Three hours later, sitting in Dad’s office, I can still feel the ghost of Dom’s skin under my fingers. His eyes? They were full of hunger. The sparks between us are burning.
"Gratitude, Dad." I use my fork to gently prod my chicken parmesan, my appetite long gone. "It's going great."
My seat is right across from Dom's. He is obviously nervous as he concentrates on his meal, and a black button-down shirt covers his injured shoulder. He can tell if I'm not looking by the way his eyes shift to me. I watch as he hacks into his food, his forearm flexing and his jaw clenching as though he's crushing down every idea.
As he begins to eat his meal, Dad responds with a smile, "So tell me about the surprise visit." As far as I knew, you were doing well in New York.
It is here.
Debating how much to reveal, I hesitate, but Dom is of no assistance. He seems absorbed on his plate as if it were about to reveal a secret to him.
“I quit my job. And I ended things with Marcus.
Dad's plate clatters as his fork strikes it. “What? What time? You didn't call me, so why?
"It's challenging."
How was it complicated? Did that jerk cause you any harm? The sinister tone he adopts is the same one I heard on that mysterious call earlier.
“Not in a physical sense.” I detest my diminutive voice, and the words are hushed.
Dom jerks his head up. He meets and keeps my eyes. It's burning—frustration, worry, or something else I can't identify.
"What was he doing?" Eyes narrowing, mouth clenched, Dad asks.
My breath escapes me. things's useless to sugarcoat things. He had been robbing customers. attempting to hide it with my access codes. All the files had my name on them when it was all revealed. An investigation is underway into me.
Dad looks at me like I just gave him a slap.
I add, "My career is over."
Nothing. burdensome and oppressive.
"Jesus Christ," says Dad to himself. “Izzy...
“There’s more.” I tear the remainder off like a band-aid. He cheated on me. along with Rebecca.
Dom twitches his jaw. The table is where his fists curl.
"Rebecca?" Dad whispers. Rebecca, your best friend?
"Once my best friend. Next spring, they will get married.
Dad lets out an exhale. "I intend on killing him."
Dad—"
No. I'll be driving to New York to choke him.
“Vincent,” Dom's voice is calm but steely in the end. "That will not resolve any issues."
"You say."
Tears escape my eyes. I've had enough crying. No more. Control is what I need.
I get it, then.
I remove my shoe and place my toes on Dom's leg beneath the table. Muscles tensing, he freezes in mid-bite.
"I'm all right, Dad," I say with ease as I put more pressure on Dom's leg. "All I need is time,"
Across the table, Dom's eyes are blazing, but he remains still. As an alternative, he softly squeezes my foot between his calves. Up my leg, electricity shoots.
As long as you need to, you can remain here, Dad says.
"I realize." I move my toes up Dom's leg and yet give him a nice grin. He has a fantastic reaction. tightened jaw, dilated pupils, and shallow breathing.
Dad shouts abruptly, "We should celebrate." "Come get drinks, Dom?"
Tightly, Dom says, "I should go."
"Friday night is here." Dad has gotten up and is on his way to the kitchen. "I will obtain the quality whiskey."
Dom's hand swoops beneath the table and seizes my ankle as soon as he leaves, warm and firm.
Hissing, he asks, "What the hell?"
I naively blink. "I am unsure of your meaning."
“Izzy. A growl is my name. But my ankle is stroked by his thumb. He is unable to let go.
"At any time, you can let me go."
"Are I able to?" It's a gruff voice. "Because you seem to be the one without letting go."
Before I can respond, Dad comes back with three glasses and a bottle. The blazing between us is unavoidable, yet Dom lets go as if he's been caught committing a crime.
Dad says, "To family," and lifts his glass.
My gaze is fixed on Dom as I repeat, "To family."
He is silent. He stares at his glass like it’s about to blow up. I just nod along, pretending to listen while Dad drones on about construction projects. We make some small talk for a bit. All my attention is on Dom. He screams restraint with his entire body, his eyes frequently dart to my mouth, and his whiskey glass rolls between his palms.
At some point, Dad leaves us alone and excuses himself to answer a phone.
"I ought to leave," Dom replies, getting up as quickly as the chair's electrified.
“Should you?” Blocking his route, I follow. "Or are you inclined to?"
The same thing.
Is it? I move in closer. He retreats against the wall.
I am overcome by his aroma, which is cedar, alcohol, and danger. "Because you seem intent on staying."
He grabs my shoulders. The idea is for them to push me away. They do not.
It's crazy," he murmurs.
I'm Vincent's daughter, so why?
"You're not welcome."
“Who says that?” My hands are on his chest. He feels his heart pounding. “You?
"Expresses every philosophy I've ever held."
"Perhaps it's time for some break."
With my mouth inches from yours, I stand up on my toes. I can sense his breath. Watch the struggle in his eyes, duty drawing him back, desire drawing him in.
“Izzy. There is hardly any sound in his voice. His hands leave a trail of searing as they move down my arms.
Only once, I mumble. "Give me a kiss once, and I'll go away."
Both of us realize it's a lie.
He leans in so that I can taste his lips. The strain in his body hums. He's going to give in, I hope.
Then Dad’s voice booms from the kitchen, and Dom jumps like I actually slapped him.
He blurts, “I gotta go,”
"Dom, hold on—"
Too late. After the front door slams, his truck bursts into action.
My body buzzes and my heart hammering, I stood in the solitude.
Does he believe it will stop there?
Not even close.
I take my phone out and browse to the number Marcus insisted I save in case: Richard Blackwood, a freelance detective.
I type: I need you to examine someone. Dominic Castellano. Romano Structure. Everything. especially those connected to the NYC financial scandals or Vincent Romano.
Instantaneous response: Completed. It will cost you, though.
Does it cost to investigate Vincent as well?
for you? Not a f*e. I've had my eye on your father for months.
I freeze my fingertips. What are you getting at?
For the sake of argument, Romano Construction has some intriguing silent partners. such as those who detest publicity.
As it falls from my grasp, the phone clatters to the ground.
Coffee was too strong, or maybe it was just me, everything feels too strong lately, smells too sharp, light too bright, voices too loud, like my nerves don’t have skin anymore. i sat there with the mug in my hands, steam rising in my face, supposed to feel warm and safe or whatever but it didn’t, it felt like my heart was thumping so loud it drowned out the taste. i didn’t sleep. obviously i didn’t. every time i closed my eyes i was right back there, Dom’s hands on me, Dom’s voice low, rough, the way he said he couldn’t stay like it mattered to him, like it hurt him but not enough to stay. i kept waking up sweaty, covers twisted, head full of him. i hate it. i hate that i let it happen and i hate that i can’t stop replaying it.Dad walked in like nothing, like he always does, crisp shirt tucked in, tie already perfect like he doesn’t even breathe, like he’s made of something harder than the rest of us. he looked at me once, then again, too long, too sharp, and i swear my blood froze.
The rain was stupid loud by the time i made it up the steps, like not just wet, it felt personal, like it wanted me drowned before i even got the damn key in the lock. my coat weighed twice as much as it should, sticking to my arms like punishment, boots squelching, i could feel water in my socks and i hate that more than anything. my fingers were slipping on the keys, stupid yellow light buzzing over my head, and i swear i could hear my own breath louder than the rain. then—footsteps.I froze because of course i did, i’m always freezing when i should move. slow at first but then quicker, like an echo that didn’t belong to me. i whipped around, keys jammed between my fingers like that would do anything, and there he was. dom. just standing there at the bottom like some scene out of a bad movie. rain in his hair, dripping down his jaw, shirt plastered to him like skin. and his eyes, they always find me no matter what light, no matter where.“what are you doing here?” it came out sharpe
The stupid buzzing sign outside joe’s tap was the first thing, like it was already needling me before i even touched the door, it makes that low hum that gets in your teeth and the pavement was slick and the colors were bleeding like the whole street couldn’t hold itself together. i don’t even know why i stopped there. i should’ve gone home. dad wasn’t there, late meeting, said he’d be late and i knew the apartment would feel like walking into a dead space, no sound, no warmth, just the walls. i couldn’t. i told myself just a drink, just noise to drown out the silence.And then the heat hits me, that clinging smoky greasy bar heat, and for a second it’s better, like a blanket. smells like fries, beer, something sweet—whiskey maybe—something sticky. those dumb fairy lights draped uneven across the ceiling making everyone look softer than they were, shadows over wood, the bar gleaming like it’s too polished for this dump. wednesday and still packed, wings everywhere, pool balls clacking
I waited till everybody left, i mean i literally sat there like an idiot watching the second hand drag across that clock, tick tick tick, louder than it should be, like it was mocking me or warning me, i don’t even know. the office was so quiet by then, just the buzzing from the overhead lights and the click of my stupid pen i kept clicking open and shut because i couldn’t sit still, and i knew dad wasn’t gonna come back until late, he never comes back before seven when he’s got those meetings uptown, but still i kept waiting, what if this is the one day he changes, what if this is the one time i get caught.My legs felt wooden when i finally stood up, like they didn’t want to move. it’s so dumb, it’s just an office, just a door, and i know i’m not a thief but it felt exactly like that. the handle was so cold, i noticed that, colder than it should’ve been, metal biting into my palm like the room already knew i had no right being in there. i slipped in slow, not even breathing.the air
The rain finally stopped sometime in the night, i heard it dripping in the alley when i couldn’t sleep and thought maybe the world was being scrubbed clean or whatever but it didn’t feel clean this morning, it just felt… sticky. heavy. i got to the office too early, earlier than anyone should, heels sounding too loud on the tiles, like the place was empty enough to swallow the sound and echo it back at me. i hate when it’s that quiet, the fan humming and that stupid drip in the back alley like someone counting down time i don’t want to spend.Vincent’s door was cracked open. i don’t even know why i stopped. no, that’s a lie, i do know, i’ve been thinking about it for weeks, that itch in my brain like he’s hiding something, more than he ever says, more than he lets me see. he was at some meeting uptown, smiling and shaking hands, leaving me behind to keep everything neat. i told myself i was just looking for invoices because that’s believable, invoices don’t ask questions. but my hand
the morning wasn’t even supposed to feel weird. like it started… normal. sunlight doing that stupid stripe thing across the floor in the office, coffee machine already rumbling, printer smell (which i hate but it’s like stuck in my head now), and i walked in early—heels clicking too loud cause i was nervous for no reason, i don’t even know why, maybe cause of him, dom, i don’t know.and yeah he was already there. of course he was. always early. sleeves rolled up like he’s some cliché, pencil behind his ear like he’s the only one working. didn’t even look at me at first, then finally did, that half-second eye contact, quick little nod, nothing else. like the almost-kiss the other night didn’t happen. except it did. i feel it every time. it’s like this humming wire between us that neither of us wants to touch cause we’d burn. he acts like it’s not there but it is. i know it is.then vincent barges in, all wind and cologne like the outside world just follows him, and suddenly the whole r