Cheryl
It took me an agonizingly long time, not to mention some nerve-racking critical thinking, to decide between Physics and Applied Mathematics for my major. Guess which one I chose? Yes, Applied Mathematics. I know, I know-I'm starting to regret it. Don't get me wrong, I'm doing fine in all my courses, but now I can't shake the feeling that choosing Physics would've given me the best of both worlds: an insight into both mathematics and physics. But then again, the decision is made. There's no point dwelling on it. I rubbed my sweaty palms together, hesitating before opening the email I'd received from Tonyhan. I had applied for an internship there this summer a week ago and sent a follow-up today. My portfolio had been impressive, but the nerves were still there, I guess that's normal. I tapped on my iPad screen, immediately closing my eyes, too scared to look. Slowly, I opened them, heart racing as I read through the message. "Yes!" I leapt up, heart pounding as I saw the acceptance. Still caught up in my excitement, I didn't hear my stepsister push the door open. She strolled into my room like it was hers, a smug expression on her face. My smile quickly faltered. "Your husband and his family are downstairs. Quit with the childish tantrums and get dressed," she hissed. I didn't bother responding, too annoyed. She strutted out of my room without a second glance. Asshole. Why was she back for the summer of all times? She could have gone anywhere else! Reality quickly slapped me in the face as I remembered the whole reason I had to get dressed in the first place: my upcoming nuptials. Did I just say nuptials? I felt old saying that. The familiar ache in my chest returned, though I'd never even met the man I was supposed to marry. Still, I knew it would be a disaster. I'd probably hate him just like I hated everyone else in my life. Cheryl? Pfff...my name should've been "bad luck" instead. "Doom" would've fit better. That's what my mom should've named me before dumping me on my dad, promising she'd return, but never did. My dad and his family had never loved me since I moved in at eight. I was shocked when my dad relayed the depressing news that I was getting married, but not surprised. Marrying me off to some "old man," as my dad had described him, was unexpected, though. Still, nothing with this family ever truly surprised me anymore. I slipped into the only black dress that could be considered impressive. It was tight, but flattering. I wanted to fix my messy hair, but who was I kidding? I wasn't about to impress an old man. Just when I thought I had gotten somewhere, saving up enough to one day escape this place, life slapped me in the face with yet another unfortunate twist. I forced my irritated expression to soften and hurried down the stairs, hoping I wouldn't get into trouble. When I reached the dining room, my dad, stepmom, and step siblings were already seated. I gave a slight bow of greeting to the elderly Korean man sitting at the table, laughing with my dad. The only thing remotely comforting about this whole marriage was that my future husband was Korean. At least there was some cultural familiarity. The man at the table, despite looking younger than his age, still struck me as painfully old to be marrying someone my age. "Annyeong, salang," the Korean man greeted me warmly. (Hello dear) I barely hesitated before replying, "Annyeonghaseyo, seonsaengnim." I bowed slightly again, trying to sound respectful. (Hello, sir) "Je ireumeun Anthony Han imnida," he introduced himself with a smile, graceful despite the age gap between us. His name sounded familiar, but it didn't click right away. (My name is Anthony Han) "Je ireumeun Cheryl Mills imnida," I replied awkwardly, trying to pronounce the Korean words as correctly as I could. (My name is Cheryl Mills) "Hahaha," his laughter boomed, rich and deep, filling the room. "Coming from a girl raised in the US, that's impressive. When your dad mentioned you were half Korean, I knew you were the perfect bride for my son," he said, his smile widening. His son? I breathed a sigh of relief, though the thought of marrying anyone was still unsettling. "I don't know why he isn't here yet," Mr. Han added before digging into his meal. The conversation died there. He didn't seem the type to talk much while eating. We all finished dinner, but Mr. Han's son still hadn't shown up. "Is your son ever going to show up?" my dad asked, breaking the silence. Mr. Han sighed and pulled out his phone just as footsteps echoed in the hall. My eyes snapped up just as a broad-shouldered figure, easily over six feet tall, entered the room. He was wearing a crisp black suit and a long coat, walking with the grace of a panther. "Ohh, there he is," Mr. Han sighed, chuckling awkwardly. I froze. Is that him? He was drop-dead gorgeous.Miles Today is the happiest day of my life—watching Cheryl and the kids run toward me. She was in her wedding dress. She chose me. She chose us. And I know it was last minute, but I wanted it too. After last night, I had taken the kids out one last time before leaving because I might not be returning anytime soon and they had school. This morning, my flight had been prepared but got delayed for two hours. Just as I was about to climb in, I heard Minnie yell, “Daddy!” I turned around to see Miles and her giggling, sprinting toward me, and Cheryl as well, getting out of the taxi and running toward me in her pretty dress. My heartbeat slowed. Now I can die a happy man knowing Cheryl will be my wife until the day I die. The kids reached me first and I lifted them both into my arms. “We’re going home, buddies—and looks like we get to be together forever,” I said. Minnie was excited, but Miles only asked to see the pilot—he was more interested in my airplane than in m
Cheryl In a few days, we had to travel back to London, and the kids having to leave Miles was a lot harder than I thought. They’ve only known him for like a week. So dramatic—Minnie didn’t stop crying until she fell asleep. Miles was just impressed that his dad owns an airplane.His friends’ ears at school are going to bleed because he’ll never stop talking about it.I was also in my feelings, feelings that made my chest hurt physically. I was scared of the reason because I knew it—but hated to admit it.I don’t want to leave him. I don’t know what I want, but I feel really bad, like I’m making a bad decision… like I’m ruining my life.I touched my cheek where he had pecked me earlier.Oh God.This is bad.For me. For Tristan.I don’t want to marry him and spend the rest of my life wanting the father of my kids—because he is always going to be a part of my life. Five months later“Pass me the knife, please,” I said to Tristan, who immediately grabbed the knife and p
Cheryl “Woah! You were like Superman yesterday, flying to catch Minnie!” Miles Jr yelled, dramatically reenacting the terrifying scene from last night.Senior Miles laughed heartily, stretching his leg out so little Miles could leap onto it in his silly attempt to recreate the moment. I would never be able to thank Miles enough for what he did last night. And yes, I know she’s his kid too—but still, that act was beyond selfless.I can’t imagine the fear he must have felt in that moment, already haunted by the loss of a child.I’m also just so relieved that Miles loves him—and thinks he’s cool.That’s a great start.I was worried for nothing.I don’t think they fully understand that he’s their dad yet. But we’ll get there.“Miles, get up and stop rolling on the floor,” I scolded, and he quickly scrambled off, grabbing Miles’s hand instead.“Your wristwatch is really cool! Does it work? There are bears in it—wait, is that a polar bear?” Kids and their endless questions.Laura, Minnie,
Miles“This is exactly what I didn’t want to happen,” I said, pacing like a madman. “I’ve just spent the past five years completely oblivious to the fact that I had children—real, flesh and blood children. And the whole reason I didn’t want to have kids in the first place was because of lives like mine. I was scared I couldn’t promise I’d always be there. I was scared I’d mess them up. I didn’t want to bring children into this world only to ask them to suffer because I couldn’t come through for them.”I dragged a hand down my face.“And now? Now I’ve had kids for five years. Five damn years I’ve been absent from their lives. Tell me, what do you want me to do now? How do I fix this? How do I just walk into their lives and pretend like I belong there?”My voice cracked.“Cheryl should’ve told me. She should have told me she was pregnant. I would never have asked her to get an abortion—never. But I had no idea. No idea she was pregnant. That divorce? It was an impulsive decision. I was
Cheryl The next morning was chaos. I barely had time to think about the encounter with Anna. I had to bathe the kids, get them dressed, get myself ready, and most of all—prepare emotionally. I was about to see people I had hurt deeply. People who might never forgive me.Anna was right.It hadn’t been five months.It had been five years.Five years of pain.Five years of worry.I tied my hair up in a ponytail and stepped back from the mirror, checking my short black dress, skin-toned socks, shoes, and my jacket. I spritzed on cologne and rushed downstairs.We were already running late.Minnie wore a matching black dress—just styled a little differently. Miles was in his little black shirt and pants.“Mummy, how did Grandpa Reed die?” Minnie asked as I wrapped my arm around hers in the car.“He was old, sweetheart. Old people die eventually,” I answered as gently as I could.Minnie turned to me for confirmation. I nodded. She didn’t look pleased by the reality.“Mummy, you’re squeezing
Cheryl I watched as Miles handed Minnie his chocolate bar—he had accidentally knocked hers out of her hands and they both knew better than to pick food up off the floor.It warmed my heart, honestly.“That’s exactly what Miles would have done,” Minnie sighed, leaning against my shoulder.She misses her brother, but they’re both so stubborn.“If you see Miles, please talk to him,” I began gently. “He loves you. He wasn’t trying to make your dad’s funeral about himself. You and your dad probably never even had a proper fight in your whole life, but it wasn’t the same for him. They never saw eye to eye—it was either yelling or silence. I think he hated that, and maybe he only really realized it after he died. He wasn’t trying to make it about himself, he was just… hurt. And they had just spoken the day before. I don’t know what they said, but it seemed like they were finally trying to get along.”I know Miles is an asshole, but he loves his sister. Maybe—just maybe—what happened between