Mag-log inRaven
I could finally breathe the moment the door clicked shut. I don't like this,I don't like him Flithy perv! What disgusted me most was the warmth between my thighs. I curled my toes,trying to get rid of the sensation. He didn't even do anything,just the feeling of his hands squeezing my ass and his breath on my skin made my pussy clench. I bit down on my lips. Damn!I shouldn't be feeling this way. I won't blame myself completely,I haven't had sex in a long time so it's my body's normal reaction to a man. But at least I can get the help that I need as long as he doesn't cross my boundaries. When he left,I stood in the middle of the room ,not knowing where the bed was. Then it finally dawned on me….I can't do this alone. How was I supposed to get ready for my shift? I can tell where my closet was but how do I know which fabric is which? “ Why is this happening to me!" I groaned,tugging on my hair. I can't drive in this state,I can't bathe in this state ,I can't do anything. Julie had to leave because I needed her to keep an eye on Viktor and my kids. I'd rather she'd be my eyes at home than stay here with me. My fingers tightened around my phone. He's the last person on earth I want to call. I guess the rumors that all doctors were perverts was true. I'm even more embarrassed that he knows what's going on in my marital home and he's mocking me for it. I went back to bed to wait till it clocked five. I won't even know if it's five because I can't see. Should I just quit and start over next year when I get my sight back? Because it's going to be hard living like this for four months,that's if the medication even works . I sighed heavily at my conflicted thoughts.“ I'll just take a nap.” I closed my eyes,ignoring the grumbling of my stomach and forced myself to sleep. Many hours and dreams later, a loud bang on the door jolted me awake. I found my footing and my cane and trudged to the door. Using the cane helps but only a little.“ Who's there?” I asked,straining my sense of hearing. “ Have you lost your hearing too,I've been knocking for more than 10mins." Killian's voice echoed. I rolled my eyes,of course the perv was back. I was tempted not to open . I don't want him here but I have no choice. The door opened and I stepped back as his cologne hit my nostrils. I scrunched my nose and leaned back. Why do men spray perfume like it was water? “Why are you not ready?" He sounded, as he bumped shoulders with me.“ Oh .. you're blind. I almost forgot.” He chuckled. My lips twitched in irritation.“ It's not funny.” His laughter deepened.“ Relax,I'm just kidding. Do you need help going to the bathroom?" I rolled my eyes.“ Just help me get to the bathroom.” I felt his fingers around my wrists. It gave me a tingling sensation ,one that should not even exist. “ I can help you wash,you know. You don't have to be shy.” He leaned in and whispered in my ears with a hint of mockery in his voice. My cheeks burned.“ No thanks…I'll do it myself.” I removed the thought the moment it flashed across my mind. The bathroom door opened and he helped me into the shower.“ I'll be outside if you need anything.” The door shut and I was left alone without my field of vision. I took off my clothes,leaving my bra and panties on and then I searched for the shower and turned it on. The soap was pretty hard to find especially as the floor was becoming slippery. I eventually found it but it slipped past my fingers and landed on my feet. I crouched to the ground,trying to get a grip of it but of course soaps are slippery. “ Arghh…where is it!” I groaned and gave up . I'll just use water to bathe. I wanted to step out of the bathroom as I switched off the shower only for me to step on the fucking soap. I slipped and landed on the floor with a loud thud! My head crashed against the tiles and a scream erupted from my lips. I heard as the door burst opened and Killian rushed in.“ What happened?" My eyes pricked with tears as I held my head,feeling a warm liquid on my palm.“ It hurts.” Pain shot through my head as I tried to lift myself up with Killian's support. “ Fuck….You're bleeding.” He picked me up from the floor,my half naked body still soaked with water. I felt light headed as he helped me into some clothes.“ Don't tell me it's that bad.” I mumbled, leaning in on his chest,too weak to move. “ I can't conclude until you get checked up….this is why I wanted to help you.” I felt as he lifted me up and moved. I wasn't really aware of my surroundings anymore,there was this ringing sound in my head and next thing I knew,my limbs went limp. I opened my eyes again to the sound of TV and the smell of iodoform. Everything was blank. Yeah….that's right,I can't see. “ You're awake ?" Killian mentioned at my side. I turned my head to the direction of his voice.“ Not being able to see sucks.” “ You had a mild concussion and a scalp cut.” He added. I sighed.“ I fell ..so yeah I know.” His cologne drew closer,indicating that he shifted near me .“ I know this is hard for you but you have to accept help.” He was right ,I need help.“ Call my husband…he'll help me.” An irritated growl left his throat.“Fine then…I'll call him. But if he doesn't pick up or refuses to come over then I'm taking his place. You have to accept my help.” My brows deepened into a frown as my stomach twisted but I trust Viktor.“ He'll come.” I heard the ringing sound ,my chest tightened as I waited. The first ring …. The second….. A third ….and nothing. “ Call him again….he might be at work.” I gurgled as my eyes began to water. I closed my eyes ,praying silently that Viktor doesn't do this to me . Not again ,not in front of Killian. It kept ringing but no answer . My eyes stang.“ Maybe he's at the office ,I'll call him back in a few hours.” I turned my face to the other side of the bed,not wanting Killian to see the pain in my eyes. I even expected him to leave but he didn't.“ I got you dinner….you have to eat now because I have a surgery scheduled for 9. I don't know when it'll end but when I'm done,I'll come pick you up.” He explained,his voice cool. The smell of pasta filled my nostrils and my stomach grumbled. I didn't object so I let him feed me while fighting to keep my face free from hurt. Before he left for the surgery ,he placed my phone in my palm and my finger on the exact spot on the screen in case I still wanted to call Viktor. “ As for your internship,I've made arrangements for audio classes.Textbooks would be turned into audio for you . You can come to the ward if you want and you can work in the practice lab for the time being.” He then patted my shoulders.“ I'll see you in two hours.” I nodded ,my chest warming up for what he did for me. I don't know him but he's done more than…..than what I expected of Viktor. I tapped on the screen to call him in hopes that he'll pick up. He didn't,not until the fourth attempt . “Rave ... .why have you been calling? I'm in the office.” He spoke the moment he picked. I bit down on my lips.He didn't even ask if I was doing okay. “ Viktor… I need you right now. I can't do this alone.” My voice broke. He sighed.“ Can't you get someone over there to help. A fellow nurse or someone nice?" My fingers trembled.“I don't know anyone here….I can't just invite a random person into my dorm.” He grumbled again.“ I'm really busy Rave…besides who's going to look over the kids. I have to work to give you the luxury you've always wanted.” My jaw tightened in agony. I don't know why I expected him to say something different. “ Can't you put off work for a few weeks , for me? I just need to adjust ,I need someone with me. I need you.” He went quiet for a few seconds and my heart filled with hope only for it to be shattered as his words reached my ears. " I have to work,Rave. Hire someone to assist you.” He rasped.“ I'll see you later.” And just like that,he hung up. I gripped the edge of the bed,the first tear escaping my eyelids. What did I expect ? I let the phone drop to my side as I stared into the darkness my eyes fed me with. Ten seconds later ,the phone vibrated again. My heart spiked ,maybe Viktor had changed his mind. “ Viktor?.....” I gasped,my heart stinging in relief that I don't have to deal with the hurt. “Ma’am…it's Julie.” “Oh” I chuckled awkwardly as the disappointment sank in. " She's back ma’am. She's been here since the morning.” Julie continued. My muscles tensed.“ Who?” I asked even though I already knew who she was talking about. She lowered her voice as she spoke.“Holly, they've been together for a while now in the bedroom.” My breath ceased in my throat. Didn't Viktor say he was at work? Julie continued.“I overheard them discussing a divorce .” A divorce? That moment everything went still and the phone slipped out of my gasp.Killian I've been blowing air into a helium balloon every twenty minutes because I'm freaking out. It's happening for real this time, I mean goddamn real.I'm getting married!I'm getting married!I'm getting married! This isn't every man's dream; it wasn't my dream either, until Raven stole my heart a long time ago. There's so much on my plate and the pressure is building. The wedding preparations have been sped up; it's a lot easier because the previous preparations weren't totally cancelled, so we just picked up where we left off. Now I have to hurry up and buy a house because we are moving overseas immediately after our wedding. I have to make sure the house is to the Ravens ' liking. I have to finish the project over there too before my honeymoon and I have to fucking calm down! Raven and I were at the venue for the reception. She said she personally wants to supervise the decorations and all. As for me, I tagged along because she asked me to and now I'm here tapping on m
KillianI'd be damned if I said I didn't want to go back to Phoenix, to her. I didn't even want to leave in the first place, but it's been two days, and I finally realized that she was right.I haven't healed yet, and we can't build a relationship on trauma, but at the same time, I can't heal without her. We've come a long way, and I'll be deceiving myself if I say I need time away from her.Sure, it wouldn't be easy, especially without knowing the paternity of the child, but it'll do.I'll deal with it.I'll deal with everything blocking our paths and run back to her.I'm at my new place. I had to get a temporary apartment since Nero burnt down my house. The cops are still on his trail, and this time I had charged him with attempted murder.If he's caught, he's going straight to jail and never coming out, and I can finally be at peace, and so can Raven. As of now, my main focus is finishing the deal overseas and moving there with Raven. After we get married, of courseWhich, of cours
Killian Three weeks ago....She even cheats. I'm not surprised, especially with a husband like that. Any man who can be a complete pushover and dummy for a woman deserves to be hanged. She cheats even while he is home, and he can't do anything about it. How did this man end up being Raven's father?I increased the brightness on my laptop because she had switched off the lights in the bedroom and turned on the light on the bedside table. I was 15 minutes away, and this was the day she would breathe her last. It's time I fulfilled my vows, the vows I made the night I was locked up in prison because of this damn woman.I had vowed to end her, the same way I did to my parents. No parents with this kind of nature deserve to live. Their kids deserve happiness, and that's why I always find a way to deal with them and take the kids to my orphanage. Unfortunately, Raven is a grown-up child now. But that doesn't mean she doesn't deserve justice for the abuse she faced when she was little. I
RavenWe stayed like that for a while, his heavy breathing the only thing breaking the silence between us.I just wanted him to feel it…that even if I wasn’t beside him, I hadn’t left.He raised his face again and then pushed me off him. I didn't resist ,I let him do whatever he wanted.After another stretch of silence, he exhaled deeply. “ I'm sorry for my outburst. I just….”“ It was needed,” I said, moving to sit beside him on the couch.He didn't look at me and we fell into another silence until I broke it this time.“ You need space.”I waited for his reply but he didn't say anything. I took it as a yes so I continued.“ I'll give you some time…you can come back whenever you want to.” He then turned to face me." Why does this sound like a permanent goodbye?” A faint smile appeared on my lips. “It’s not…But we can’t rebuild our relationship like this. You’re still hurting… and I’m the reason why. Staying like this will only worsen the situation. It's like pouring salt on a wound.
Raven I stabilized myself before I fell to the ground. By the time I looked up again, Killian had lost his cool. He was pacing, dragging his feet heavily on the floor. The struggle on his face was real. This is what happens when you carry something that painful for too long. Carrying a burden for years can be likened to putting a ship's anchor on your shoulders and sinking slowly to the bottom of the ocean.I can't imagine how hard it must have been for him, especially after I lost my memories.I figured out he hadn't forgiven me when I kept wondering why Killian couldn't just let go of what happened with Nero, and we both moved on. Killian is normally possessive, and he is too obsessed with me to let me go. So a child wasn't what was putting us apart. It was the Unresolved past issues, the betrayals, and the hurt. You can't move forward with anybody if there is still something buried deep that hasn't been uprooted.“Fine!!" He suddenly snapped. He stopped pacing and came to stand
KillianI sighed heavily again. I have carried this weight in my chest for so long. She can't just say it's not a big deal. What I did was anger and revenge and I regret it because the next morning, I dumped her there and didn't have any intention of coming back. So she has to understand that. “ Listen to me, Raven.” I started. “Every day of my life I regret it, okay? ” I paused to take another breath.“ You might have thought it was just plain sex, but to me, I did something punishable by death and I regret it….okay? It ate deep in me, something in me broke after I realised what I did to you ….”She interrupted me.“ But I chose not to take it as anything serious.”I ran a hand over my face.“ I don't think you understand the gravity of the situation.”She nodded.“ I do and I choose to forgive you.”I stared at her, disbelief in my face.“ No…listen to me. I raped you !” She nodded again.“ And I forgive you.”I snorted, pacing a few steps and then returning back to my initial postin







