Doing me to the fullest

Chapter 1: The Anatomy of a Betrayal

The rain didn't just fall in the North Side; it performed. It lashed against the reinforced glass of the Vance master suite, a rhythmic, aggressive sound that reminded me of how fragile the world outside truly was. But inside, everything was still. The air was climate-controlled, smelling faintly of expensive jasmine candles and the metallic tang of a dying fire in the hearth.

I lay on my side, my skin feeling sensitized and raw against the 1000-thread-count silk sheets. I stared at the shadows dancing on the wall, tracing the silhouette of a heavy velvet curtain. Beside me, the bed shifted.

Caspian didn't move like other men. He moved with a heavy, predatory grace, even in sleep. But he wasn't sleeping. I could feel his gaze on the back of my neck—a physical weight that made the fine hairs on my arms stand up.

"You're awake," he murmured. His voice was a low, sleep-roughened growl that settled in the base of my spine.

I turned slowly to face him. In the dim moonlight, Caspian looked like a god carved from cold flint. His chest was broad, mapped with the faint lines of muscles that were built for power, not just show. He reached out, his hand large and warm as he cupped the back of my head. His fingers tangled in my hair, pulling just enough to force me to look up into those gray eyes that always seemed to be calculating something I couldn't understand.

"I was thinking about the South Side," I whispered, the words catching in my throat. "About how quiet it is there when it rains. No glass windows. Just the sound of water hitting tin roofs."

Caspian’s expression didn't soften. He didn't like it when I brought up my past. To him, my life before the Vance estate was a smudge he had wiped clean. "The South Side is a graveyard, Jade. You don't belong there anymore. You belong in this bed. With me."

He leaned down, his mouth crashing against mine. There was no "sweetness" here. It was a feverish, hungry collision. He tasted of the expensive bourbon he’d been sipping in his study and something darker, something uniquely him. His hand slid down my spine, his grip tightening on my waist as he pulled me flush against the hard, hot planes of his body.

Every touch felt like a brand. When he moved over me, pinning my wrists to the pillow, I felt that familiar, dizzying rush of being completely consumed. He looked down at me, his eyes dark with a desire that felt more like possession than love.

"Say it," he commanded, his voice vibrating against my lips.

"I'm yours," I gasped, my heart hammering like a trapped bird.

"Always," he whispered, before the world dissolved into the frantic, heated reality of his touch. He took me with a focused intensity, his movements rhythmic and demanding, driving every thought of the South Side from my mind until there was nothing left but the sound of our breathing and the heat of our skin. In those moments, I truly believed I was his wife. I believed the "romance" was real.

By 6:00 AM, the heat of the night had vanished, replaced by a cold, clinical gray light. Caspian was gone. The space beside me was empty, the sheets already cold. I sat up, rubbing my face. My body felt heavy, and a strange, metallic taste lingered in my mouth—the first sign of the morning sickness I had been trying to ignore for a week.

I pulled on a silk robe and stepped into the hallway. The house was waking up. I could hear the muffled sounds of staff moving in the kitchen three floors below. I headed toward the library, hoping to find the guest list for the Charity Gala. I wanted to prove to Caspian that I could be the woman he needed—sophisticated, poised, and worthy of his name.

As I approached the heavy mahogany doors of his study, I heard the sharp clink of a crystal decanter against a glass.

"It’s a win-win, Caspian," a voice said. It was Arthur, the Vance family lawyer, a man who had more ice in his veins than blood. "The girl’s lineage is clean enough to avoid scandal, but poor enough that she has no leverage. She’s the perfect vessel."

I froze. My hand stayed hovered over the brass handle, my breath hitching in my chest.

"The pregnancy test came back positive from the bathroom trash yesterday," Arthur continued. "One of the maids confirmed it. You’ve done it. The Vance heir is officially in progress."

There was a long silence. I waited for Caspian to say something—to defend me, to talk about our future, to tell Arthur to shut up.

"It took longer than I wanted," Caspian’s voice finally drifted through the door. It was cold. Clinical. It was the voice of a man discussing a business merger, not a child. "She’s needy. The South Side desperation is hard to stomach sometimes, but she was easy to manipulate. She thinks she’s in a fairytale."

"And the papers?"

"Ready," Caspian said. I heard the rustle of parchment. "The moment that child is born and the DNA is confirmed, the annulment is filed. She gets five million—more than she’d ever see in ten lifetimes in that slum—and she signs over all parental rights. I want her scrubbed from this house within forty-eight hours of the birth. I won't have my son raised by a girl who doesn't know which fork to use at dinner."

I felt the floor tilt beneath my feet. A cold, sharp pain lanced through my chest, deeper than any physical wound. My hand dropped to my stomach, protectively.

A vessel. That was all I was to him. A warm body to carry a name. The kisses, the nights of passion, the way he looked at me—it was all just maintenance. He wasn't loving me; he was just making sure his "investment" stayed healthy.

I looked down at the massive diamond on my left hand. It suddenly felt like a shackle. I wasn't a wife. I was a tenant in a golden cage, and the lease was almost up.

"What if she refuses to leave the child?" Arthur asked.

I heard the sound of a lighter clicking open. "She won't. She loves me. And people who love me always do what I want. Besides, what can she do? She’s a ghost. No family, no money, no power. She’ll take the check and she’ll disappear. They always do."

I backed away from the door, my heart cold as lead. He was right about one thing—I did love him. But he was wrong about everything else. He thought he knew me because he knew my bank account. He didn't realize that a girl from the South Side knows how to survive on nothing.

I didn't go back to the bedroom. I went to the small guest room at the end of the hall where I kept my old things—the things Caspian told me to throw away. I found my worn-out denim jacket and my old backpack.

I took the emergency cash I’d been hiding—money I’d skimmed from the "wardrobe allowance" he gave me. It wasn't five million. It was barely three thousand. But it was enough to disappear.

I looked at my reflection in the mirror. My eyes were red, but my jaw was set. I looked at the belly that didn't even show yet.

"He’ll never touch you," I whispered to the child inside me. "You aren't a Vance. You're mine."

I didn't leave a note. Caspian Vance didn't deserve my words. I slipped out through the servant’s entrance, the rain drenching me in seconds. As I walked down the long, winding driveway toward the main road, I didn't look back at the mansion.

I was nineteen, pregnant, and penniless. But as I reached the gate and stepped out into the mud of the real world, I felt something I hadn't felt in months.

I felt like me.

And for the first time, I realized that "me" was going to be the most dangerous person Caspian Vance had ever met.