MAVERICK
I was seething. I never planned to come back to Seattle. Not this soon. But sometimes, certain things cannot be ignored. My father and brother had crossed the damn line. I tightened my grip on the steering wheel, my teeth aching from how hard my jaw was clenched. My phone buzzed in the cup holder, but I didn’t look at it. I knew it was a text from Dwayne, my business partner and best friend, and the only person I trusted in this godforsaken city. He probably wanted to know if I’d touched down yet. We hadn’t seen each other in a few years, mostly because I was taking care of things in the Netherlands, but partly because the two people I hated and distrusted the most lived here, and I’d be damned before I breathed in the same air as them. But I was back. I may have let all the other fuck ups and stunts they pulled roll off my back, but not this. I’d made my decision the moment I found out what my family had done. They’d thought they could take what was mine and get away with it. They were wrong. I was going to burn it all to the ground. I pressed harder on the gas, my pulse hammering. Dwayne had warned me to think before making any moves, but I wasn’t known to be a very patient man. My phone buzzed again and I looked at the cup holder. Dwayne. Again. I looked back up, my stomach dropping. “Shit.” I saw the headlights coming towards me too late, swerving at exactly the last second, but not quick enough to avoid the collision. My body jerked forward as my car collided with another, the windshield cracking and nearly caving in, and then there was silence. For a moment, all I could do was breathe, relieved that I was okay. But then, wondering about the person who had veered into my lane, I opened the door and stepped out. It was dark, our headlights the only form of illumination, but I could still make out the figure behind the wheel. It was a woman. I approached the car slowly, prepared to ask some questions, but still a bit wary in case something had happened to her. And then she let out the most terrifying scream I had ever heard in my life. I hurried to her car, trying and failing to open the door. It was locked. The woman turned to look at me, tears streaming from her eyes as she sobbed loudly. I rapped my knuckles against the window. “Are you okay?” I asked. Though I wasn’t sure she heard me, she opened the door. “I’m so sorry,” came her voice, shaky and raspy, probably because she had been crying and screaming. “No worries,” I replied. “Are you hurt? I heard you scream.” I studied her form, checking for any blood stains or injuries with my eyes, and that was when I noticed that she was wearing scrubs. She worked in the medical field. “Um, yeah, I-I mean no, I’m n-not hurt. Not physically at least. I just-I’m sorry I hit your car,” she stuttered, refusing to meet my gaze. “Your car’s hurt too,” I said, keeping my voice as low and gentle as I could. I wasn’t going to make this woman more anxious than she already seemed. “Do you have insurance for that?” She looked up at me, lips quivering, and something about the expression on her face hit me like a sucker punch to the gut. She was beautiful. So damn beautiful, but she had been hurt. Tortured. Scorned. A broken soul, that’s what she was. “Yeah, I, um, I’m really sorry I hit your car. If you want me to pay for that, I’ll—” “Don’t worry about it,” I replied and she looked away, wringing her hands in her lap. “Thank you,” she said. Her voice was barely louder than a whisper. “I’ll um, I’ll leave, then. I’m so sorry.” She started to close the door. “Wait.” I wasn’t a good man. I had never claimed to be one. But walking away from this woman seemed like the worst mistake I could ever make in my life. “You can’t drive in this state. Why don’t you let me drop you off? I can call the tow truck company to come pick your car up so they can assess the damage.” She hesitated before peering at me, her eyes narrowing slightly. She was wary, and rightfully so. It was late into the night, and I was someone she didn't know. She opened her mouth, and just as I thought she was going to decline my offer, she said, “Okay.” She stepped out of the car, her full height only reaching up to my chest, and followed me to my car. As I held the passenger door open for her, I made a mental note to call the tow truck company and shut the door when she was seated. “So,” I asked once I fastened my seatbelt. “Where to?” Something about the way she hesitated made me feel a slight twinge of regret for even offering to take her home or wherever she was going. “I-I don't know. I never really… thought about that.” She faced forward as she spoke, and I noticed from the side how neatly and tightly her hair was tied into a bun. That had to be hurting her scalp. Even I knew that. “What do you mean by that?” I asked. “Where do you live? Or work?” I added, taking the scrubs she was putting on into consideration. However, something told me that this woman wasn’t on her way to work. Her breath hitched. “I can’t go back there. I-I can’t…” she trailed off, taking deep breaths. My jaw clenched as I combed my fingers through my hair. Whatever happened to this woman was recent. Very recent. And it looked like I was going to be the one to take care of her. Shit. “I’m sorry, I just…” her voice was thick with emotion, and as she looked at me, I felt my heart break into a thousand tiny pieces. “Can we just… go to your place instead? I’m not a thief, I promise. It’ll just be for tonight.” My place? Why did this woman want to go home with a stranger? What if I was a fucking serial killer? “It’s not me who should be worried,” I said after a few seconds of silence. “What’s your name?” She hesitated, chewing on her bottom lip, and when she spoke, I knew she was lying. “Mia. What’s yours?” “John.” I lied. If she wasn’t going to tell me her real name, neither was I. ‘Mia’ scoffed like she knew I was telling a lie as well. As I drove to my house, Mia stared out the window. A couple of times, I heard her whisper words I couldn't hear to herself. I couldn't blame her. Even I needed to berate myself for picking up a strange woman at night. I was just glad that Dwayne had hired people to get my house set up for me. I hadn’t been there in years. I pulled into the garage, stepped out of my car, and before I could turn to check on Mia, the passenger door slammed shut. I walked into my house, Mia not far behind, and I immediately headed for one of the downstairs guestrooms. Everywhere was silent except for the soft sounds of her feet against the ground. And mine too, of course. “Think you’ll be comfortable here?” I asked as I turned the lights on. Her eyes were wide as she nodded. “Yeah. Thank you.” “Great,” I exhaled. “Everything you need to freshen up should be in the bathroom. “I’ll be back with some water for you to drink, yeah?” Mia nodded again. “Okay.” God, she was so beautiful. I went upstairs to my room to drop my luggage and freshen up as well. And I was in the middle of putting on a T-shirt when I realized that I didn't give her anything to wear. So, pulling out a pair of sweatpants and a T-shirt from my closet, I hurried down the stairs, heading towards her room. I knocked twice, and when I didn't receive a response, I twisted the knob. And I fully regret not waiting for a response. Mia was just stepping out of the bathroom, naked and dripping wet.IRISI wasn’t asleep.Not really.My body was heavy, though, my limbs still completely drained from the emotional whiplash of last night’s events, but my mind… it just wouldn’t shut off.It wasn’t as easy to do as Maverick had said.I’d curled into Maverick like my life depended on it, letting him wrap his arms around me like a damn armor, letting myself pretend that for just a little while, I was okay. I was safe. Maverick was mine.But even with the warmth of his chest and the steady, calm rhythm of his heartbeat, I couldn’t fall into unconsciousness. Not fully.But I didn’t open my eyes when he left the bed. Even though I felt the way his body tensed before he slid out of bed, I didn't say a word. I didn’t need to. Didn’t even want to.Because if there was something wrong, he was going to let me know… right?And if he was holding something back—which I could tell he was—it was either to protect me…Or to prepare me.Or maybe the night brought back terrible memories for him.Shit.O
MAVERICK I wasn’t going to tell her.I’d made up my mind the moment I saw her broken in the waiting room. Why would I tell Iris that her mother’s attempted suicide was very similar to my own mother’s? Only, she died. Rhoda didn’t.Even I didn’t want to believe it myself.Because believing that this wasn’t just a coincidence meant a number of things that I wasn’t willing to accept yet.Believing that it wasn’t a coincidence would mean that it wasn’t a suicide attempt at all. It would mean that it was murder.That Rhoda was almost murdered, and my mother…No.Fuck, no.It wasn't possible. It couldn’t be possible. I had to stop fucking thinking about it.I glanced at Iris sitting beside me in the passenger seat. The sun was just starting to stretch across the sky, and she seemed tired, her voice drawling as she spoke to Megan on the phone. She hadn’t gotten any sleep last night after the long day that we had at the wedding.And fucking hell, it was impossible to believe that less than
IRIS I’d forgotten how cold hospitals could feel. Not just in temperature, but in spirit. The kind of cold that settled into your bones even though I was sure that the heating was working just fine.I sat in the waiting room, my pants stained with dried blood. Maverick had made me wash my hands, and to be honest, I had no memory of doing that because of how out of if I’d been. I stared down at them. They wouldn’t stop twitching.And all I could perceive part from the antiseptic in the hospital was the smell of iron. The smell of my mother’s blood.They’d taken her in over thirty minutes ago. Said that they would do everything they could to save her, like those words meant anything when you’ve already seen someone try to die in front of you.I kept replaying it in my head. Her voice on the phone. The way it cracked. The way her voice begged without actually begging for help. The way she said she was sorry.Sorry. I scoffed.Like that one word was going to fix the lifetime of mistakes
MAVERICK I’d seen this before.Not this exact scene. It was a different city, different room, different woman.Funny how the same night I decided to tell Iris about my past was the same night that we found her own mother like this.My legs had gone stiff. Locked. Like I was twelve years old again, staring at my mother’s lifeless eyes all while wondering what I had done wrong to make her leave me.Only this time, it wasn’t my mother.It was hers.And I had to remind myself to be present for her, because I could tell that she was losing her mind, and if there was even a slight chance that Rhoda could be saved, I wasn’t going to let her toss it away.Not that she would ever forgive herself if she did.Iris stared up at me, eyes wild with fear and something else I couldn’t name.“You’ve got this,” I said, making sure to keep my voice firm but still quiet. What Iris didn’t need right now was pressure. Her shoulders were already shaking. “Breathe. Just breathe and try as much as you can to
IRIS “Rhoda? Rhoda!”I stared at the screen, my heart beating furiously against my ribcage as dread filled me. Call ended.I called again. Thrice.And they all went to voicemail.Maverick was already moving, pulling his clothes on. “What happened?”I could barely speak as the phone slipped from my hand onto the floor.“I think something’s wrong,” I whispered, my throat closing up. “I think she’s in trouble.”“What?” Maverick pulled on his shirt, walking toward me. “What the hell is going on?”I finally looked at him, barely able to recognize my own voice. “She called me. I—I think she’s hurt, and she wouldn’t tell me where she was. She sounded like—”A sharp breath escaped my mouth as something panged my chest. I didn’t want to finish that sentence. That thought.I ran a frustrated hand through my hair, feeling panic start to grip my chest. I took a deep breath.I couldn’t panic. Not again. Not tonight. I just needed to find where she was staying.“Maverick, I—”“I know where she’s
IRIS Silence.That was what filled the room after Maverick finished talking.Complete, utter silence.Not the heavy kind—the one that smothered you like a pillow over your face. No. This was different. The silence wasn’t loud.It was hollow. Empty.I didn’t know what to say. What could I possibly say after everything he’d just told me? After he peeled himself open and laid his truth out bare to me?Maverick had suffered a lot in the hands of Quentin, and I was purely shocked that he hadn’t already tortured him to death. Shocked that Maverick was still here, and could stay in the same room with his father without lunging at his neck and slicing his jugular.Why was I having these thoughts? Maybe because that’s what I would’ve done.It’s what I ‘want’ to do.My head rested on his chest, one hand lightly tracing mindless circles on his pecs. I wanted to do that to his back. Wanted to turn him over and trace those beautiful scars so slowly until I memorized each one. His whole back was a