Diezel.It wasn't easy, but I have to do this. I need to try my best to be with them because I want to be with them. I already miss them a lot, and I can't forgive myself if I'm unable to reconcile with my kids.Anastacia has given her all. I have seen it; I witnessed her dedication. She is a mother who wants to provide everything for Skye and Zev. I feel sorry for what I did. I feel guilty, but it’s not too late to fix everything. I want to restore everything to its rightful place.Lihim kong pina-imbestigahan ang lahat nang mga pinagdaanan ni Anastacia, at isa isa kong nalaman ito. I know I hurt her badly. I inflicted an unforgiveable sins to her and I'm not asking for forgiveness. Instead, I will work hard to gain that trust back from her.Skye was easy to deal with, but Zev is quite the opposite. He reminds me of who I was as a child. Zev struggles to accept me as his father, and I understand that his feelings are rooted in hatred. Despite his young age, he has matured significan
Anastacia.It was good that Diezel changed his mind at the last minute last night. The twins were sleepy, so I put them to bed early while Diezel cleaned up the mess.In fairness, it's good because I have someone who will clean up all the mess around me.I don’t know what time he left last night. I climbed into bed after the twins settled down. I know Diezel was still in the kitchen, making or cleaning things up. I didn’t have the energy to talk to him, so I left him alone.Bumaba akong hagdanan at amoy ko agad ang sinangag na kainin.Saan siya natulog kagabi? Sa kotse niya ba o rito sa sala?Huminto akong saglit at tinitigan ang lahat sa paligid. Maaliwalas at malinis. Nagtungo na ako sa kusina.Maliit lang naman ang bahay ko at kita ko na agad ang pinto at siya sa kung nasaan ang hugasan ng mga plato."Coffee?"I blinked as he gazed at me. My hand reached out instinctively as I took the coffee.Ngumiti siya at bumaba ang tingin sa kabuuan ko. Mabilis lang ang ginawa niyang pagtitig
Anastacia.What the heck?Nauna akong bumaba mula Ford Raptor. Hindi ko napansin sa bakuran ng bahay ang sasakyan ni Diezel, dahil ini-parke niya ito sa bandang baba, sa mismong daanan. Sinadya niya ito para hindi ko mapansin. Hindi ko nga naman siya napansin, at saka na lang noong kumatok na siya.Talagang pinaghandaan niya ang lahat ano? Mukhang ang dami niyang bitbit sa likod ng sasakyan. Hindi ko na tiningnan ang mga ito."Wow! Ang lawak!" manghang tugon ni Skye. Hinawakan ko na ang kamay niya at sa kabilang kamay ko naman ay si Zev."Behave alright?""Yes, Mamma!" si Skye ulit. Dead ma lang kasi si Zev. Nalulukot pa rin ang mukha niya at halatang nagpipigil sa ano man ang nakikita niya ngayon sa paligid.It was a slow, quiet drive, and it probably took us more than thirty minutes. I chose to be quiet for the entire journey, but Skye kept asking Diezel about a lot of the things that she wanted to see in this area. Zev was like me. He was quiet, too, and just read the book that he
Anastacia."What the. . . what are you doing here?"Kung may ikasisira ng araw ko ay heto na nga! Bat ba siya nandito? Ba't ngayon? Ba't maaga siya? Wala ba siyang trabaho sa sariling kompanya?"I'm here to practice my rights, Anastacia." He acted cool as he smiled, looking at me like it was not a big deal.Nakahawak pa ako sa tarangkahan dahil hindi ko naman binuksan ang pinto ng maayos. Napalunok ako at sing bilis ng takbo ko ang pintig ng puso ko ngayon."I hate you. . ." I said, gritting my teeth, looking at him furiously."I know that, Anastacia, baby. It's written all over your face," he said smugly and licked his lips.Ang galing talaga mang-asar ng hayop na 'to sa umaga!Nadiin ko na tuloy ang kamay ko sa pinto. Ang sarap sampalin niya sa mukha!"Look, Anastacia, I'm not here for a fight. I'm here for the kids. I want to exercise my rights. I'm their father.""Oh, shut up!" I growl like an angry mama bear, who protects her cubs. Mahina lang ang pagkakasabi ko nito pero diin n
Diezel.I hold the result in my hand, and my heart races as I read it. The twins are indeed mine, and a copy was also sent to Anastacia via the Captain of the Villa.Wala akong duda. Alam kong akin silang dalawa. Malaki ang hawig namin ni Zev, at si Skye? Namana niya ang mga mata ni Mama. Although she looks like more on Anastacia, but her eyes belong in my bloodline.Skye's smile and her deep dimple clearly reflect my traits. In contrast, Zev resembles a male version of Anastacia, yet his facial structure and lips share my characteristics. He may not have the deep dimple like Skye, but when he smiles, he retains that version of me.I need to go back. I'm done with everything and have made new arrangements with the heads regarding work. They can reach me online, and I can do my work online."Why are you not joining me for the food tasting today, honey? Hindi mo pa rin nasusukat ang damit mo. Kailan ka ba bibisita roon? Ikaw na lang ang kulang."I'm talking to Caterina on the phone. Sh
Anastacia.Talagang hindi niya ako binigyan ng pagkakataon na makapagpahinga ano?Nagtagpo ang kilay ko at seryoso kong tinitigan ang dalawa sa iilang mga tao sa loob ng bahay ko. Maaga pa lang ay ginising na ako ng ingay sa labas.The group of medical team together with Diezel's lawyer and some security, including our barangay captain and police were here early and that shocked me!Hindi kabilang si Diezel sa kanila. Wala siya. Mabuti nga, dahil kung nandito siya ay tiyak sinampal ko na.The lawyer spoke to me first and explained the process, and I could only agree to it. They're calm, okay, and collective, and the barangay captain is a good friend of mine. We had a good talk.Ang kambal lang ang medyo nalilito sa sitwasyon. Hindi ko inaasahan na ganito kabilis gagawin ni Diezel ang lahat. Wala pa akong sinabi sa mga bata. Wala pa silang alam! At ngayon na nasa haparan nilang dalawa ang isang nurse at doctor ay nalillito na ang kambal.Hindi nila alam kung para saan ito, at kung bak
Diezel.I sat stiffly in front of my two beautiful kids while Anastacia was making me coffee. I put on my best smile amidst the chaos inside my heart.I was nervous as hell when I landed in Cagayan de Oro. Reeve was with me, and we came together here.Malapit lang ang bagong hotel na pinapatayo ni Reeve rito at may bahay bakasyonan din siya, at doon ako pansamantala titira.I drove here with high hopes of seeing Anastacia and was shocked by everything. I didn't know we were having twins. I didn't know everything, and that pained me more.It deeply hurts me. I feel sorry, not for myself, but for the kids in front of me. I know I was an asshole, and I can't blame Anastacia for that. But for her not to tell me that she was pregnant was indeed selfish! How could she do this to me? Why is this happening? And the kids? Damn it.Iniwas ko saglit ang tingin sa dalawa at saka nahagip nang mga mata ko ang buong paligid.Simpli ang bahay na ito. Walang espesyal at normal ang lahat. Malaki ang l
Anastacia."What are you doing here?"Iba na ako sa dati. Hindi na kumakalabog ang puso ko dahil excited ako na makita siya. Iba ang noon, at iba ito ngayon. May halong takot na bawat pintig na pinapakawalan ng puso ko sa kanya. Wala na akong tiwala.Taas noo ko ulit siyang tinitigan sa mata."Are you lost? Mukhang nasa maling bahay ka yata?" I chuckled.His jaw ticked, and he looked at me coldly. His piercing eyes were like a dagger that straight cut right into me."So, this is where you are hiding?" He gritted.Kinabahan ako at napahigpit ang hawak ko sa pinto. Hindi ito nakabukas ng maayos dahil hinawakan ko naman. Kabado ako sa kung ano man ang makita niya sa loob. Kaya bago pa mangyari ito ay mas mabuti hindi na niya makita pa.“Excuse me? Did you say I was hiding?” I chuckled softly and pulled the door closer to me.Ako na lang ang nakikita niya ngayon at hindi na ang loob."Hindi ako kailanman nagtago, Diezel. I'm living here comfortably, away from those people who don't want
Anastacia.I looked so terribly ugly as I looked at myself in the mirror. I'm stressed and problematic with money, and here I am... sick.Simula pa lang noong nakaraang linggo ay hindi na maganda ang pakiramdam ko. Hanggang sa heto, bumigay na nga ang katawan ko.The kids are home because it's summer school break—no school for them and no summer activities. I felt sorry for my kids not attending any summer activities, but I'm short on money, and the bills are piling up. Isali mo pa ang butas sa kisame ng kwarto ko. Mabuti na lang at summer ngayon at hindi uulan.Skye and Zev asked me why I did not enroll them in swimming lessons. Sinabi ko na lang na kulang ang pera ko, at agad naman na intindihan ng dalawa ito. Nakakaawa nga, dahil lahat ng mga kaklase nila ay may ginagawa at sila? Heto nasa bahay.Hapon na nang nakaramdam ako ng gutom. Instant noodles ang kinain ko, kasama ang kambal. Nilagyan ko ng gulay at dalawang itlog ito, at masaya na ang dalawa. Para sa kanila ay masarap na