Home / MM Romance / Crossdressing For The Emperor / Chapter 1 Lioren’s POV

Share

Crossdressing For The Emperor
Crossdressing For The Emperor
Author: V. Vale

Chapter 1 Lioren’s POV

Author: V. Vale
last update publish date: 2026-04-08 18:02:30

I had learned long ago that staying unnoticed was key to survival. In the outer parts of Kaldor, people like me weren't meant to stand out. We weren't meant to be remembered, and definitely not meant to be protected. Those who were remembered either owed something or had something taken from them. I could do neither. So, I kept my head down, my voice quiet, and my presence forgettable. It was the only way to live long enough to see another day in the kingdom.

Hunger was the only thing that never forgot me. It woke with me each morning, a dull, familiar ache deep in my stomach that refused to leave. Some days it was quiet, almost bearable. Other days, like today, it felt sharper, as if reminding me I had no right to rest.

I walked through the market carefully, sticking to the edges where the shadows hid me. The market was always busy, full of voices and movement. The smell of fresh bread and cooked meat hung in the air like a promise I couldn't have. I kept my eyes forward, but I saw everything. A careless merchant. An unattended basket. A distracted buyer. Opportunities didn't announce themselves; you had to notice them before they vanished.

I stopped near a fruit stall, pretending to look at the bruised pieces nobody wanted. The merchant was arguing with a woman about prices, his voice loud enough to distract from his goods. My hand moved without thinking, quick and practiced. I slipped a small apple into my sleeve and walked away. I didn't run. Running draws attention.

Instead, I walked steadily, blending back into the crowd as if I had never stopped. Only when I turned into a narrow alley did I let myself breathe properly. Leaning against the wall, I pulled out the apple and stared at it. It was small, a little soft on one side, but it was food. That was all that mattered.

“You’ll get caught one day.”

The voice came from a corner, quiet but sure. I looked over and saw an old man sitting against the wall. His clothes were worn, his eyes too sharp for someone who looked half-asleep. He had been there long enough to see everything, I realized too late.

“Not today,” I replied, taking a bite before he could say more.

He made a soft sound, a mix of amusement and disapproval. “That’s what they all say.”

I didn't answer. There was nothing to say that would matter. People like him liked to talk as if there were better choices, as if survival could be done with clean hands. I finished the apple in silence and threw the core aside. The market had given me what it could for the day. Staying longer would only bring trouble.

Work was an option, but not a reliable one. I had tried before—carrying things, running errands, cleaning stalls at the end of the day—but those chances were rare, and the pay was never enough. Hunger always returned, and when it did, it demanded faster solutions.

By the time the sun started to set, I had already decided not to go back with nothing. Storms were better. They scattered things, leaving behind carelessness that people were too busy to notice. It wasn't guaranteed, but it was worth the risk. So I made my way towards the edge of the forest, where the ground got softer and the air cooler.

The path was familiar, one I had walked countless times. My shelter was just beyond it, hidden enough to avoid notice but close enough for me to get back quickly if needed. It wasn't much—just broken wood and patched cloth—but it was mine in the only way anything could be mine. No one wanted it. That was reason enough to keep it.

The storm had passed not long before, leaving the ground wet and uneven. The smell of wet earth filled the air, and droplets fell from the trees occasionally, breaking the quiet with soft, irregular sounds. I moved carefully, scanning the ground. A fallen branch, a scattered bundle. Nothing of great value, but something was better than nothing.

I almost missed him. At first, I thought it was just debris in the mud, something the storm had moved. But then I saw the shape more clearly, the way it curved, too deliberate to be anything but human. I stopped. For a moment, I just stared.

He lay half in the mud, his body still, his clothes torn in places. Even damaged, the fabric looked fine, the kind I had only seen from far away. That alone made me step back. Men like him didn't belong here. Men like him brought trouble.

I turned away. It would have been easy to leave. I had done it before, walked past things I didn't want to understand, ignored problems that weren't mine. That was how you survived. But something made me look back. It wasn't guilt. I had let that go a long time ago.

It was the movement. Small. Barely noticeable. A shallow breath that lifted his chest just enough to show he wasn't dead. I breathed out slowly, my shoulders tightening as I looked at him again.

“This isn't my problem,” I muttered. The words sounded weak. Helping him would cost me time, energy, and whatever little I had. Leaving him would cost nothing. It shouldn't have been a hard choice. But it was.

I stepped closer before I could change my mind, crouching down for a better look. His face was pale under the dirt, his expression tight even in sleep. There was a wound on his side, dark with dried blood, and another near his shoulder that looked worse. He shouldn't have been alive. Yet, he was.

I let out a quiet breath, running a hand through my hair as I thought one last time. “Fine,” I muttered. “If you die, you die. That’s not on me.” It was a weak excuse, but it was enough to make me act.

Dragging him back was harder than I expected. He was heavier than he looked, his body resisting every shift. The ground didn’t help, uneven and slick, forcing me to adjust my grip many times. I stopped often, leaning forward to catch my breath, my arms aching. “This is a mistake,” I said quietly as I pulled him another step. “A very stupid mistake.” He didn't respond. Of course he didn't.

By the time I reached my shelter, I was tired, my patience gone. I pushed the door aside and dragged him inside, letting him drop onto the floor with less care than I should have. For a moment, I just stood there, looking down at him, wondering if I had the energy to do more. Then I sighed and moved.

I cleaned his wounds with the little water I had, working quickly but carefully to stop the bleeding. I tore a piece of cloth from an old shirt to wrap his side, tightening it just enough. “You better be worth this,” I muttered as I finished. He remained still, his breathing shallow but steady.

The room felt smaller with him in it. I noticed then, the way his presence filled the space even without moving. It was subtle, but it was there, something I couldn't quite name but couldn't ignore. I leaned against the wall, watching him longer than I needed to. “If you wake up and cause trouble,” I said quietly, “I’m throwing you right back outside.” It was an empty threat, and I knew it.

Time passed slowly. The light faded, the air grew colder as night fell. I kept my distance, staying near the corner, listening to his breathing as if it might change any moment. When it did, I noticed immediately. His fingers twitched first, drawing my attention. Then his breathing shifted, deeper now, more controlled. I straightened slightly, my body tensing without thinking.

His eyes opened not long after. And in that moment, I knew I had brought something dangerous into my life.

Continue to read this book for free
Scan code to download App

Latest chapter

  • Crossdressing For The Emperor    Chapter 27 : Carl’s POV

    Lio was still talking about the park when we got home.Honestly, I expected it. When something gets him excited, he really gets into it, thinking about it from every angle and saying everything there is to say. It’s one of the things that makes him easy to be around. His enthusiasm is real and he’s not ashamed of it. He doesn’t pretend to be interested; he just is.“Every week,” he said, dropping onto his mat and kicking his shoes off. “We’re going every week. No matter what, we’ll make time for it.”“We’ll make time for it,” I said.“You say that now.”“I mean it now. It’s a park, Lio. It’s not going anywhere.”He pointed at me. “Neither are we, and that’s my point. We live here. We should actually live here, not just work, sleep, and eat. The park is part of that.”I couldn’t disagree with his thinking. I didn’t really want to. He was right; we had been sticking to a small area since we arrived – the house, t

  • Crossdressing For The Emperor    Chapter 26 : Carl’s POV

    The next morning, I woke up earlier because Lioren wouldn't stop coughing.It was the kind of cough that wakes you up before you're fully awake, pulling you from sleep before you're ready. I lay still for a moment, hoping it would pass. But it didn't. Then I heard Lio moving uncomfortably on his sleeping mat, so I sat up.The light coming through the window was still dim, not yet sure what kind of day it would be. I got up and went to Lio's side of the room. He was lying with his knees pulled up a little, his forehead wrinkled, and his breathing uneven."Lio."He opened his eyes and looked at me, trying hard to pretend he was okay. "I'm fine," he said right away. That told me he wasn't fine at all, because people who are really fine don't feel the need to say it before you even ask.I crouched beside him and put the back of my hand on his forehead. He was hot. More than hot, actually. He felt like he had a fever."You h

  • Crossdressing For The Emperor    Chapter 25 : Lioren’s POV

    The idea came to me while I was still sitting at the table, turning my empty bowl slowly in my hands and staring at nothing in particular. Carl was quiet next to me, doing that thing he does when he's thinking hard. His jaw would tighten a little, and his eyes would look far away."What if we use the money we have for something small?" I said. "A little business. Something we can run from here."Carl looked at me. "Like what?""I don't know yet. But we have a little saved now, and if we're careful, we can use it to start something instead of waiting for someone to ask us to clear their yard."He was quiet for a moment, and I could see him thinking about it. Carl doesn't dismiss ideas quickly, but he also doesn't jump into things without thinking them through. That's one of the things I like most about him. He takes his time with decisions, like he takes his time with cooking, carefully with focus."It's not a bad idea," he said

  • Crossdressing For The Emperor    Chapter 24 : Lioren’s POV

    "I had a dream," I said, before he could speak.He stopped stretching his arms and looked at me fully. "A dream?""About the Emperor."The words hung in the air between us. I watched his face change as he heard them. He didn't say anything right away, which was something I had learned to like about Carl. He didn't rush to fill the silence. He sat on his mat, folded his hands, and gave me his full attention, like he did for things he truly cared about."Tell me," he said simply.So I told him everything. I told him about the gold and the diamonds, about feeling silk on skin I'd never touched, about a kingdom bowing to me and a heavy crown on my head. I told him about Kaelric standing beside me, tall and calm like I remembered him, his eyes holding that quiet power that never left him, even when he was hurt and weak in my care. I told Carl about the moment just before I woke up, when the Emperor leaned toward me with a soft look on his face, something I didn't expect from a man like him

  • Crossdressing For The Emperor    Chapter 23 : Lioren’s POV

    I never expected to dream. I had been so tired when I finally lay down on my mat that I thought sleep would just take me somewhere blank and quiet, the kind of deep, dreamless rest that belongs to tired bodies and minds without worries. And for a while, that's exactly what happened. I drifted away from being awake quickly, sinking through my thoughts without any effort at all.But then the dream came.It didn't arrive with the confusing feeling of most dreams, where ordinary ones start in the middle of a scene in some almost-familiar place that almost makes sense. This one came in slowly, like curtains being pulled back to show something that was already set up and waiting behind them.I was standing in a room so large that the walls in the distance were hard to see. The light inside was golden and seemed to come from nowhere in particular, like it was coming from everywhere at once, making everything it touched soft. The floor under my feet was

  • Crossdressing For The Emperor    Chapter 22 : Lioren’s POV

    I think the most amazing thing in the world isn't power, or money, or beauty. It's finding someone who chooses to stay with you when they could easily leave. Someone who walks into hard times with you, not because they have to, but because somewhere along the way, they decided your life and their life weren't completely separate anymore.I had been thinking about this since we walked home from Boro's yard. The money felt warm in Carl's hand, and we were both tired in that good, satisfying way that comes from a full day of real work. We sat at our low table in the fading light coming through the open window and spread the coins out between us to count them properly.It was a good amount. Not a lot of money, but enough to last us a week if we were careful. I felt joy seeing those coins that had nothing to do with how much they were worth. It was the joy of something earned. Something clean."This will be more than enough to keep us going," I said, looki

More Chapters
Explore and read good novels for free
Free access to a vast number of good novels on GoodNovel app. Download the books you like and read anywhere & anytime.
Read books for free on the app
SCAN CODE TO READ ON APP
DMCA.com Protection Status