MasukCHAPTER Eight
Arlyn
I walked away as fast as my legs could carry me, not stopping until I had put some distance between myself and the gym.
What had I been expecting from him?
I moved to a tall window overlooking the lawn, closed my eyes, and took breathing exercises, trying to calm my racing heart.
It was no use, though.
My heart was doing that stupid trembling thing again.
I smacked myself in the head, knowing I shouldn’t have gone in there, but I had anyway. Not after overhearing his voice through the half-open door. Not after sensing the tension in the air.
The moment I had gone in, I knew something had happened between him and Liam.
And when he looked at me… God.
That glare wasn’t just anger or irritation. It felt like I’d stumbled into the center of a storm that had nothing to do with me and everything to do with me at the same time.
My cheeks still burned at the memory.
What do you want?
I asked myself that same question he asked me over and over. What did I want? I don't even know why I went there in the first place.
But it wasn’t only that.
Beneath his scowl, something else had flickered. Something I'm sure he wasn't sure was there, and I saw it…
And it confused me more than I cared to admit.
I shook my head trying to clear it and moved away from the window heading for my room, but I changed my mind and headed for Ella's instead.
She wasn't in her room, so I went to the kitchen.
She looked up.
“There she is!” She cried out, waving at me with a spatula. “I’ve been waiting for you. I made pancakes because emotional trauma is best handled with sweet things.”
I laughed despite myself. “You really are something else—”
“Oh hush.” She waved her hand. “Here. Sit.”
I obeyed, letting myself sink into one of the stools at the kitchen island.
She grabbed a plate, dumped a stack of pancakes on it, and pushed it to me.
“Eat.” It was an order.
I picked up a fork and cut out a piece. “They taste amazing.”
“I know, right?” she boasted proudly before sobering up. “How are you holding up?”
I took another bite. “I’m… trying.”
Ella leaned her elbows onto the island, her chin in her hands, studying me closely. “Trying is allowed.”
But she didn’t ask about Liam. She didn’t bring it up at all.
I could’ve hugged her for that.
Instead, I exhaled. “Something happened between Reid and Liam. He was upset.”
Ella blinked slowly.
“You spoke to him?”
“…Who?”
Ella raised a brow.
“Reid, silly.”
I forced my attention back to the plate. “I wouldn’t really call what happened ‘talking.’ He looked like he wanted me out the moment I entered.”
“That sounds like Reid,” Ella said with a nod. “But don’t take it personally. He’s… complicated.”
I almost laughed. "Complicated" was an understatement. The man was in a locked room inside a locked house with the keys thrown into a well… a very deep one.
“He was angry,” I said quietly.
Ella’s gaze sharpened. “At you?”
I shook my head. “No. Not at me.”
Her eyebrows slowly lifted, then lowered again in dawning understanding. “Oh.”
She didn’t say more, but the weight of her silence said enough.
I pushed the plate slightly away. “I walked in at the wrong time.”
Ella rolled her eyes dramatically. “There is no such thing as the ‘right time’ with him. He’s moody before breakfast, after breakfast, and during breakfast.”
I smiled at the fondness in her voice.
“I heard that.”
Bradley's voice sounded from behind us, startling us. “... And it’s not entirely wrong.” He got an apple from the fridge and bit into it.
“Are you good?” he asked me.
I nodded.
He gave me a small concerned look for a while, biting into his apple, and then left, leaving us alone.
I exhaled slowly. “I shouldn’t have gone to him.”
Ella snorted. “Probably not. But you’re brave for trying anyway. The guy’s like a walking fortress.”
I rubbed my hands over my face. “I think I need some air.”
Ella nodded. “Want company?”
I shook my head. “It's just going to be a short walk.”
She squeezed my hand once before letting go. “You will be fine.”
Coming from someone who has wanted acceptance so bad…
****
The winter air was crazy, cold enough to leave frostbite if I stayed out too long. But it was exactly what I needed at the moment as thoughts of both Reid and Liam filled my head.
Liam was no longer a part of my life, but the shadow of what he did still clung to me. And now here he was, still tied in with my new family.
And then there was Reid.
Reid with the sharp eyes and sharper words.
Reid, who had looked at me as if I’d shaken something in him without meaning to.
Why did it matter?
Why did he matter?
I buried my face in my hands, annoyed at myself. The last thing I needed was to start feeling anything for a man who clearly didn’t want me near him… a man, I might add, whose dad my mom was married to.
The sound of footsteps on snow jolted me and distracted me.
I looked up sharply, expecting Ella, but instead, Reid stepped into view.
My breath tripped.
He stood a short distance away, hands in his pockets, posture rigid, as if debating whether to turn around and pretend he never came looking for me.
I stood slowly.
“Reid…”
He didn’t speak at first. Just stared, jaw ticking, an unreadable expression on his face. His hair was slightly mussed, the tension from earlier still clinging to him in waves.
Then, without warning, he ran a hand over his face and exhaled sharply.
“I shouldn’t have snapped at you,” he said finally, voice low and rough.
For a moment, I wondered if I misheard him. Reid apologizing sounded like something that belonged in a fantasy novel, not real life.
I blinked.
“It’s… fine.”
“It wasn’t.” He took a step forward. “You didn’t deserve that.”
My heart thudded painfully against my ribs.
I looked away, focusing on a patch of sunlight on the snow. “You were upset. I shouldn’t have gone in.”
“You didn’t do anything wrong.”
The words were quiet, almost reluctant, as if admitting them cost him something.
He toed the snow beneath his feet. “I’m not… great with people.”
I cocked a brow at him. “I know.”
A flicker of amusement flashed across his features. “Yeah.”
We both fell silent.
Finally, he approached the bench and nodded toward the space beside me. “Can I sit?”
I swallowed. “Yes.”
He sat, not too close, but close enough to get a whiff of his cologne.
For a while, neither of us spoke.
Then he spoke quietly. “I heard what you told Ella.”
I felt my face heat up. “How much?”
“Everything.”
I sighed, leaning back against the bench. “That was probably embarrassing for you to hear.”
I hugged my arms. “It’s not exactly flattering to admit I stayed with someone like Liam for as long as I did.”
Reid’s jaw tightened. “That wasn’t on you. What he did was on him.”
I shook my head. “I ignored the signs. The excuses. My friends dropped hints….”
“That still isn’t on you.”
This time I looked at him and found sincerity shining through the roughness, a raw sight.
“You deserve better,” he added, voice firm.
That shouldn’t have made my heart twist. But it did.
I swallowed hard. “Thank you.”
His eyes lingered on mine for a beat too long, his expression unreadable.
Then he looked away. “I told him to leave.”
My breath froze.
“Liam?” I whispered.
Reid nodded once. “He won’t bother you again.”
Something deep inside me loosened, though I couldn't name it.
“Why… why would you do that for me?” I asked softly.
He hesitated before responding.
“You might be gold diggers, but what I hate more than that is trash, and I know now… Liam is trash.”
My pulse fluttered.
I'm supposed to be insulted, but instead I felt warmth.
He didn’t look at me as he said it. His gaze remained fixed on the trees ahead, as if he were afraid of the meaning behind his own words.
I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t know what this meant. But I felt something stir.
The wind swept past us, lifting strands of my hair. Without thinking, he reached forward and gently tucked one behind my ear.
I froze.
He froze.
His fingers lingered a second too long.
Then he pulled them back quickly, jaw clenching as if he regretted the impulse.
“I should go,” he muttered, but he didn’t stand immediately.
Neither did I.
Something unspoken settled between us—alive, pulsing, dangerous.
Finally, he rose to his feet.
“Come back inside soon,” he said quietly. “It’s cold out here.”
I nodded.
He hesitated a beat, then turned and walked back toward the house, his shoulders rigid, his steps deliberate.
Once he disappeared from view, I exhaled shakily and pressed my hands to my eyes.
He scared me.
Not because he was cruel—he wasn’t.
But because he felt like the kind of storm that could uproot things I hadn’t even admitted were planted.
And was my stepbrother also.
But as I stood and began heading back toward the house, one truth clung stubbornly to my ribs:
I wasn’t afraid of Reid.
Not really.
I was afraid of the way I felt when he looked at me sometimes.
But let's face the facts:
He was a temptation I can never allow myself to give in to.
Never!
JaneI had been sitting in the café for almost forty minutes before I admitted the obvious truth to myself.I had no plan… None whatsoever.I knew this café because Arlyn had mentioned it in passing weeks ago; it was the place Reid sometimes worked when he wanted quiet without isolation.That alone felt ridiculous now, having to stalk an old friend for the sake of another friend without a plan in mind.I wrapped my fingers around my cup of coffee, now cold, and stared at him.Reid Branderton sat three tables away from me, angled slightly toward the window, shoulders hunched in that way men get when they are trying to make themselves smaller than their thoughts. A laptop was open in front of him, untouched for several minutes. His fingers rested on the keyboard, unmoving, while his gaze stayed fixed on nothing in particular.He looked… distracted and tired.Not the kind of tiredness that came from lack of sleep. The deeper kind. The kind that settled into bones.I swallowed.Arlyn’s fa
ArlynI kept waiting for him after the incident with the boys.That was the cruelest part, the way I eagerly watched out for him in class or how I moved back into my apartment expecting to run into him since we were practically neighbors.Every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, I walked into the lecture hall five minutes early and took my usual seat, my heart doing that stupid hopeful thing even though my brain somehow knew better.I would scan the front of the room, half-expecting to see Reid standing there again.But he never showed up.At first, I told myself it was a scheduling thing. PhD students were busy. He’d probably show up next lecture. Or the one after that.By the end of the second week, denial stopped working. He was never coming to fill in for the ill professor again.A new lecturer had taken over. Older and soft-spoken with kind eyes. He fumbled with the projector and joked nervously about not being as intimidating as the Ph.D. student before him, and the whole class roar
ReidSaving her should have been the end of it.A clean, sharp moment of intervention followed by distance. At least that's what I told myself. Step in if necessary. Walk away immediately after. No lingering…But rules are only useful when your body listens to your head.Mine didn’t.From the second I left her standing there, I felt off balance, like I’d stepped off solid ground into a pit. My heart wouldn’t slow, and I developed a constant migraine.I kept reviewing the scene with Arlyn on the way home. Her eyes. The way she said please. The way my name almost slipped from her mouth when she tried to thank me.That was the worst part.Not the boys. Not the confrontation.The fact that she still reached for me instinctively.I locked my apartment door and leaned my forehead against it for a long moment, breathing through my mouth like my therapist once taught me.It didn’t help.My place was quiet in the particular way that amplifies everything you don’t want to hear. Your own thought
ReidDistance is a discipline… that was something I learned at an early age, long before I took anger management classes, before discipline turned into survival, before silence became my preferred language. Distance keeps things neat and easy to control. It keeps you from wanting what you shouldn’t want and touching what will inevitably burn you.So when the new semester began, I treated distance like doctrine.I arrived early to lectures and left late. I kept my eyes on my notes, my voice neutral, and my posture professional. I addressed students by last names only. I didn’t linger after class. I didn’t invite conversation. I didn’t acknowledge familiarity where familiarity very clearly existed.And Arlyn?She became a stranger.Or at least, I pretended she was.The first time I saw her seated two rows back, hair pulled back into a loose ponytail, pen tucked between her fingers as she laughed quietly with Jane, something twisted low in my chest. It was instinctive… and unwanted. I cr
ArlynEveryone had gone up to their rooms. Jane wanted to stay in mine with me, but the head maid in the house wouldn't hear of it. She reluctantly agreed to the guest room.And I was left all alone in the anteroom… with its suffocating atmosphere.Even though I was looking out the window, I didn't seem to be breathing in much air and wasn't really seeing anything. Instead, my mind kept trying to make sense of the tangled web that had become my life of late. Makes me wonder just what fate had in store for me.A part of me itched to seek out Jane and get her to tell me why she never once mentioned Reid, but I already knew what the end result was going to be: she would just shrug and say it wasn’t something she expected to come up. And she’d be right. How could any of us have expected any of this?I didn't want to think about him… or pay close attention to the little things about him, like the way he walks, how his eyes wrinkled a bit at the corners and twinkled the few times he smiled,
ArlynIf someone had told me fate came with a sense of humor, I would’ve laughed.Standing there in the living room, watching Jane grin at Reid like a fool, I wasn’t laughing.I was reeling.“You went to school together?” I asked again, because surely my ears had malfunctioned. Today had already pushed the limits of what I could process, and my brain was stubbornly refusing to add this to the pile.Jane nodded enthusiastically. “Middle school. St. Gregory’s. He was the quiet type and always had a book… Scrawny, too.”Reid made a low sound that might’ve been a warning.I blinked slowly, still shocked at this latest development. “Scrawny?”Jane laughed, completely unbothered by the lethal look Reid shot her.“Oh yeah. You wouldn’t believe it. He barely talked to anyone except me.”That earned her a look from Reid, sharp and unreadable, and for some reason it made my chest hurt.Barely talked to anyone except me.I glanced at Reid, half-expecting him to deny it, to shut it down the way h







