Angelo
Last night I struggled to sleep because Cleo wasn't next to me . I miss everything about her and if having her in the other wing of the house but and her not leaving me is my punishment, then I will take what I can get . I am set in my ways and in most cases it has worked to my advantage and in this case I fucked up so badly and I am man enough to admit that.
I woke up at seven ; got cleaned up, went to go check on Ava and had breakfast with her and Nancy , I was ready to leave the house at eight thirty but as soon as I was about to head out my father called me to tell me that he was on his way and that; I should move all my meetings for this morning forward or reschedule them . I totally forgot that Cleo's meeting with regards to the leak and security breach was today.
My dad came through and I could tell he was angry by the way he was walking. I didn't want to give him another hea
CleoThere are times when I feel like fate has played a cruel trick on me ; that what's happened the past three years has been a dream, and that one day I will wake up and be the same Cleo I was before I met Angelo... That is just a dream .What is not a dream however is the continuous attacks I've been getting from my mother in law who seems to be using my husband's old girlfriends against me , without moving. I walked straight into a trap when I went back to work on Monday. Whoever ransacked my office and vandalized it wanted to get their message across. It had to be someone who had been around me for a while to figure me out. I was in a hospital room and I knew it wasn't a hospital either own by the Luca's or the Massa's . I took a deep breath and took in my surroundings . My body was in a bit of pain and it wasn't inflicted by my husband in a fit of rage and jealousy.Everything came back to me while I
AngeloI've always been relaxed when it came to my love life . It was always about sex at some point and wherever possible I'd have it on the daily. I was addicted. A year after rehab I met Cleo and our relationship made sense we had the twins and they were my first biological children. Giovanni wasn't mine ; he was someone's child . This has just been the toughest year on me and it's gotten a whole lot complicated with what had happened.Mia blew up the whole office floor of the communications department. She was the one who was responsible for the leak and security breach. Cleo was innocent from the get go and I don't know what came over me . I was just so angered by seeing pictures of Cleo with other men and all those wounds that Nina had inflicted on me opened up and bled profusely. Cleo was caught in a crossfire she didn't start. 
CleoOn Friday morning I was woken up by Ava crying . It had been a week since I came back from hospital alone, and Ava had noticed that. She was restless for the first three days of my return ; even Nancy was having a bit of trouble with her. She only calmed down when I was holding her . When she wasn't eating I got worried. My worry was amplified by the fever she had ,and not wanting to take chances thinking that it will blow over I took her to the hospital. Since Ava was a Massa I took her to Brent.Brent kept her overnight and ran tests . With everything that was going on, I wasn't feeling okay and for the first time in years I broke down and cried. Angelo left me and he didn't come back I felt alone all over again like I did when he left me at the hospital after my memory loss . When I told him that; it felt broken , he just took a deep breath and looked at me with unshed tears and walked out instead of talking to me
AngeloI can't do anything right . I really can't win. Once I mess up I can't stop messing up no matter how hard I try and clean up my mess. I wanted to see my baby girl but I forgot that in order to access the family wing I need authorisation from Brent even though I own half the hospital . It was a security protocol we put in place after the twins were born . I tried to call him and it went straight to voicemail . When I reached the wing; security started giving me a hard time.I hadn't shaved and even though I groomed my beard I knew that it made me look a bit scary because my son was traumatized when he saw me . When Cleo walked out and I locked eyes with her my whole world stopped. She is emotionally strong and she's the strongest person I know... She put up with me and I put her through hell . I want to treat her right and I don't know where to star. I don't want to lose her. I got so angry that I threw a vase
CleoAngelo is stubborn. I know this because; it's in his nature to be inflexible and set in his ways . It's been two weeks since we came back from hospital with Ava. She is eating properly now and she's smiling more. Angelo didn't answer my question. He has struggled for the longest of times to say; sorry to himself. He believes that he has to be strong all the time ,but for the first time this week I heard him cry and when I ask him what's wrong at breakfast this morning, he said nothing. Even when the twins asked him what was wrong he said sweet nothing .When we came back with Ava from the hospital, he decided to come back to the Luca estate with me and instead of sleeping in the same bed as me, he went to the guestroom. Besides feeling a bit rejected and ignored by Angelo because ; he wouldn't join us for breakfast , lunch or dinner. He was working from my study; even though the communications department was un
AngeloThe past two weeks have been hard on me; not only emotionally but business wise too. The explosion caused more harm than good. It earned Mia a one way ticket to a mental institution and a long lecture . I was afraid to tell Cleo that I can't forgive myself because my mother was behind what had happened. She has influence and the kind of influence she has over people is really potent . If Cleo knew she would be asking a lot of questions I don't have the answers to... I hate keeping stuff from her. I came back to the Luca estate with her so that I could be close to her and Ava and keep an eye on them . Financially Massa was stable but the communications department brought in a lot of money. Cleo knew how things worked and keeping her in the dark wasn't something I wanted to get used to. I couldn't take it. So when I got up this morning at nine ;I called my dad to tell him what had been going on and how much it was hurting me to treat my
CleoYesterday I went to church to celebrate Daniela's Mass . Ava was well behaved and she was actually a bit tired because of the trip she was asleep for most of the service. I thought I had put my scarf and Ava's unicorn toy in the baby bag and I didn't .I couldn't find it this morning and it was Sunday. I woke up at nine in the morning which meant that I would be late for mass, and Father John had invited me for lunch last night after mass because I told him I was tired from the road trip and Ava too started getting restless. Lunch was at twelve and my own body was fighting me on top of misplacing stuff that had sentimental value to me .I got up during the night feeling dizzy. I hadn't eaten so I went downstairs after checking up on Ava to go make myself a cheese sandwich. I only decided to switch my phone on at three in the morning, and I didn't expect the drama that ensued after I switche
AngeloI looked at Cleo and she gently took Ava it of my arms and I followed her upstairs. She had the twins rooms done and Ava's room was gorgeous it was pink with shades of blue . It had butterflies and clouds including unicorns. I needed to talk to her and I understood why she was feeling insecure. I've given her more than enough reason over the past couple of weeks and I haven't been behaving like a husband should.As soon as Cleo put Ava down she headed to the kitchen and poured herself a cup of coffee. She knew she wasn't supposed to be drinking it but she was . She looked a bit pale and although she tried to hide it I knew she was not well . I sat across her on the kitchen island and she looked me mad as hell. I got up without saying a word walked over and took her cup . I chucked the coffee out and put the cup in the dishwasher." What did you do that for?"" You're