I'm scared

*May’s POV*

After everything I witnessed earlier, I feel like I’m going to be sick. I can’t believe my boss is this ruthless. He used a girl and then fired her? That’s something I’ve never seen before. I’m left wondering how many promises he made to her. I can’t wrap my head around this. I’m staring at his lips move, but my mind is elsewhere.

“...I won’t tolerate any more damned deals with the devil being made behind my back. I won’t take your jobs; I will take your lives. And if I could take even more than that, I would! Get out of my face, back to work!” He dismisses us and turns around, facing the glass as he stares out at the view.

I stand two steps away, waiting for anything he wants to say. I’m prepared for anything, except losing my job. The hall is empty; it’s just me and the huge guy next to the boss. My stomach is churning out of control.

“Raven?”

Seriously, what’s with this name, Raven, that he calls me? I’m exhausted by it.

“Yes, Sir,” I step closer to him, standing next to him and avoiding eye contact. Oh no.

“What do we have next?”

“There’s nothing more, Sir! Except for the—”

“Oh yeah? Did you know about the Rome franchise?”

Of course not; I hadn’t heard anything about that.

“No, Sir, I have no idea!”

“That’s what I expect to hear! Innocently obnoxious, right, Dimitri?” he asks the big guy. Now I at least know his name. What franchise do we have in Rome, and why does it involve me? He hasn’t finished.

“Yes, boss!” Dimitri replies

The boss turns to me slowly, hands in his pockets, his expression still stern, though I can see a faint smile creeping in. It’s unsettling.

“We have a business to run, and we’ll be leaving for Rome by the weekend! Get prepared! It’s confidential!”

“But sir—”

“I’m nice to this extent, aren’t I?”

I nod lightly.

“Good! It’s a business trip; I hope you remember that. Pack your things as soon as possible!”

“Sorry, Sir, but who else is going—”

“Let the boss decide, lady!” Dimitri snaps angrily. What did I do to deserve this attitude? My boss just smirks at me.

“Don’t scare her, Dimitri. Be careful; she’s very harmless!” the boss says, more as a taunt than a statement. He rubs his pointy nose swiftly and continues. “Go ahead, I’ll see you around! And... keep in mind that we have things to catch up on... on time!”

“Of course, Sir!”

I walk away, still feeling his gaze on me. It’s excruciating. I finally step out of the hall and take a deep breath, making my way into the women’s restroom.

I close the door behind me and lean against the sink, staring at my reflection as if trying to look deep into my soul. I desperately need some space. None of these trips were mentioned in my engagement letters; he doesn’t even have a branch in Rome. Is this a new establishment that popped up in just a few days? Oh God!

I rub my face slightly and cross my arms. I just want to drink some wine and escape these crazy thoughts. I’ve never been to Rome, and I’ve always been tied to my mom. Now I’m leaving for a new place I know nothing about, all in the name of business? Just me, the P.A., and the CEO, along with the big guy? Oh, forget it.

I take a deep breath and walk out of the restroom.

I return to my office and sit on the couch, grabbing my cell phone to call Daph. But then I remember it’s a confidential trip, and I toss my phone aside with a sigh. The confidentiality makes it more alarming, or maybe it’s just that I’m uncomfortable around my boss; that must be it.

“Get your shit together, May!”

Time flies a little faster,

It's the end of the day at work, I take up my coat and bag after setting my desk aright. I have to report to my boss first before exiting this huge building. Lisa has left, and why did she leave this soon anyway? Without letting me know, well, she must have a reading issue at hand or she doesn't feel like letting me know. It's fine.

I knock on the door, he doesn't say a word to me and I just take the risk of stepping in. I look around, and the boss and Dimitri aren't there. This is strange, am I the only one left in this building?

Fuck! I turn to leave and I hear footsteps, I turn around instantly. He is adjusting his trousers and I quickly look away from him. I hate to see a thing like this. He is my boss for crying out loud.

“Raven?” His voice swallows me like I've longed to hear it, he sits halfway on the edge of the desk and crosses his arms, he motions at me to come forward. I do it, scarily.

“I uhm... I wanted to know if you need me for anything before I take my leave.”

“Really? Why did you do it?”

“You mean?” I stare at him, perplexed.

“You watched us! Alicia and I!”

“Th-that was a mistake, I swear to you. I didn't have intentions to watch, I swear it—”

“But you did. More than a second! Does my daughter know?”

“No! Please, Sir, don't tell it to her, she'd—”

“You are a dirty little slut, aren't you?”

This is beyond it, how can he call me that? I'm not a slut, I know that. I've only had sex with two men in my entire life, that's the fucking rapist and Austin. It's not even more than five times, altogether. My eyes well up, it's humiliating for him to say that to me.

“No sir, I'm not—”

“Okay. I'll just find out! See you by morning, May Myers!” he says to me and I nod lightly and walk to the door.

“And I have to discuss this with Daphne, I can't have her keep a slut as a friend. I hope you understand that this is for my daughter's safety,” he adds.

“I'm sorry Sir, I promise that it was not intended—” I plead again, my tears are hanging and a single blink would embarrass me more.

“Don’t take it personally, Ms. May, you invaded my privacy. Don't worry, it has nothing to do with your job, I won't fire you! We have got a trip to embark on soon, so still keep both things in mind. My daughter and the trip!”

“Yes Sir!” I almost whisper and finally step out. Hugging my coat to my chest, tears roll down and I swiftly wipe them off but it's unstoppable. If Daphne finds out, she might just hate me. It is not fair and I didn't even mean to look.

I'm so cursed! A day doesn't go by that I don't get hurt, it's every day of my life. I step into the elevator and down I go.

Pinggg!

It opens widely and I step out heading to the exit doors.

“Bye, Ms. Myers!” the friendly security guard tells me and I just faintly smile at him and wave as I head out finally.

I reach for my car, automating the locks to unlock, I enter and kick the engine but it's not kicking off. I try it several times but it's not responding. I step out angrily after giving the steering numerous punches.

I open bonnet and overlook the engine and stuff but I can't find a single problem, I don't know much about cars, I got mine, the moment I got this much job. Weird huh?

I close it and try one more time but I'm not lucky. I angrily kick the tires, it backfires on me, and my toes hurt. I whine alone holding my toes after taking off the heel.

I take out my cell phone and dial my engineer but he's unavailable.

What the hell is wrong with my life? I screamed, I didn't remember that I was outside the job, and anyone could hear me. How silly of me.

“Ms. Myers?”

I hear my boss's voice, deep and cocky, I can tell his voice when I hear it.