Chapter 7 - Triggers

Cleo

It starts with total calmness; peace , serenity and control . When you can't remember some parts of your life it can be a blessing and a curse. The blessing part comes when; you are learning to be a new person on a clean slate , and you get to start over. The curse is not knowing if you can trust the next person. I don't know who is out to get me ; who is following me , who is lying to me or who I'm going to remember next. Then ... then there is what I call a trigger; when that happens there is a ripple effect in your brain something clicks. The effect feels like glass cracking under your feet and you feel like you have nowhere safe to run, the worst that could happen happens and you find yourself in free fall mode, fearful of what's going to happen when you hit the ground . The feeling gets more amplified when you are unsure of what's going to happen next; you ask yourself if you're going to like what you see next, or what in my case am I going to like what I see when I have fl