Cleo
On Friday morning I was woken up by Ava crying . It had been a week since I came back from hospital alone, and Ava had noticed that. She was restless for the first three days of my return ; even Nancy was having a bit of trouble with her. She only calmed down when I was holding her . When she wasn't eating I got worried. My worry was amplified by the fever she had ,and not wanting to take chances thinking that it will blow over I took her to the hospital. Since Ava was a Massa I took her to Brent.
Brent kept her overnight and ran tests . With everything that was going on, I wasn't feeling okay and for the first time in years I broke down and cried. Angelo left me and he didn't come back I felt alone all over again like I did when he left me at the hospital after my memory loss . When I told him that; it felt broken , he just took a deep breath and looked at me with unshed tears and walked out instead of talking to me
AngeloThe most dangerous attacks are the ones you never see coming, and the ones never expected . They are brutal; unfair, selfish , and heart shattering depending on the nature of the attack. Sometimes they cause unnecessary hurt and at times any attack can leave a trail of destruction .My day started off wonderfully. I woke up next to Cleo ; and left to go meet my brother at Carlo's restaurant . It's always been a safe space to just be yourself and let go with the guys . Carl has always been a great cook and he had closed the restaurant for lunch . After lunch Luigi and I had decided to go to Massa to go sort out some paperwork. Blake had booked us a table at the new cafeteria for
Chapter 60CleoThere comes a point in life when everything just clicks and makes sense.Life has a way of reaching and optimal level ; no matter how many obstacles, challenges, uphill battles you have to fight , mistakes made , lessons learned , pages turned ,and new chapters began. There is always a chance to start again, unlearn what has been programmed and download new coding . An analogy could be a heart rate monitor when they are trying to resuscitate you or when your are are in between life, purgatory, death, or rebirth. If there is a flat line you know very well that you are not living. Life has always been a balancing act .In order to balance work and home life I schedule my messages , and if there is a conversation to be had that I can have with voice notes I do that in order to get more time with the kid's . I had been working from home the past couple of weeks and Angelo had be
AngeloI know how to keep serious stuff from my family. More than that I know how to use without anyone noticing or so I thought. On the Thursday before the dinner party I decided to get high and my drug of choice was my first drug . I needed something to get the edge off with everything that was happening and it wasn't after until Carl found me passed out on the floor with a bleeding nose. I needed to stay awake and I was operating on reserves. The moment I held Cleo close to me was the moment I stopped using.Cleo has always been sharp and she asked me last night if I was doing okay and I lied to her . This morning while I was knocked out cold thanks to her; she found the tunnel underneath the house where I kept my stash. I had instructed Nicolai to move everything to the club where I wouldn't be able to access it . When I was woken up by a crying Ava I called Nicolai to find out if he did what I asked him to do and if
CleoI don't like saying goodbye when I know I still have time to spend with family and friends, especially when I'm enjoying myself. On Saturday afternoon I had to say goodbye to Daniel ; Luigi , the fun loving and potty mouthed Salvatore , Mr Luca and my mother , and Hannah . When I reconnect with Blue and we talked over Breakfast , he wanted us to go home and that was his final decision. I knew whatever argument I would put up or point I'd try to make clear the result would be the same . He wanted time with me alone with the kid's without any interference from other people.By Saturday evening we had arrived back at the house at the Massa estate. I started missing the house by the forest and I wanted to go there instead of the Estate. Angelo had other plans. It wasn't as cold as the coast in Gauteng . Infact it was a bit warmer . I didn't think I'd miss the city as much as I did. The air was thick and the
AngeloI don't know how to manage my and and it's becoming apparent that I need help . Given what I had gone through and what was happening my anger was warranted. First my wife goes missing a day after our wedding , I track down the first person who I think I know is responsible, only to find out that she had planned to take my wife and kids away from me but she failed, resulting in me and my men going on a wild goose chase looking for my wife. My kids too were starting to miss her , to the point where I had to work from home . Only to find out that Cleo was safe and sound at the Luca beach resort and Daniel kept her away from me .I found out after dinner on Friday with the Kids and the family. The twins were calmer and my baby girl wasn't crying at a drop of a hat . Pio mentioned that her mother was around and Pia affirmed it and told me they made, get well soon cards and they went s
CleoI love the changing of seasons ; more than that I love the fact that it's September and it's almost spring. I mean almost because spring officially starts on the twenty second of September not the first . Angelo always argued with me and he was insistent on the fact that the first was Spring day. I really miss Angelo I really do . Apart from the fact that I can't contact him yet I have to play the waiting game.When Daniel asked me if I wanted a divorce . I said ; no. I fell in love with Angelo the very first time I saw him at the food market. I knew then that if our paths were to cross again , I would let nature take its course. Three years later and three beautiful kids later nature did what it was meant to do or should I say fate and