First Crush

Alice's point of view:

I ran out toward the training field only to meet Hunter. Can my day have a chance to get even worse?

I've tried to turn back while intending to avoid him. The thing is that he spotted me before I could run away.

"Hey! Alice..." He called after me and I took my time while being in a deep conversation with my inner demons about if I shall keep running or I had to answer him back.

You might be wondering who's that Hunter guy I'm trying to avoid, or actually escape and you have all right too.

Well, he was my secret crush, that he's not a secret anymore. Let me tell you how it all started. 

When I and Joshua turned sixteen, we were both relieved knowing that we're not each other's mates. I mean, we tease each other most of the time; we understand each other without even speaking, we both have the same age. The most important thing was that we love each other, but not the way mates do.

Back to my initial story with Hunter. The thing was that when we turned sixteen - I came to learn that I don't have a wolf, unlike Joshua. At that exact period, Joshua isolated himself away from me, as he needed to learn about himself and his wolf.

I can't deny how hard that period was for me. Not just that I was feeling alone, not being with the only person I truly have in this life, but I became everyone's favorite target.

It was my first time knowing that Alpha Asher and Luna Eva shared hateful feelings toward me. They never show their real feelings until Joshua wasn't around me. It was clear that they were faking kindness toward me only because they didn't want their only son to see their true identity - hateful, cold, and heartless.   

Alpha Ashar's hate grew bigger when he came to notice that his alpha command doesn't affect me at all. As an alpha, all his commands shall be answered right away by all his pack members. No one can go against him. Again - almost no one.

His commands don't affect me at all, it's probably because I am a human, not a werewolf. Still, it seems very offensive for an alpha not to do as he asked while living in his territory.

I'm not trying to overpass his authority, not that I can anyway. Yet, what he was asking me to do was something that I can't do even if I want to.

He can't get rid of me by killing me since there's a bond between me and his only son, and anything that happens to me might affect Joshua. The reason why he kindly ordered me to leave, and I refuse - kindly. Of course, I hate it here, yet I can't go and leave Joshua - he is my only family.

At that exact time, when Joshua used to be dealing with his own stuff. Alpha Asher declares the start of the hunting game, and I was the target. 

Everyone living in the packhouse who hated me because of being a human and offspring of an omega got them a chance to pay me for all the years they had to afford my presence.

I stopped having decent food like I used to have. Instead, I started feeding on leftovers. 

Oops! Accident might happen - was the new ringtone that I hear whenever I kiss the flour. 

I lost each and every sense of privacy and personal space. My room becomes like a new pack museum.

Imagine coming back from school after a really hard day, wanting only to have some rest, only to discover a bunch of people wandering inside of my room. Still, I never had the right to protest since the packhouse wasn't really my home, and that wasn't really my room.

I kept enduring all that treatment, not wanting to annoy Joshua with my stories since he already was busy with his wolf and new friends.

Until the day when Rebekah found the spot where I'm hiding my dairies. I used to hide my diaries inside of a pillow, and I don't know how she found it. The thing was that I used to note everything that happens to me by day in these diaries, everything that had no relation with my gift was there, including my feelings for her brother - Hunter.

Yes! Rebekah is Hunter's twin sister and the one who shares feelings toward Joshua. I know, now it started all making sense to you. 

As I was a female so close to her crush, I was noted as her number one enemy. So, destroying me was her priority, and when she had the tools (my diaries) to do so, she didn't think twice.

I still remember seeing her dragging her brother toward my room while reading one specific line.

" I learned that the guy I like is Joshua's upcoming beta, his name is Hunter. I wouldn't be lying if I said that I want..." Before she could finish her sentence, I snatched my diaries out of her hands, then I finished for her.

" I want to taste his delicious cherry lips!" 

Of course, I was deadly embarrassed by myself, yet I didn't want to show her or anyone around her weakness. 

" How shameless you are?" She shouted at me.

" Shameless!" I repeated while laughing at her statement, which she didn't like at all. " Rich coming from you queen-B!" 

" I really need such a strong face as yours. You probably know that my brother has a mate somewhere around the world, but you still have the courage to hold feelings for my brother."

I rolled my eyes at her statement, then I spoke the same way she did.

" You already have such a strong face as mine. You probably know that Joshua has a mate somewhere around the world, but you still have the courage to hold feelings for him."

It seemed that my words got her out of mind, which caused her to try to punch me in the face. Unexpectedly, Hunter made a move for the first time that day. He grabbed his sister's punch before she reached my face.

" Enough Becka!" He shouted at his sister. " You don't have to do right to be here, let's leave..." He said while grabbing her outside of my room.

The next thing to happen was Hunter informing Joshua about everything that happened between me and his sister, which caused Joshua to open an investigation about what was happening, leading him to know all the things I was suffering from. In the beginning, Joshua got a bit mad at me because of not telling him about what I was going to throw. He even started believing that I don't trust him as I used to do, which wasn't the truth. I just didn't want to annoy him with my stupid issues...

From that day, Joshua never left my side. As for Hunter, I never dared to speak to him, especially after bringing to my mind that he really had a mate, and he would eventually meet her.