Off to UCLA I have always been dreaming of going to the same college with my boyfriend and now that dream is coming true. The next day mom drives me to school. Treadway drives his car with Mick and Vee. Once we got to the campus, we checked-in and helped each other to carry our bags into our dorm rooms. "You have the same room number as mine," Treadway says. My dorm room number was 65E and his dorm room number was 65B. We got to my room first and knocked; a Chinese girl around my age opened the door. "Ni hao." I greet her and she smiles. "Knock it off I can speak English just fine." She says and I pick up an American accent and l smile at her as well. "You must be Elicia Rae, I am Nicky. get in." she says and we all get in and leave the luggage in my dorm room. "I will be right back; I need to help him settle in." I say to my roommate Nicky. She winks at me and we exit the room to go to Treadway's room. Apparently Treadway had no roommate, it was a single's room, s
A list of songs that go through my head when writing this book Dandelions by Ruth B What do you mean by Justin BeiberCan you hold me by NF ft Britt NicoleTime by NF That way by Tate McRaeSix feet under by Billie Eillish Hurt you by The weekend ft GesaffelsteinI hate you, I love you by Olivia O’Brien ft GnashEuphoria by Jungkook of BTS Love song by Rihanna ft Future We don’t talk anymore by Charlie Puth ft Selena GomezWait by NF Minefields by John Legend Make it right by BTS ft Lauv Stitches by Shawn Mendes Hollow by Victor Ray
Class of 2015 (July 16)We threw our red caps in the air celebrating the end our high school years.“Happy end of high school babe.” My boyfriend, Jason said kissing the top of my head as we walked out of the gymnasium.“Oh please, go do your PDA somewhere else,” Jeremy spoke as he took me out of Jason’s grasp. Jeremy, Jer for short was my best friend since I could remember. “We should go to the after party,” Madison, my girl best friend said as she removed her gown. “Dinner reservations with mom and dad.” I say looking towards Jer, my best friend to back me up since I did not want to look like I was ditching some quality time with my friends.“Yeah, dinner. I almost forgot.” Jer said and I mentally facepalmed myself for Jer’s awkward back up.“You guys could join if you want, I will just text mom. “No, it’s fine. I could use the alcohol.” Maddie says looking at Jason.“Jace, are you coming?” I ask my boyfriend.“I promised the boys that I would be there with you but since you aren’
Day of the accident (27 July) “Hey mom, is El ready?” Jer asked mom as he took a seat near the island in our kitchen. Jer came to take me out to a party of a friend of his. “I think so, she was looking for her purse a few minutes ago.” my mom replies as she tosses an apple to Jer. “I swear you are growing taller by the day.” Mom says standing on her tip toes ruffling his hair. I walk into the kitchen in my black skinny jeans and a plain white tee paired with white Nike snickers. “You could have at least tried to look nice,” Jer says and I hit his head with my purse. “Ow, that hurts you. Dweeb!!!” he says scratching his head. “Serves you right.” I say and mom just laughs it off and kisses both of us goodbye. “Make sure you guys are home by midnight.” “Yes, mom.” Jer says saluting mom. “And make sure you drag El everywhere you go, she tends to be a loner at times.” my mom says whispering a bit at the end. “MOM!!!!!!” I say rolling my eyes. “Can you drive, I feel so out of it
I wonder if anyone knows that the end of a car accident is the beginning of hell, recovery and endless pain.Yet the road remains the same and people continue driving through it.Apparently a month and two weeks later, the mid September; the month I was supposed to be at UCLA (University of California and Los Angeles) with Jeremy I was seated in front of a woman named Lydia. Late thirties, slim, dirty blond hair and very beautiful. She had a welcoming aura around her at all times and she tried her best to get me to talk but she failed dismally for the past two weeks. Not that I did not want to talk because I wanted to but I could not.I do not know what was happening to me it was as if I had lost the ability to produce sound. “Your mom said you had a nightmare yesterday, what was it about?” “Did you have a dream about Jeremy?” She asks and I winced at the mention of Jeremy's name. It’s still difficult to believe that he was gone.“El, talk to me.” I just stare at her and she si
••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••Journal entry 101 You showed up again today. The usual routine you climb up the stairs of the same unfinished building that is right across our house and you sit on the edge of the building.I get to see you every day for an hour and a half before you take off in your black Jeep.Most times you just sit and stare into space, thinking I guess.Sometimes you come to dress your wounds, and l wonder what causes them.They are not just minor wounds, they look deep and you wince every time you dress them.Who causes them, do you get into fights? Are you one of those boys that parents tell their daughters to stay away from?This time it's not an arm wound, a head wound rather it's an abdominal wound. It looks deep and painful.You close your eyes in pain as you let the alcohol sink in to wash off the cut, avoiding infections as well. How come you are so good at dressing yourself, l know
To pass the time before University as it was already October I decided to work at a nearby Café, Plaza Café; it was approximately 10 minutes from home and five minutes from my mom’s workplace Cedars Sinai Medical Centre.Sometimes my mom and her co-workers came to eat at the café. I started working at the Café to avoid staying at home alone it was becoming boring, worse without my best friend. Lydia recommended as it was something light, that would not trigger anything and she said and I quote ‘Keeping myself a bit occupied’.After Jace broke up with me I did not tell my mom because she would have ended up worrying about trivial things.I was surprised I handled the breakup well or maybe it was because I had already started noticing the distance Jace was keeping and braced myself. As l was driving home from work around 6 pm. l spotted rooftop from across the street holding a pink and purple heart-shaped balloon.A little girl probably around the age of 8 approached him with a huge c
I head home with a smile of victory and butterflies in my stomach.As soon as l got home, we made supper with mom and ate. “How was work?” she asked as we finished eating.“Work was okay, l came straight home after.” l said.“It usually takes 10 minutes but you took 25 today. Did you stop by somewhere?” she asks curious.“No l didn't l just came straight home.” Now that l think about it l spent more than 10 eavesdropping on his conversation, not that l heard anything.“Jason and Maddie came looking for you.” My mom informs me.“I told him not to come looking for me.” l say my voice distasteful.“You never told me what happened between you two. You and Jason were inseparable.”“l don't want to talk about it Ma.” l say and continue to eat.“How come Jason doesn’t come over anymore did you guys have a fight or something?” mom presses on.“Quit it ma, can't l have a quiet meal for once in my life? If you are not asking about my depression you are all into my business, just stop.” l say b