What’s the point?

*May’s POV*

I'm unable to sleep, my mind keeps flooding with these crazy thoughts and ideas about my boss. Did we just kiss? The thought of it numbs my knees to the ground, I can't believe it. But why should I bother so much, when we both know that he uses and dumps women, still, I'm not so sure because I've only seen him treat Nina unruly; it's partly her fault.

She was stealing from him and Lisa thinks that there is a conspiracy between Madam C and her. I am not certain but I kinda buy the conclusion.

The more I try to decipher, the more I get stuck in my emotions, despite the things that he's done to me, I find myself running back to him like I've never fallen in love before. I'm not taking what happened to heart, I believe that that was his way of unwinding and calming down since women are always a part of his fancy. God!!! Help me not to judge him by what others tell me—what Lisa tells me, I want to know him naturally.

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I get dressed for the start of a new day, I just want to do what I have and get this over with, if at all I want to see my Mom or leave Rome. It feels like danger, especially around these four humongous walls. I have a meeting with someone by nine o'clock and it's barely eight o'clock, I guess my anxiety is getting the best of me here. I sit by the large eating table skills skimming through a magazine I found on the table. Raina dishes out some Italian recipe, her cooking is blessed, it reminds me of my mother and Ms. Saunders. I sigh, I know that they must be holding up really well, plus, my mother is not too well.

“Please enjoy, and let me know if I have to adjust the seasoning or spicing of the food! Mr. Dom wants—”

“I would not want any of that, Raina, I'm perfectly fine!” I say to her and she nods with a smile and walks away. Mr. Dom this and that is getting me sick, at least I want to be free from all the confinement around here. I start eating, it's tasty.

“Ready for a new day? I mean, the franchise?” says Dimitri, I hear his voice loud and clear, he comes into view sitting next to me.

“Morning big guy!” I'm not teasing but I don't want to call him by his name either.

“It didn't answer my question lady,” he lightly punches the table, I'm shocked that the glasses aren't broken into pieces. What is wrong with him anyway?

“What is your problem? I want to be alone!” I haul at him at once and he only chuckles, rustling the tip of his finger around the coffee mug he came with.

“Well, I can see that you are hot-tempered, and so am I. Two temperamental people can not work hand in hand, let's make things easier for us, and besides, you can't shoo me away because I'm gonna be the eagle’s eye between the both of us! Keep everything in mind!” says Dimitri as he rises to leave.

“I'm—I’m sorry, I just need to figure myself out. I'm trying to adapt—”

“Take your time, if you need anything, just let me know. And yes, I'll be waiting for you outside on the lawn,” he adds and walks away. I just had to apologize, regardless I'm under him and I need him to me safe in a strange place as this, I can't mange things on my own because the boss and his men are definitely a Mafia organization, but the boss referred to it as ‘Critically Dangerous Community’, I had to join the pieces to get things straight in my head.

I lose the appetite for the meal, I walk out of the dining room, I appear in the large living room and I see the boss, he's on the phone with someone and then I halt. When he realizes that I am behind him, he ends the call and turns to me, he is looking great in a grey suit and black shoes. He smiled halfway at me

“Good-Good morning sir, how are you today?” I stutter in between and his faint smile disappears, it gets me thinking; did I say something wrong? I wish that I could have my face from him but how? We are basically living under the same roof. It sucks.

“Did you sleep on the edge, Ms. May?!” he asks and rubs his pointy nose swiftly.

“I slept fine!”

“Have you had breakfast at all?”

“Yes sir, a few minutes ago. I'm set to leave for the start of the day, would you be there?”

“I'm not so sure Ms. May, you are the boss; whatever is best, you know better! Like I have said before, I've matters unsettled. I should see to them first!” he explains and I nod affirmatively.

“Okay, I shall take my leave then. I hope things work out fine for you, sir!”

“And you too, Ms. May!”

He says as I pommel my feet to walk normally in the air of high heels, I feel his eyes on me. I don't want him to be far from me, I feel safer when he is around and uneasy when he is not. Regardless, I have to stay strong and be normal on this day. I have Dimitri, he's not going to let the bad guys touch me, he's a brave man and I'm trying to be brave too.