Journal entry 180TreadwayIt's funny how fate seems to be bringing you and me closer to each otherI like itI like you I hope l get to know you on a different level.I will not be stalking you anymore because I will have a right to ask about you since we are workmates now.You are now my workmate.Never in a million years did l think l would breathe the air of the same room with you for a whole day. Longer than that actually because we are now working together-------------------------------------------After work I did not get to see him because I was going to be late to pick up mom from work since her car had a flat tire.My mom and l got home and prepared dinner together.As we were eating."How was work?" I ask her."Work was okay l had one surgery today." She says as she smiles."One of the less busy days?" I ask her and she nods asking how my day was."You seem cheerful today, might I ask why?""No apparent reason, oh we have a new worker at the café. His name is Treadway."
Journal entry 201Dear TreadwayI have started calling you Way. You do not seem very fond of it because you correct me every time l say Way saying it's Treadway.I do not listen though because I want to be someone you think about. Every time you hear Way anywhere else you think of me. Selfish aren't l? I try talking to you on certain occasions but you keep the conversations professional, most of the times l do the talking.Not that you have a habit of ignoring people but I think you just don't talk a lot, you are reservedYou are also kind; I saw you buying a little girl who was short of money to buy a chocolate dipped éclair. You bought her three eclairs and I was pleased.I thought back to when I bought the energy drinks for you, I wonder if you thought of that incident too. I know you are kind, damaged people are not kind so, you are not damaged. There is still hope.I have asked you to have lunch with me a couple of times at work which in turn you decline politely. I don't
"Hello, excuse me?" I ask cautiously approaching. Treadway's face comes into view and l feel the butterflies in my stomach explode."Thank you for doing what you did in the morning. Kindly keep it to yourself." He says and as he was about to leave l open my mouth to speak."We could have lunch together if you really want to thank me," I say with a small voice. "I do not have the money to spend during lunch so l will have to pass, thank you though." He says and it confirms my suspicions.He started working here to make sure he gets enough money to give his stepdad."It's my treat since I suggested the whole thing." I say hesitating."Okay then." He agrees surprising me.As always, he never ceases to amaze me.This makes me wonder what kind of person he really is.We had lunch together the next day, he kept telling me to focus more on my food rather than looking at him but I could not stop myself from looking at him. He was having lunch with me.Even Isa and Andre asked a lot about t
The next day was bit doom and gloomy because I was scared that he did not like me and he would say good riddance once I stopped showing interest. As the day progressed I was no longer gloomy, because he was sparing a few glances my way as we were working and he was taking orders that were near my tables.As lunch approached all the others went for lunch but l didn't, l stayed behind. I took my journal out and sat in the changing room all by myself.Journal entry 220Dear Best FriendJeremyI haven’t visited your grave because I am scared it will take a toll on me. I am not yet mentally prepared and I apologize for that. I will visit soon because I miss you.Remember the first day we met, l was 7 and you were 9 and l was at your parent's barbecue when l nearly fell into the pool and you came as my knight in shining armor and held my hand.I was very pleased, although we ended up falling into the pool together but you were my hero.And since then, you became my brother from another m
Dear Jeremy MartinNo amount of words could describe how sorry I am or how much I miss you.I am sorry I did not drive us that day, I am sorry I even agreed to go with you to the party.If only I had listened to how uneasy I felt, you would have been here with me. After sometime of talking with Lydia, watching and reading some books on how to get over a tragedy I understood that what happened to us was inevitable.The signs were there, you did not want to go in the first place, you asked me to drive, I felt uneasy but we still drove that day.It was beyond the both of us and I got to understand that.Lydia once said you are looking down on me from heaven and it hurts you to see me mopping over your loss and I don’t want you to feel like that.I want you to feel loved, I want everything that you see to make you smile, relieved and unburdened. I want all my memories of you to be light not darkness, joyful not gloomy and I want our conversations about you to be of happy memories never
The ride was silent but comfortable. "You are looking very beautiful; blue looks perfect on you." He compliments and I melt in my seat. "Thanks, you don't look too bad yourself." I say to him and he smirks. "Says someone who was checking me out earlier, wouldn't hot suit me more." He says as he laughs. "Oh my gosh, I wasn't checking you out." I say looking away to hide my rosy cheeks. "You are cute when you blush." He says and that doesn't help my case instead of replying because clearly, he wants to embarrass me I turn up the volume to the music playing in the car. That was the worst decision I had ever made my whole life because Rita Ora's song blasted through the speakers and of all the songs that she has, it had to be 'Let you love me''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''''See I wanna stay the whole nightI wanna lay with you 'til the sun's upI wanna let you insideOh, heaven knows I've triedI wish that I could I let you loveWish that I could let you love meI wish that
Spending time with Elicia became something I could not do without. She made me want to stand up to Ron, my stepdad, if possible beat him to death but unfortunately I could not. I loved my mom and I didn't want Val to grow up without a mother, she already had no father. Since the café closed, I managed to get a job for the festive break that paid very well so l had nothing to worry about when it came to getting money for Ron.I also got to spent time with Val and Mick. The next day on Saturday I was supposed to meet Ron at the house and give him the money I had earned. I got home and knocked to be welcomed by a wasted Ron. The whole house was full of smoke. He had two of his friends in the house smoking pot. The whole house reeked of alcohol and this got me sick to my stomach. I knew very well the money I gave him enabled him to buy all these drugs and beer but I could not protest. I hated that I was weak when it came to this; why couldn't I be strong and stand my ground? "Go
Entry 250 Dear Journal I haven't been saying anything to you lately But I am good, in fact I am awesome. Remember Treadway, I have been talking to him a lot.I never thought my feelings for him would grow any bigger but apparently they can. I can't believe he doesn't see what is between us.Or maybe he is just taking his time Who takes a girl out for ice-cream, out for lunch, wins stuff for her at a carnival, visits her at home and not feel anything? He must have some feelings for me, right? He kissed me on my forehead, so he must have feelings for me. Or just my imagination, but I hope he likes meAt times I feel like I should stop him from doing all this Because if it turns out that he doesn't feel the same as I do, I will be screwed, wrecked, brokenAll of it.But I can't help but want to relish the moment-------------------------------------------------Sleeping was now the second best thing after spending time with Treadway because I slept besides the teddy bear he b