As soon as she saw the message, she panicked. She couldn’t get how Josh knew about all this mess. She was trying to come up with good reason for all this but she couldn’t. And just then she heard knocking over the door. She went to open the door; josh was shocked to see her. In this entire ruckus, she forgot that she didn’t wear anything after coming from the shower. Josh quickly turned back. Though they sleep together, they cuddle but he hasn’t seen Babi like that. He felt current flowing through his whole body. Babi realized what she has done. She quickly went inside the bathroom and wore her night dress while thinking about what just happened!
She felt like she should dig the whole and bury herself there. Even after waring the clothes, she couldn’t mutter the courage to go out. After a long time she went out. Josh was sitting over the chair near her study table.
“I am really sorry. I had something in my mind. I forgo
Chapter 6 Joshua POV Mum left after cleaning the wounds and lecturing me. I don’t get it, how can she always manage to see bad in me. While smoking standing in the balcony, I was thinking what life would I had if Josh wasn’t born and I know this is not right to think, but all I could think that he is the main reason of my miseries. He has never ever understood me; all he does is scold me and taunt me. I have seen any brotherly bonding between us and he contributed to it equally. It kills me from inside every time I see him coming near Babi. I know she is his friend first but that doesn’t mean that I cannot love her. In this whole world she is the only person who understands me. She is literally my anchor who stops me from falling from edge. Tears were rolling from my eyes while cigarette smoke
JOSHUA POV As soon as Joel blew the whistle, all the bikers start to fly their bike. 3rd rider was the one who was ahead of all of us. I was at last. I don’t show my potential just right at the beginning. It’s fun to let people believe that they are winning and enjoy their reaction at finishing line. While I was moving ahead, I saw the biker next to me looking like at me and passing a snarky smile. It was a smile that I couldn’t get at first but next he did was push me, trying to get me out of the race. Suddenly I was the picture of Babi and my brother together in my mind. All the anger and feeling of betrayal came rushing through my veins. I don’t know since when I started to lover this much but with each and every passing moment, it is starting to get harder to see them together. I know she can’t be mine. I know what I want is the exact thing I can never have. It’s like having a best friend that you love but can’t tell her that you lov
JOSHUA POV I went in and next thing I saw was my father and Josh leaving for the trip chauffer was getting the car ready. In order to avoid them I decided to go from back side of the door. It’s right where the garden ends. I parked my bike and I pumped up as soon as I can because I didn’t want them to notice me. It’s been such a mentally and physically exhausting day, I needed to roll few cigarettes and let it all out. Back door opens directly near my room. When I went in my room I was everything was perfectly placed, it looks like mum cleaned it herself. I went in to take a cold shower. In this cold chilly winter I still feel hot. I don’t know why may be because of lava I have inside it’s been really long day. While I was taking shower, I heard my phone ringing. I decide to ignore it as I was enjoying me time with myself. Washing me is the thing that I never forget. I often wash myself with too vigour and
JOSHUA POV “Ok, don’t waste more time huh” I said to her while walking upstairs. I went inside her room. It was just like it always has been small cozy place. Strange thing is I feel more comfortable has been. May be because of the person it belongs. It had small comfy bed with dark coloured sheets covering all over it. I sat on the bean bag near the bed. After five minutes, she came with a plate of food. Strangely we never conversed about me being hungry but somehow she already knew. My heart skipped a beat. “Who told you I was hungry?” regardless of the feelings. I decided to throw a pun to cover my mushy feelings. “So you are telling me you ate already? I know you haven’t. But if you saw so!” she said while placing the tray over table and sitting on the other bag. “I will have them.” I saw she prepared my favourite bacon cheese sandwich with mustard sauce and noodles with no soya sauce. She knows my taste bud very accurately. Sh
Joshua POV"Joshua! Joshua! What you doing" suddenly I heard Babi screaming over me. I was astounded for few minutes then I came back to my senses. Dream... that was damn dream... off course that was. I happens to be that my mind was being little bitch. The devastation was literal all over my face."What happened? I thought we were taking a break." Babi screamed at me again except this time her louder than last time. I had to save my face and rationalize my behaviour.” stop yelling!! I ain't anywhere. Just right here. I was thinking what I am doing here with all those stupid books and all? "“Hey you stop throwing an attitude. You are not alone sitting here at almost three" her face was telling how much she was hurt with my words. That’s when I realized how rude I was. She was awake at this hour for me. "Sorry sorry, it’s just I couldn't get this question and
BABI POVBut It doesn’t matter how I feel. What matters is that other person doesn’t care, so I had to refrain myself from letting out my true feeling and “ pretend” to be ok. While I was held up in figuring out my feelings for him, he was planning his future. I felt like a fool to waste my time over him. This taught people first think of whats best for them, not about you and if you are smart you will also do the same.“ babi! babi! what happened? What are you thinking? Say something darling….” Funny enough he dared to ask me what happened when all was happening infront of him and he still managed to un see it. I feel like I would waste my energy if I try to reason with him. “nothing… when are you guys planning to leave?”“after this semester but I had to get gpa above 9.00. its really tuff. I am thinking about leaving swimming club. I mean I have to leave it anyway.&rdq
Babi povI was about to depart but I couldn’t help but observe her. I know she hates being alone, especially at night but that thing is destroying her from the inside. If I swoop in now, there is nothing that she is gonna learn from that. I made a hard decision and left.I decided to stay and have some drinks. I really needed something stronger for the things I have to deal with. I parked my motorbike in the parking zone and went in. I decided to have just one or two drinks since papa has probably returned.“ two tequilas please”The waiter gave me two shots of tequila. I gulped them in one go. But in no time. Those two shots became ten. Luckily I don’t get drunk easily and I have such a good tolerance for drinks, it didn’t affect me at all. I decided to stop myself at a tenth shot and go back home now. The way back home has never seemed that long like today. Today was a long day for me, all day with the test and Josh. Suddenly I remember papa was
Babi povI went in to change but I wanted to take a shower so I headed towards the washroom. Maybe it was because of tequila I wasn’t feeling a little bit dizzy. I felt like I was walking on a tight-fitted rope. My mind was under full control but my body was on its own. It wasn’t working as it planned. I saw soap lying on the floor and I panicked like hell. It was already really hard to walk straight, and as soon as I saw soap, in an attempt to dodge it I fell on the floor really badly.“aahhhhhhh!” I can't tell you in words how much painful that felt. I saw Andrew running towards me.“what happened? I told you to be careful, why the hell are you in here? I told you to hurry and here you are in a towel.”“can you please stop expounding for a second and help me get up. It is really painful.”“ok ok… I will”Then he helped me get up and then I sat up on the bench.“ babi