kept offending everyone I met, I was definitely not getting laid tonight. I apologized and turned to leave, only to see a tall, brown haired guy trying to corner Hailey. He had his shirt halfway unbuttoned, flexing his abs like a peacock. "Can I get the lady's bill?" he asked, flashing a row of perfectly white teeth. Hailey didn't miss a beat. "If you’re paying for mine, you’re paying for hers. We're a package deal." "If that's what the lady wants!" He blew her an air-kiss. I didn't stay to watch the flirting. I downed my last shot of alcohol, the burn felt like life returning to my veins and leaned into Hailey’s ear. "I’m getting on the dance floor." "Okay! Call me if you need anything. Be careful, Marissa!" The world was starting to tilt, a pleasant drowsiness settling into my bones. But then, the beat changed. The slow, heavy thrum of One of the Girls by The Weeknd, Lily-Rose Depp and Jennie started to pulse through the speakers. It was sensual, dark, and exactly how I felt. I made my way to the middle of the room. I started dancing, my body moving like liquid, my eyes half-closed. I wasn't dancing for Ethan. I was dancing for the woman I had buried three years ago. Then, I felt it. A gaze so heavy it felt like a physical touch. I looked up toward the VVIP balcony. A man was standing there, shrouded in shadows. He wore a dark, intricate silver mask that covered the upper half of his face, but his jawline was sharp enough to draw blood. He was watching me. Not like a guy at a bar, but like a predator watching his next meal. My heart skipped a beat. I didn't look away. I leaned into the music, letting my movements become more provocative, more sensual, my eyes locked on the silver mask above. A few minutes later, a hand touched my shoulder. It wasn't Hailey. It was a man in a black suit—security. "Ma'am," he whispered. "A gentleman from the upper tier would like to invite you for a drink. Privately." I glanced at Hailey, who was busy laughing with the brown-haired guy, then back at the balcony. The silver mask was gone. He was waiting. "Lead the way," I said, my voice steady despite the adrenaline coursing through me. He led me through a hidden door, up a velvet lined staircase, and into a dimly lit lounge that smelled of sandalwood and power. He then abruptly paused and turned to me. he held out a silver tray. On it sat a delicate black net mask, shimmering with tiny obsidian crystals. I looked at the mask, then back at the balcony. "Why the mask?" "For your privacy, too," the guard said, his voice was void of emotion. I took it. The cool silk felt like a dare. I slipped it over my eyes, the world turning into a hazy, provocative mesh. I followed him up the velvet stairs, my heart thumping a faster beat than the music below. The man was standing by the window, his back to me. He had discarded his jacket, his white dress shirt stretched tight across broad shoulders. "I have been staring at you for a long time, Marissa," he said. His voice was a deep, textured baritone that vibrated right through my chest. I froze, my pulse spiking. "How do you know my name? The masks are supposed to keep us anonymous." He turned slowly. Up close, he was devastating. The silver mask made his eyes look like burning coals, and his hot pink lips were even more distracting now that they were inches away. He took a slow, deliberate sip of amber liquid from a crystal glass, his gaze raking over my body behind the black net. "I make it my business to know the names of things I find beautiful," he rumbled, stepping into my space. He was tall towering over me and the heat coming off him was intoxicating. He set the glass down and closed the distance until I could feel the silk of his shirt brushing my bare arms. "Tell me," he whispered, his voice dropping an octave as he moved even closer. "Was that performance on the floor for the room? Were you trying to see how many men you could break tonight, or were you just trying to see if I was paying attention?" "Maybe I just like the attention," I breathed, my heart hammering against my ribs. Damn the tequila has gotten me pretty bold isn't it? "Liar," he murmured. He reached out, his long fingers ghosting over the strap of my gown before his thumb hooked under my chin, tilting my head back. His touch was electric, sparking against my skin like a live wire. "You were dancing like a woman who wanted to burn her life down. It almost seemed like you were dancing for me." I looked up at him through the black net, my breath hitching as his thumb moved to my bottom lip, pressing down with a possessive weight that made my knees weak. "I wasn't dancing for you okay? By the way don't you think courtesy demands that you share your name too since you know mine?" "Names don't matter behind these masks," he whispered, his face so close I could feel his breath. "Tonight, you are just a woman who wants to forget she exists. And I am the man who's going to make sure you do." I didn't ask who he was. I didn't care about the $300 million or the divorce. I reached up, my fingers tangling in the dark, cool strands of his jet black hair, pulling him closer. "Then stop talking," I challenged. He didn't need to be told twice. He pulled me into him, his hand sliding down to the small of my back to crush me against him. As his lips crashed against mine, the world outside and Ethan completely vanished.Xavier POVFive years later, on the fourteenth of May, the Sterling garden was full of children.They ran everywhere. Under the long white tables and through the bed of crocuses and in wild, shrieking circles around the oldest maple. A small girl with dark hair and a gap in her front teeth sat on the lowest branch, ruling over a kingdom of cousins with a stern expression and a plastic crown that said BIRTHDAY QUEEN. A boy of about three, with James's grey eyes and Alina's wide smile, tried to climb up beside her and was repelled with a majestic wave."Jo," I called. "Be kind.""I am being kind, Papa." She did not turn her head. "I am being fair.""That is a different thing.""It is a better thing," said my daughter, and went back to governing.I stood on the terrace with a glass of lemonade and watched them, and I thought, not for the first time, that happiness is a very quiet sensation. I had expected it to be louder. I had expected trumpets. Instead it came in the form of a Tuesday
Marissa POV Ethan Harrison pleaded guilty to attempted murder in the second week of February.It did not take long. The security footage from the Sterling corridor, Dennis Hollis's sworn statement about the rented room on the east side, and a receipt from a hardware store for a pair of garden shears left very little room for argument. Hollis, who had spent months being frightened of the man who hired him, walked into the prosecutor's office on his own and sat down with a recorder and a cup of coffee and said, in a shaking voice, "I would like to be on the right side of this."The sentencing was held on a grey Thursday in a courtroom on the sixth floor. I sat in the second row in a soft navy dress, thirty three weeks pregnant, with Xavier on one side of me and Steve Fenwick on the other. Hailey sat directly behind us and had brought a thermos of tea and a pocketful of tissues. My mother sat beside her, upright as a candle, with her hands folded over her purse."You do not have to spea
Marissa POVThe baby shower was held on the first Saturday of January, in the glass sunroom at the Sterling house, and it was a pure, loud, sparkling riot.I was thirty one weeks along. I was the size of a small and extremely determined house. My feet had swollen into two soft little loaves, my back ached in three distinct places, and I had been informed by a kindly obstetrician named Dr. Ingrid Solheim that I was not allowed to run until after the birth, a pronouncement I had received in stony silence and Xavier in heartfelt relief.But I was happy. I was so happy that I kept forgetting to be afraid.The room was a garden of white and cream and pale gold. Naomi had designed the decorations, an arch of paper crescents hanging from the ceiling like a flock of silver moons. Elena had rendered a tiny three dimensional nursery that floated on a screen above the cake table. Eleanor sat in a wicker chair near the fireplace with a blanket on her knees and Tomas's violin in its case beside he
Xavier POVWe honeymooned in Prague, at my wife's insistence and my mother's request.Eleanor had asked us, quietly, the night before the wedding, to go and thank Tomas Verhoeven's daughter. I had assumed it would be a brief courtesy call. It became, instead, a week of narrow cobbled streets and church bells and warm yellow light on old stone, and an afternoon I will remember for the rest of my life.Katerina Verhoeven's workshop was a tiny room above a bakery in the Mala Strana quarter, full of pale curls of wood shavings and unfinished violins hanging from hooks like sleeping bats. She was a small, sturdy woman in her fifties with her father's gentle hands. When Marissa explained who we were, Katerina stood very still, then crossed the room and took Marissa's face between her palms."The woman from the letter," she said, in careful English. "The one with the crescent moon.""Eleanor," said Marissa."My father spoke of her until the end." Katerina's eyes were wet. "He said, I carved
Marissa POVI woke on the morning of my wedding to the smell of vanilla.It rose through the floorboards of the bridal suite in the Sterling guest wing, warm and sweet, curling beneath the door. I lay for a moment in the white bed with my eyes closed and my heart doing something unreasonable, and then I opened one eye.Hailey was standing at the foot of the bed holding a tray."Do not ask," she said. "The groom is not allowed to see you. But the groom has, according to Julian, been up since four o'clock in the kitchen, and the pastry chef from Le Petit Dessert has been in tears, and these are the result."On the tray sat a dozen vanilla cookies, each stamped with a tiny silver crescent. Beside them lay a folded note.Happy birthday, Zaika. Happy wedding day. I will be the man at the end of the aisle who looks like he has not slept. X.I laughed until I cried, and then I cried until I laughed, and then Hailey, who was supposed to be the calm one, sat down on the bed in her dressing gow
Marissa POV Planning a wedding, I discovered, is exactly like planning a building. There is a vision, a budget, a deadline and a large number of people who each believe they know better than the architect."The veil is too short," said Eleanor."The veil is perfect," said my mother."It stops at the shoulder.""It stops at the shoulder because the dress has a very beautiful back, Eleanor, and a very beautiful back should not be hidden.""A bride should have a long veil. It is a matter of principle.""A bride should be able to breathe, Josephine. It is a matter of oxygen."I stood on a velvet pedestal in a bridal boutique called Maison Ardent, wearing a column of ivory silk with a low scooped back and a hand stitched line of tiny silver crescents running down the hem, and watched two women in their sixties argue about tulle with the controlled ferocity of rival generals. The seamstress, a calm, grey haired woman with a pincushion on her wrist, had retreated to a corner and was eating
Marissa POVThe air in the VVIP lounge was heavy, charged with a static that made the hair on my arms stand up. His hands were everywhere possessive, firm, and grounding. As we made out, my fingers tangled in his jet-black hair before sliding down to the hard, sculpted planes of his abs through his
Marissa POVI woke up to a cold, damp pillow. My face felt tight, my eyes swollen nearly shut from the "hot tears" that had slammed down my cheeks until I finally passed out from exhaustion. The house was deathly quiet....no sound of Ethan’s humming, no scent of morning coffee. Just the lingering g
Marissa POVI stood in the center of our pristine living room, the space I had spent the last two years turning into a sanctuary.Now, the silence felt like a predator. I was utterly bamboozled no, dumbfounded didn't even touch the edges of it. It felt as if the floor had suddenly liquefied, leavin
Marissa POVThe house was too quiet now that Ethan’s presence had been scrubbed from the entryway, but the silence didn't last long. A few hours after the mysterious courier vanished, the front door swung open for the only person who could match my level of chaos.Hailey burst in like a whirlwind,







