CHAPTER NINETEEN: ELICIA

“I don’t even want to talk about it, it was so embarrassing.” I say moving to sit by the window, my usual sit.

“I wish I was there,” Lydia says laughing and I glare at her.

“There is something I want to know.” Lydia informs me and I nod my head allowing her to go on and ask.

“How exactly are you dealing with this because I am not seeing any progress the only difference is that you are no longer crying all the time. How are you moving on from this whole situation?” I knew she would ask something along these lines that is why I was hesitating to go for a session.

“I do not think I am dealing with it, I am not making any effort to move on.” I say and Lydia nods.

“You think he is just going to walk up to you and say he likes you back? Why are you not moving on?”

“No that I am expecting him to come to me or hoping he will but I don’t know I just want to experience all of it up until it no longer hurts to look at him. Right now I cannot spend five minutes near him without wanting to