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A Realization
Autumn has taken a hold of our part of the city as well, the leaves on the tree atop the roof top deck have begun falling down cluttering the stony floors. A few leaves blow past in the wake of a gust of wind and lands right on my shoe. The events of the previous two weeks have been caught on my mind. While Parker had been busy dealing with the ramifications of his failed experiment, I had been thrown into an emotional and logistical quagmire of sorts. Between midterms, Colton being unaware that I know his little secret, and Danilo somehow being brought into our apartment as a “temporary arrangement”, I have been completely lost in a whirlwind. Parker had surprised me earlier today by telling me that the entire debacle with their experiment had been concluded and was free to come to the city to meet with me. Though, a single phrase kept nagging at my brain. Don’t tell him about them.
“Turns out, the University Board o
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