Elena's point of view.
Doubting the Moon Goddess feels wrong, but as I head to the packhouse, I can’t help questioning her purpose in pairing me with Vanda. The rogue I was imprisoned with wasn’t lying; the Alpha doesn’t give lenient punishments, and my hesitations about our bond feel justified. Yet, the pull in my chest doesn’t waver. Deep within me—mind, body, and soul—his claim is carved, drawing my admiration despite everything.
The front door is unlocked when I return, so I step inside and quietly close it behind me. Slipping off my shoes, I head upstairs. My eyes are drawn to the master’s double doors, and I instinctively veer toward them. I pause, listening for Elizabeth in the kitchen. She’s likely drinking tea; there’s no sound of anyone working.
Serena was right when she said we’re not allowed beyond the border for a reason. As a child, I imagined unclaimed land to be full of monstrous beasts, shadows towering over the fiercest warriors, and harsh landscapes that no wolf could survive. At school, kids whispered that unclaimed lands had no moon and dared each other to cross the border for even a second.
None of that turned out to be true.Perhaps Alpha Kane’s, my formal Alpha's strict borders aren’t to keep us safe from monsters but from leaders like Vuk. And behind these simple doors lies Vanda’s bedroom—my mate’s room.
I reach for the handle, cracking the door open just enough to call, “Vanda?” Silence. No one is inside.
Against my better judgment, I push the door open further, revealing most of the room. My fingers fidget nervously before I ball them into fists. His scent wraps around me, pulling me in like a warm embrace, and I step inside cautiously. My heart raced with adrenaline, but Vanda’s scent calms me. How ironic.
His room is masculine yet soft, its textures inviting. I let my fingers trail along the edge of the bed like I’m dipping them into water. I’m always where I shouldn’t be, yet I yearn to belong here, in my mate’s room. I want to belong to him and his pack, but Vanda seems distant, and I feel just as out of place as the night I left home. The packhouse staff are kind, but it’s clear I’m an outsider.
The bond still tugs at me, but what if my feelings aren’t reciprocated? Does he feel the bond as strongly as I do? I’m scared he doesn’t. From what my cellmate said about him, it’s a miracle he even has a heart for mine to connect with.
Conflicted, I walk to a window and gaze out at the forest, seeking clarity while sneaking around like a mouse avoiding traps.
The sound of footsteps climbing the stairs sends my heart racing. Lost in Vanda’s scent, I didn’t notice his return until now. Panicking, I retreat to the door and quietly close it, but it’s too late. Vanda is already at the top of the stairs, his gaze sharp and unreadable. I release the handle, my skin prickling with goosebumps.
“I’m sorry,” I whisper.
“Are you?”
“Yes,” I stammer. “I shouldn’t have gone in.”
“Then why did you?” His tone is calm, but his presence remains intimidating. “Did you need something?”
“No,” I murmur, lowering my gaze. “I’m sorry.”
Vanda studies me for a moment before letting it go. “Right.”
I step away from the door, eager to avoid further questioning. “I should see my family,” I say, grasping for a change of subject. “I need to tell them I’m mated.”
He exhales, glancing briefly at the door behind me. “You’re from the East. Kane's pack?”
I nod.
“Then I can’t send you.”
My brow furrows. “But—”
“You shouldn’t be far from me,” he cuts me off. “You could go into heat.”
My cheeks flush. “I… I…”
Mom’s warnings about heat flash through my mind, and I look away, embarrassed. I try to move past him toward the spare room, but Vanda steps into my path. My blush deepens.
“If you want to see your family, they’ll have to come here,” he says firmly.
“What if they can’t?”
“Then there’s nothing I can do.”
Vanda doesn’t see this as something punishable, and he brushes past me, entering the master bedroom and closing the door behind him. So much for talking later.
Left alone in the hallway, I retreat to the spare room, still flustered by his mention of heat. A mate is supposed to bring love and security, but I’m more uncertain about my future than ever. Torn between my family and the Goddess, I’m told my family is out of reach. Even if I choose the Goddess and her match for me, Vanda’s commitment is far from certain.
How could this be fate? None of it feels destined.
I wash my hands and splash my face with cool water. Twisting the crystal knobs to turn off the faucet, I notice a cursive ‘D’ engraved into the metal surrounding the crystal. I change clothes, braid my honey-colored hair, undo the braids, and try again. By the sound of Vanda’s footsteps, he’s in and out, keeping himself scarce. Boredom starts to creep in, so later in the day, while he’s away, I venture to the kitchen, hoping to find company.
I smile at the sight of Ben. “Hi.”
He looks up from an open notebook on the counter. “Elena—erm, should I call you Luna?”
“No, call me Elena. I wouldn’t recognize who you mean if you didn’t.”
“It must be a lot to adjust to. I can’t imagine suddenly being mated to an Alpha, gaining a title, and living somewhere new.” He glances at the window across the kitchen, then quickly taps his fingers on the notebook’s pages and forces a tight smile. “Actually, I suppose I can,” He adds.
I move closer, standing on the other side of the counter. “Without all the fine details, it does sound like a dream come true.” I said with a smile.
“Of course. But nothing is ever as simple as it seems, is it? Alphas can be frustrating and difficult, like all other men, if I’m honest.” Ben blunted out.
“Not at all,” I reply, relieved. “It’s nice to hear someone else say what I’ve been thinking.”
“Then I’ll commend you for being so open-minded. Alpha Vuk isn’t an easy one. What does your family think of the match?” He asked.
“They don’t know yet, but I’m hoping I can visit soon to tell them.”
“I’m sure they’ll be proud. An Alpha is an Alpha, after all.”
I chew on my bottom lip. “Do you think they might… not like him?”
Ben tilts his head. “Do they know much about him as an Alpha?”
“Maybe my parents do, but I’m not sure. We don’t really talk about other packs, Alphas, or conflicts at home. If we doubt our Alpha’s ability to protect us, that’s—”
“Disrespectful? Yeah, I get it. We men and our egos. Personally—and I’ll only say this because it’s just us here—I think a female Alpha might be a refreshing change. Women can carry the bloodline, can’t they?” Ben said jokingly.
After dinner, Corrine and I sat in the living room talking about her first pregnancy. The house was quiet. Vanda had gone to the study, Ben had returned home to Serena, and even with guards outside, it felt like we were the only ones for miles. The warm lamplight and the crackling fire calmed my mind. I listened to Corrine’s stories until she got to her labor. She said she was too tired to finish but promised she’d tell me the rest tomorrow.I walked her to the stairs and wished her goodnight. She kissed my forehead with a smile that crinkled her eyes, then went up to her guest room.It had been a long time since my real mother kissed me goodnight, but Corrine’s kiss brought the memory back. Mother used to tuck Serena in first, then come to my room, check the window, close the curtains, kiss my hairline, tell me to sleep well, and leave the door cracked just enough for light.I held the stair railing until I heard Corrine’s door close. I put out the fire, fluffed the pillows on the co
Elena's point of view.I hold my arms out, still as a statue, and Elizabeth mirrors me. She closes her eyes, breathes in, and whispers, “I’m good,” so I drop my hands.“She’s not going to storm in here and tear your head off. You know she’ll be glad to see you,” Elizabeth says.“Just go,” she urges, flicking her hand at me.I smooth my clothes as I step out of the kitchen. Corrine’s voice echoes from the hall, peering into one room, then another. She spots me right when Vanda hauls in two leather bags from outside.“There she is,” he calls to his mother, dropping the luggage with a heavy thud. He waves at the wolf outside who carried it in, then shuts the door with a tired exhale.Before I can react, Corrine’s arms are around me. “My sweet Elena. Oh, how wonderful to see you again so soon—under such blessed circumstances.” She pulls back but keeps her hands on my arms. “Look at you, glowing and pregnant in my house.”A smile slips out of me; she makes it easy to feel loved. “I’m glad
Elena's point of view.Elizabeth scribbled something on the notepad in front of her before looking up at me. “So, what’s the deal with the previous Luna?” she asked, pen stilling. “She’s showing up because she found out you’re pregnant, right?”I gave her a half-smile. “Pretty much, yeah.”She raised a brow. “Sounds like a mother-by-bond festival is coming.”I snorted. “I doubt it’ll be that dramatic, but I have my weekly checkup with Rose today. She can come to that. I think she’d like it.” I added with a little more hope than I meant to show, “Hopefully, Rose has good news.”Elizabeth nodded knowingly. “And she’ll definitely dunk you in a moonwater bath.”“Moonwater baths…” I echoed, sighing. “I’ve already started forgetting half the pregnancy rituals I was so excited about.”“I can jot it all down for you,” she offered with a teasing smile. “As your Luna Advisor, tending to your Alpha-blooded pregnancy falls under my job description. Any ritual or bath or charm you want—we’ll do it
Elena's point of view Just as Ben was wrapping up dinner, a knock echoed from the front door. I went to answer it and found a familiar face—the female courier who often brought messages to the pack house. She offered me a sealed letter addressed to Vanda and then turned away, heading off with the rest of her delivery pouch slung across her chest.I closed the door behind me and turned the letter over in my hands. The wax seal was pressed with a stylized ‘S’—most likely for Silva. That could only mean one thing: a response to the letters we sent.I broke the seal, unfolded the paper, and immediately recognized the tidy, graceful handwriting. It was from Corinne. She wrote to say she’d be traveling tomorrow and would arrive by evening.Returning to the kitchen, I found Ben pulling out three plates—one for each of us, including Serena, who was due any minute after her training session."Who was at the door?" he asked casually."It was a message from Corinne. She’s coming tomorrow," I re
Elena's point of view.Elizabeth sits across from me in the kitchen, chatting away about her list of potential housekeepers. It’s still pretty early—she arrived only about ten minutes ago. Outside, the sun is just beginning to rise, casting soft light over the pack grounds, where members are slowly emerging from their homes to start their duties, whatever those may be.I was already awake when Elizabeth let herself in. I had come downstairs because it felt like the right thing to do, a nod to routine and common sense.Last night was anything but restful.“You weren’t supposed to worry about finding someone to replace you,” I tell her, cutting into her updates. “You should’ve been spending time with Kevin.”That sounded like something I’d say if I weren’t feeling so disoriented. My thoughts are scattered. I can’t keep my mind from drifting back to Vanda—who never came home—and the fresh bite marks on the side of my neck. An old tradition. A mark.So many questions haunt me. Where did y
Elena's point of view We kiss for a long while until Vanda pulls away. I sense his inner struggle. His hands grip my hips tightly as he takes control, moving my body to his liking. I brace myself against the tub’s edge for balance. The shift in pace is sudden and intense, yet my body quickly adjusts. The only discomfort I feel is the pressure on my chest, so I use my arm to hold my sore breasts and keep them from bouncing.My jaw tightens, my eyes squeeze shut, and my moans turn into desperate whimpers. I try to focus, to grasp onto the kind of pleasure that could push me over the edge, but everything is happening too fast. The only thing I can process is Vanda’s urgent desire. He moves me faster, pushing deeper, until he suddenly stops, holding me firmly in place. He reaches his peak, and I realize how exhausted I feel despite him taking the lead. My heart pounds, my thighs ache. Finally, he releases my hips, and I slide off him.I collapse against Vanda, still facing him, resting m