Ch. 5

SERGIUS

Was this what it felt like to be so enraged knowing things were not working out for you?

I slammed my hand harshly on the desk, my anger evident on my face as all my pack mates who were standing in a corner shivered in fright while the guards, trying to act all cool, were also scared. 

Standing in front of me was the fourth wife I had taken just within a few months. 

Just six months, and I don't even know what is wrong with me. 

Each time I try, each time I try to find a good way to make them worthy to sleep with me, things keep getting ruined.

“What is wrong with you, Ariel? I don’t know what else to do to you. How did you do it? How did you lose such an important pregnancy? That child was supposed to be the heir of this pack. Do you even realize the risk? Do you even realize what you are doing? You are supposed to keep yourself protected and strong. If the maids are too stupid to protect you, then at least you should have some dignity and protect yourself. You have a responsibility, and you need to live up to it. You know that! I don’t know why I still have to keep reminding you,” I said angrily to her as my beta at the corner slowly walked towards me, as if he was about to whisper another pleading word to me.

I raised my hands up in the air to stop him. “Don’t. This is not the right time for you to tell me what to do and what not to do,” I said, feeling more enraged. “Get out of here. I don’t know what else to do to you. I don’t know if I need to beg you because you are the one who placed your life in danger, and now you had a miscarriage. Do you even know how important this is to me? Do you know how hard it is to have something that belongs to me while you guys keep ruining it?” 

I said, trying to suppress my anger, but yet it was so evident in my voice. She didn’t mutter anything but instead stayed quiet. 

“Get out,” I muttered as she immediately rushed out with a few of her escort mates, leaving me with the rest. “All of you out. I don’t want anybody here. Get the hell out of my study room!” I said, even more enraged as they all raced off, leaving me alone with my beta. 

I looked at him, frustrated, not knowing how to hide this. Should I pretend I’m angry or really show him how I feel? Because at this point, I couldn’t tell what my emotions were, but I knew I was not liking what was going on. 

“I don’t know what to do anymore. This is not what I expected. It’s not any of the things I wanted. Why are things going sideways for me? What do I have to do? I can’t bear this anymore,” I said.

“Maybe we have to find another way, Alpha. It’s been four wives. It’s not easy at all. Each of them keeps losing a child or another. It’s not normal. I promise you it isn’t. We have to find a solution. Shouting at your wives and everything is not going to solve the problem. There has to be a reason why all of this is happening,” he said as I laughed.

“A reason? And what type of reason exactly do you think it is, huh? I don’t even think I did anything wrong ever. Why am I being punished like this? Why does the Moon Goddess decide that the best way to pay me back is to make me lose everything I want? If I don’t have an heir, then this throne is not even secured for me. You know that!” I said, still clenching my hands tightly into fists, trying to suppress my anger. 

He slowly dropped the file on my desk. “Go through it. He’s a very powerful priest. He will look into the matter, and solutions will be provided,” he said before walking off. 

I picked up the file, at first being reluctant to check it. I have no reasons to try alternatives. The fault is not coming from me. Clearly, each wife I take is just so reckless and useless, but at the same time, I can’t really tell where exactly this issue is coming from. 

I opened the first page and saw all his details, how good he was, and how he was able to make assumptions that came to reality because I wouldn’t call that seeing into the future. I threw the file in annoyance and stood up. “Fuck. Things were never supposed to turn out like this. I don’t even have to beg anybody, but now I have no choice. This is just so fucked up,” I said, annoyed as I stepped out, seeing my beta still standing there, having some discussions with the guards. 

I guess he was trying to suppress them and make them understand I was only angry and normally don’t react that way. “I think it’s time. I am not going to wait another day. I want to know where the problem is coming from, and if it comes from any of my wives, they are all going to leave this palace tonight,” I said, enraged as he nodded.

“Oh Goddess. This better not be my fault. I have done everything possible. The only thing I want from you is to make me secure my throne. I know any little mistake from me, and it will be taken from me. I know the kind of person who is waiting for my downfall, and I am not ready to go down. Despite the fact that I heard good news about his life, I wouldn’t let it affect mine. 

We soon got to the priest, and he started his incantations. I sat there feeling more and more angry as he looked at me like he was surprised. Then he continued, “Please, you’re taking forever. Just tell us what the situation is,” I said, already becoming too impatient as my beta looked at me, signaling for me to still myself. 

I stayed quiet and looked away as he laughed. “You don’t have a problem. Thankfully, you caused the problem yourself. You need to find her.” 

“Find who?”