Beatrice Costello
And now every piece of me took a toll on maintaining itself, I breathed as deeply as I could, leaning against the wall, took the cell phone off the shelf, turned off the sound, and opened the door. The darkness embraced me like an old friend, climbing each step I expected to feel any remorse and all I felt was a huge nothing.
Walking through the dark house, groping along the walls for some support for my tired legs, I managed to reach the bedroom, and as in silent prayer, I connected the cell phone to the sound system, threw the device on the bed without caring about the number of missed calls or messages.
I sighed, losing myself from reality feeling the taste of blood filling my mouth after cutting my lips biting.
I could have lost my sanity and still, it didn't matter.
His blood was spilled and ran down the corners, the fire in his blue eyes being consumed, and the ashes rose in the sweltering place.
It's that whisper in my mind that brings the first smile to my lips after the chaos, and that little feeling I'll never let go of. Even at the cost of innocent blood. Facing the mirror inside the bathroom, I realized that the sound had already been turned off because maybe the cell phone had finally discharged, in the reflection someone different from what I was used to seeing, with a livid head, I entered the box leaving the water running down the body cleaning the dirt clinging to my skin, because what clings to my soul cannot be cleaned.
I felt it was enough and left the box wrapping my body in a towel, I walked out of the bathroom holding the bag in which I put all the evidence that could indicate my crime and staining the whole house with blood, I left the bag next to the door entry so you don't forget to take out the trash even without knowing if it's collection day or what day it is.
I walked to the kitchen counter where I used to leave the charger and plugged it in feeling a small shock in my hand and a small red ball instantly appear on the tip of my finger.
The pain didn't bother her anymore, maybe she was the only true companion in all these years. I moved a little to the left opening the fridge door and getting out the orange juice, milk, and two eggs. I prepared the frying pan and cracked the eggs, taking a kettle to pass a strained coffee and putting it on the fire, I took a glass and filled it with juice, watching the eggs crack inside the frying pan as the crack of bones breaking filled my mind and ears.
The kettle whistled and the smell of the eggs began to burn, I turned off the heat and placed the eggs on a flat plate, brewed the coffee as calmly and precisely as the art that is. Grabbing my biggest cup I filled it with coffee and covered it with milk until it splattered out as I lifted it off the counter, I took a sip feeling my stomach grateful for the food that had been stolen from it. I looked down at the glass still full of juice, spilling its contents across the kitchen mixing with the drippings of blood from every open wound.
The sound of a car outside didn't surprise me, and when one of the few people with a key to my house entered, the silence fell and the air that came through the door cooled the house.
His eyes searched the house looking for something that would never be there again, understanding seemed to hit his thoughts, watching my small breakfast. His proximity in slow steps was not surprising, but his silence for the first time in his life bothered him.
Eyes as dark as mine, straight hair, and a neatly trimmed beard set against pale skin, for the first time in my life I understood the darkness in my brother's eyes.
Maybe the worst monsters aren't the ones we create, maybe the worst monsters are just ourselves.
Pulling the drumstick sitting in front of me in deafening silence, I took a deep breath and returned the cup of coffee, I didn't bother with the open entrance door the footsteps of those entering were filling the small room between a sofa and the kitchen.
Stefano made a point of saying that she didn't deserve a big house, that her body would be deformed if she got pregnant, the small house that I learned to hate because it was a prison, the walls a ridiculous color of green, without having the slightest option of redecorating or any shit.
I lifted my head and watched quietly, feeling an incredible calm inside me.
Each look was loaded with a question that I couldn't answer until the hunger was over, and the worst of all, is that this hunger didn't stop the desire to rewind each moment like a movie feeling each sensation. dark eyes, I gave a small smile sensing the monster's desire to boast.
Face to face with my brother without any disappointment about the fate of the man who was my husband, he understood all the lines in the look, words were unnecessary and the sigh when he held my hand was his way of asking 'are you okay?' the rise of my smile joining his equal mine, couldn't give another answer.
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Beatrice Costello My brothers were there for me, the first to speak was always Hunter "Need help with the cleanup?" - His look is careful, concerned. The green eyes analyzing every exposed part of me made anger fill the chiseled face with a square jaw and full mouth. The decision I made will affect all of us in one way or another, and this is your way of showing your support. “Just the garbage bag by the door. He turned and walked to the door taking the bag out of the house, we all silently watched the movement back and forth. Until he was standing next to the workbench again as if waiting for an order or a request. "Okay, what's the plan?" - Jack turned sideways sitting on the sofa now with his body turned towards us asking what was going through everyone's mind. The dark hair in contrast to our blond ones, the well-shaped face, with full lips and perfect teeth, the slightly crooked nose, and the usual sarcastic expression. "We need a story," Hunter replied without taking his
Beatrice Costello I can't understand the motives of the faces concerned with how to follow the plan even though I know that declaring war at the moment is impossible, the way their eyes analyze my every move is irritating. Who spread that women are fragile? I shake my head, trying to clear the blind irritation that builds in my chest at continuing to be judged by men when their only use in the world is to be born and raised by the care of women. I am aware of every possible flaw within that plan but right now taking down every deal made is more useful in raising resources than confronting Don. —The Don won't believe this Beatrice – Giacomo decides to pronounce after his long minutes analyzing my steps — We can get a few months, but at some point, Sartori will put two and two together, especially when he only finds Stefano's bones. It's a valid point, I know that but I can't move the pieces without their support and if you have to appeal to an emotion that no longer exists I don't
Beatrice Costello I feel like my head can weigh a ton so drugged the almost painful feeling of wanting to embrace the darkness again, I end up having terrible difficulty trying to open my eyes with my heavy and inert body. last week, your passionate kisses mixed with the taste of the cigar right after the beating, the firm and harsh words culminating in the abortion, the painful hunger for the blood of the only man I loved, and finally the pleasure of seeing his eyes widen in fear and become furious when he found out who his tormentor would be. The savory taste of our declarations of love was as sick as the way I arranged for his death, covering every one of the doubts and fears mixed with the confused feelings trapped in that cell called home, a sweet taste involving my tongue making the monster nourished for so many years finally breaks free, taking his place in the sun claiming ownership of this filthy soul I carry, wanting to expose his exploit to the world the way he wants more
Beatrice Costello They don't expect a woman to be the mind behind the game, what they don't know is that we women act like snakes waiting for the moment to pounce. My husband, may he burn brightly in hell, believed this wholeheartedly and is now dead, I doubt there was ever a moment that even crossed his diabolical mind that I would be holding a knife and gouging out one of his eyes. And my moment has finally arrived, for those who wait amidst the storm, glory arrives bringing new challenges and those I'm ready to kill one by one. - Well, nobody expects anything from a wife or a whore, as my late husband liked to call it - I take a deep breath thinking about how to explain simply everything that happened in that basement when my brother found me. I saw a glass of water on the bedside table beside me and I drank it, using the water to organize my thoughts, calmly thinking about what I can say at this moment, and how the pieces will start to move in our favor. — Giacomo wanted to go
Beatrice Costello And I would a thousand times prefer a life away from the family, free of Stefano, then continuing to pretend to be a happy and loving wife, just the thought made bile rise in my throat. I knew Bianca would know how to do a few things, so I put her to do what was most useful. A list of products we'd need living here, Frank looked relieved when my sister's frown lifted. With two buckets, a few bottles of bleach, and a broom, five hours later we were done cleaning up. Life granted me the clemency of having an old washing machine, but working in the small service area, the sofa would go to the trash anyway. I tried to understand what time it was and what day it was, two days off meant Wednesday. — It's Thursday morning already — Frank answered the silent thoughts — I'm going to take a shower first. He just warned and left towards the bedroom with the bathroom, Bianca finally seemed to have finished the list. There must have been an item saying 'buy a new apartment'.
Giácomo Costello Sometimes we need to make decisions that even the devil doubts our intentions and capabilities until the moment our name enters the condemned list. Being the eldest within the mafia means having a lot of expectations on your shoulders, and stifling responsibilities, one of the few interesting parts is being the one who keeps secrets and I still had to hear several repeated stories before I was initiated. Like why two brothers got American names, even with the Italian last name. According to the story, my father had bet with my mother that it would be a girl and, in both pregnancies, poor Antonio Costello had lost the bet with Donatella Costello, who wanted to give her children the opportunity to try to fit in in America. Oh, mother... The longing for the little childish moments next to her made my chest ache, a time I can't go back to and which at the same time is so far away. When she died giving birth to the girls, I watched my father fall apart before my eyes.
Giácomo Costello So, without any preparation or softening he unleashed, death is a common thing within the mafia but the fact that she was murdered by someone demands a war in return. I squeezed the shirt in an unnecessary force leaving my shoulders tense by pulling the air hard, gritting my teeth and asked developing the paper calmly using true anger to mask the farce. Every good lie has a grain of truth. - Who? – He knew that exacting revenge for my family was my role and he expected it as the older brother, a common performance. — We don't know, she and Riina were found dead at dawn — I punched the mirror that broke, huffing with rage because I wish I had tortured the bastard for a few hours, that's the real rage — I came to give you the news in person, it's been a while faithful executor. The words of confidence filled my chest with reassurance knowing that the lie had been accepted, even under a false veil of trust the old fox found no fault in opening up questions soon his
Giácomo Costello I decreed seeing the man's face twist in horror for the poor dead daughter-in-law in my arms, leaving no room for questioning. My voice came out in a tone that at any other time would be considered an insult, inside his eyes, I saw the spite for my attitude while feeding the false mask of a good Italian-American. “You will have your revenge, Giacomo. – At the same moment his men acted quickly turning everything around. The eyes of the old fox roaming everything in search of something that would justify the invasion and the death of two wives Giuseppe looked so dejected over Beatrice's death that I almost felt sorry for him, ordering him to call my brothers, to drag them out of bed to hunt down the bastards who'd done this. And even with the slightest effort to maintain the pretense, it took absurd self-control to contain my smile when Sartori decreed that Stefano had been taken, the result of Beatrice's barbecue being put to good use. I stayed on the floor with B