The Truth

I spend all night enraptured in what's going on and the way I feel... like a grown woman. A grown woman who maybe has her life figured out? I don’t know if I would go that far, but at least that's how I feel at the moment.

Once the date is over, Felix drives me back home and tries to get back to his car, but I grab his hand before he does.

“Stay.”

“Really? Are you sure?” he asks with wide eyes. I nod.

In these three months we’ve been dating I haven't let anything happen between us except kisses and touching over the clothes, but he's my boyfriend now, so I can't keep denying him my body. I don’t want to keep denying him my body. In fact, all I want right now is to fück him and completely forget about the last man who touched me.

“Laurie has his own room," I let him know as we walk through the living room. Felix smiles, understanding what is about to happen and as soon as we enter my room and I close the door, he attacks me.

Felix grabs me by the waist and pins me to the wall to kiss me deeper than he has ever kissed me before. And even though he's a good kisser, it's not what I'm used to.

I don't let that stop me from enjoying it, though. It's nice.

Nice. Good.

Human.

But I can't keep comparing a human to a werewolf. To an alpha. That's never going to be fair to Felix.

I unbutton his shirt carefully and lower my kisses to his neck, then his chest. He's not very muscular, but he smells clean. That's good.

“Oh, Oli," he moans. When I end up on my knees in front of him, he lowers his gaze to me in reverence, "I can't believe how damn beautiful you are. You're not real.”

I thank him for his pretty words with a kiss on his abdomen and opening his button to pull down his pants, then his underwear.

And it's... cute.

“You don't have to do this if you don't want to," he clarifies, stroking my hair in a tender way. Which is cute. Cute, cute, cute. Everything with him is cute.

And that's what I want, I tell myself. A cute, nice man who will never betray me.

“I do," I admit and I take him in my mouth. I don't want to admit this... but I don't have much trouble taking him all the way in until his tip is in my throat and his base is on my lips.

Not like with Daniel.

I work him until he's close to örgasm and then I pull away. Felix leans his forehead against the wall trying to compose himself as I stand up.

“Wait for me on the bed," I order, trying to sound sexy, though I probably didn't succeed. I walk to the bathroom and close the door, releasing the air when I'm alone, “I can do this.”

All the times I’ve tried before I’ve needed to stop before the guys can touch me, but I won’t do that tonight.

I turn on the faucet to wet my face and then meet my eyes in the mirror.

Try as I might, I can't help but compare the way I feel right now to any of the times I was with Daniel, even though I know it's not fair.

It's absolutely unfair to compare the strength of wanting someone you're compatible with on an animalistic, magical level to being with a mere human. It's never going to be the same.

But still, I'm not completely disgusted or something. I want to do this.

I take off all my clothes before I leave the bathroom and when I approach Felix on the bed, both of us being completely naked, I'm flooded with an immense urge to run and hide because this is not the man I really want and my wolf resents me for this decision.

Instead of doing that, I force myself to smile and lie on top of him, letting him kiss me and touch me as much as he wants because the man I really want doesn't deserve my fidelity.

He doesn't deserve anything. Only to suffer and live without me.

Daniel used me to get to my sister. He befriended me for the simple purpose of sneaking into my family and get to her, he let me fall in love with him knowing that I was never his target and once I opened my heart to him, he casted me aside to marry my sister.

I will never forgive him.

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Sunday morning comes and Felix takes me and Laurie to a beautiful park for a picnic like a happy little family. He doesn't leave my side at any time, except when he gets up to play with Laurie, chasing him around the park.

Being a teen mom on my own in a new place was extremely difficult. So much so that I have no idea how I managed to do it, if I'm being honest. All I wanted was my family by my side to help me, but my pride and hatred wouldn't let me bend.

I had to go through the pregnancy praying nothing bad would happen because I had no one to help me. And when I was ready to give birth, I had to spend all my savings to bring in a midwife from the clan to perform a clandestine C-section in my own apartment because I refused to give birth normally, risking mine and my child’s life.

No one in my clan knows I have a son, no one in my family. And every day that goes by, I know it will be worse when they finally find out, but I can't tell them because I know they will start asking a million questions about who the father is.

My family knows all the alphas in the clan, I can't make up a name or blame it on someone else. And I can't say it was a human because that would be way worse.

“Oli, your phone is ringing," Felix suddenly alerts me, snapping me out of my thoughts. The call comes from an unknown number.

“Hello?”

“Olivia," says a powerful female voice and my whole body goes still. “What a pleasure to be able to talk to you.”

“Lucinda," I whisper and my older sister makes an annoyed sound in her throat. Lucinda is the eldest of my sisters, the only alpha female in the family, “How are you?”

“I know you don't care, so I won't answer or waste more of your valuable time," she spits, angrily. Felix meets my worried eyes and puts a hand on my leg when he senses something is wrong, “You have to come back to Fallonmore. It's very urgent... it's awful for you to find out this way, but Father is dying. We need you here.”

I get completely silent and still for almost a minute, my heart on pause and my eyes burning. I can't believe this.

“What happened to him?”

“An attack on the borders. Someone from another clan targeted him," She explains and I know I've missed a lot because according to the last I knew, we were completely at peace with the other clans, "Do you have enough money to come here?”

“Yes, I do,” I answer and my hands start sweating when I realize that my secret will come out. “Lucinda... I know you won't believe me, but I'm not a complete ässhole. There is a reason why I haven't been able to come back.”

“What is it?” She demands, although I can feel her anger subside a little. I squeeze my eyes shut and apologize to Felix to stand up and move away from him a bit, “Sister, you can tell me. I’ll fix it.”

I wish she could.

“I...” I take a breath and let it out, “I have a son. His name is Laurie, he's three and a half years old.”

Lucinda gasps and struggles for words for a couple of seconds, until she can speak again, and then she asks the question everyone will ask: “Who is the father?”

“If I tell you... can you promise to help me hide it?” I ask, my voice low and unsure, "Please, Lucinda, you can stop people from asking me.”

“Tell me who it is," she demands, "And I'll decide if it's worth keeping the secret or not.”

“Oh, it's worth it believe me,” I roll my eyes, shaking my head. “The father is Daniel. Daniel Griffin.”

“Daniel? Clara's husband?!” She exclaims out loud, “Fück. Fück, Olivia. Fück. This is bad. Really bad.”

Tell me about it.

“I know," I whisper, as she continues to lose her mind, "Do you think it's worth it?”

“Yes. I'll see to it that people stay out of your business," she promises, "But please come home as soon as possible. We miss you. We need you here.”

“I'll be there soon.”