DIANA How long must you drown an emotion in denial to be forgotten? It seems this emotion is refusing to drown. I stared at the flowers before me - they were over 30 bouquets! “Are you sure you have the right address?” I asked skeptically. “Yes, you’re Miss Diana, correct?” “Yes I am.” “Then it’s for you, can you please sign here?” He offered me the book and I signed absentmindedly, just overwhelmed in awe. As he turned away, I called out “Excuse me, who are these from?” “He didn't disclose his name ma’am.” He replied. “Hm, thank you.” I murmured, my brows furrowed. Where in the world was I going to put all these flowers? “What are you still doing at the - oh my god!” She gasped when she saw the flowers. “You didn’t tell me you were seeing someone!!” She teased, nudging me with her elbow as her eyes twinkled. “Because I’m not.” I stated firmly. “So why would someone send you over 20 bouquets of flowers when you’re not even…” her voice trailed off and her eyes widened i
DIANA Is there ever a moment of absolute healing? Or is it nothing but a myth?He called me 2 times last night. I could only stare at it as it rang. What was there to say? What was he calling for? To rub more salt in my wound? Remind me of how undeserving I am of him? Of his love? Or did he call to apologize? Don’t be delusional. The heavens must have collapsed before Kevin apologizes. “Diana, any suggestions?” A voice called me out of my thoughts I clear my throat lightly, “On?” “The design theme for the 30th year anniversary of the company.” “Oh yes, I was thinking we’d go more futuristic. The decor should depict times ahead of the present, a way of showing the world Leota Industries is innovative and ahead of the times.” I suggested, regaining my focus. Nods of approval were given by the members of the PR committee framing the light brown mahogany table. “I’ll contact some artists and designers that specialize in this theme, and I’ll send the samples to you, so we can w
JEROME “We should merge with Golde Empire - it’s the best course of action for the company.” He mentioned, his voice laced with certainty.“I see no reason to do that,” I responded resolutely, my voice staunch. “We need to expand to other states, and signing this deal with Golde Empire would make that happen.” He argued. “We can expand on our own. Collaborating with them would only sink my company, and I will not have that.” I declared. “I believe you should reconsider.” He suggested, “I truly do not care what you believe.” I retorted coldly, my tone dismissive. He scoffed, “You're just as stubborn as your father.”“And he built an empire alone.” I stated. “Alone?? I was there in the shadows lifting him when no one else did.” He exclaimed “Well I’m not aware of that, and I couldn’t care less. What I do know is that if you truly cared about the company, you wouldn’t suggest such.” I replied sharply “If this company crumbles, I go down too. This is our legacy and - “ “Our?” I
DIANA How deep must your heart be buried to avoid resurrection? How much of your fear and denial do you have to tie to your heart to make sure it sinks to the bottom of the ocean, never to come afloat? As his lips touched mine, fireworks went off in my belly. The feelings I’d tried so hard to lock in a compartment of my mind to be buried and forgotten, they came flooding back to me like a robust tidal wave. But it wasn’t the same as that night, this time, it was different. There was this undeniable ferocity in the way our tongues danced rhythmically with fiery passion and our hearts violently raced in vigor. His hands held my waist tightly, pulling me closer to his broad chest, deepening the kiss. Against reason, my arms wrapped themselves around his neck, my hand gripping his silky dirty blonde and a low groan escaped from his throat.He tightened his hold on my waist and his hands gripped my ass, and a moan fled my lips, my lower belly aching in desperate need to be touched.
DIANA It was harder than I thought. The past five days have been more difficult than I expected. Suddenly I see him everywhere. In the hallway, in my dreams. Anytime I’d enter a room he had been in, I was enveloped by his musky vanilla scent still lingering in the air, probably waiting for me to inhale it and let it settle in my brain - a high I never thought I’d need. Today was not any better. I was walking to one of the conference rooms to have a meeting with the PR committee, to run the designs for the event with her; and then I saw him. He was wearing a grey tuxedo with a black tie, his dirty blonde hair slicked back. He had a smile on his face as he spoke on the phone. I wonder who he was talking to that made him smile that way. Probably one of his many lovers. Did I actually expect to be the only one he kissed? He was probably fucking someone that wasn’t me. His eyes turned to me and winked, and all the seething anger growing in me transformed into a tingling sensati
JEROME How much fire do you need to cause a devastating explosion? Just a spark. Just the sight of her is enough spark to ignite an explosion in me. It’s never this hard for me. It’s been so long that I’d forgotten this primal feeling, this irrational craving for a woman, this dire need to be around her, to hold her, to take her in ways too profane to tell a soul. How did I get here? A ringing sound pulls me out of my thoughts, “I thought you’d finally kicked me to the curb.” I smiled as I answered the call.Ryan laughed, “I’m heavily considering it, I had things to attend to so I couldn’t pick up”“Please tell me it’s a woman.” He scoffed, “Remember our deal? Until you get married, by some divine intervention of the universe, then we’ll see.”“That's not happening old man, stop hoping.” “Why do you keep calling me that? I’m just a year older than you.”“Exactly, older. Meaning old man. And you definitely look way over forty five” I grinned.“That’s because you stress the yout
DIANA As he said those words, it felt like a dagger in the heart, and as he retreated, the ache intensified. So he was fucking other women? Why did a small part of me believe otherwise?How foolish of me. It’s not like there was anything substantial between us, so why was I bothered? Why did the thought of him with another woman in his arms irk me this much? He could sleep with a thousand women for all I cared. It’s none of my business. What we had was fleeting, a moment of weakness. Giving it any more substantial weight than that was stupid.I walked out of the office, blinded by pure anger. I needed to get away from this constant reminder of him in the atmosphere. I found a café some blocks away from the company. I pushed the door open, the jingle of the bell ahead oddly soothing, the whole place was small, but not enough to make me feel claustrophobic, just cool and light, with smooth cream and white walls, and soft golden light fixtures, like a home away from home. The rou
JEROME “Jay, I’ve missed you so much.” Her sultry voice filled my ear. “Likewise.” I responded, blandly.“You said we’d see two weeks ago, I even wore the purple lingerie you liked - and you cancelled on me.” I could already see her pouting.“Something came up.” I replied, my eyes trailing her as she walked into the café. “And when has that ever stopped you?” Why was she taking so long in the café? Was she meeting up with someone? Probably the bastard I saw touch her in the hallway. I felt the anger rise in my veins. “10pm. Marrison Hotel. Same room.” “Promise you won’t stand me up this time, because I’m getting all dolled up for you jay.” “Hm.” I responded absentmindedly, my eyes on café.She was still inside.“Jay I was thinking… why don’t we do something different tonight?” “What?” I asked annoyed. “We’ve never made love in your home before, and we’ve been doing this for a while now, don’t you think it’s - “ “My home is off limits. You know this.” I said firmly. “I jus
DIANA It felt like forever since I felt his soft lips on mine, it was only then I realized I had been starved. His hands tightened their hold on my waist, pulling me closer to his chest as he dived deeper into my lips, his tongue breaking through and claiming me. I threw my arms around his neck, locking him on my lips. But I was not strong enough. He departed from my lips, his eyes fixated on my lips, dowsed in desire. His finger came up to my lips, grazing them lightly, “You really have no idea how beautiful you are.” He breathed out, as he gazed into my eyes. His finger left my lips, moving slowly down my neck, to the buttons on my shirt, and then paused on the last button. It was right above the band of my trousers. What was this man planning to do? I swallowed as he ventured further, his finger dipping passed the band, rubbing the lace over my crotch - just inches away from my core. It became hard to breathe, my heart pounded against my ribs as he looked at me, “I’ll sto
DIANA In less than an hour, I would see him again. I didn’t if the knot in my belly was that of excitement, nerves or fear. What would I even say to him? What would he say to me? Was there even anything to say? Any explanation to give? Nothing any of us would say would change my reality. This was how my body would look forever… irreversibly flawed. “Ma’am, we’re here.” William’s voice brought me out of my thoughts, and I stared at the skyscraper before me with near dread.“Thank you.” I said, giving him a small smile before exiting the car.I had actually insisted on using a cab, but if it wasn’t obvious, Williams wasn’t the type to take no for an answer… especially if he’s been given an order.Yes, I would talk to him about that. I no longer require Williams’ services. I don’t feel comfortable with it anymore… not that I ever did, but now it’s different.Things just aren’t the same anymore.I walked into the building with only one thing in mind - go for the meeting, tell him t
DIANA Sleep has been difficult this past week…She has refused to bestow her presence upon me, drifting far beyond my reach.Maybe it’s because I have been chugging down coffee now more than usual. I’d like to believe that was the reason, and not because the darkness has now become an unsolicited invitation for my demons to come out of their hiding place, and feast.I took another sip of the coffee in my hands as I read the email again on my laptop.There was a meeting happening tomorrow, and every one on the committee must be present. I couldn’t avoid him any longer.I had spent the last week confined to the walls of my apartment, desperately dodging any reason to go the office… stalling the inevitable. I leaned back on the couch as I sighed, shutting the laptop on my lap. I would have to see him eventually, there was no escaping it. That, and I had a job to do.I wouldn’t let my brand suffer because of a personal matter. I’ll just go for the meeting and leave immediately. I won
DIANA My eyes widened as I stared at the men as they walked into the alley. I walked backwards till I felt back against the wall, my heart palpitating wildly in my chest.“Why were you running pretty girl?” The first man leaned in, the stench of alcohol and cigarettes hitting my nostrils as he spoke.No no no no no-“She wanted us to go somewhere private, guess she wants to give us a show.” The other guy said, a disgusting smirk on his face as he slurred, more under the influence than the one holding me down.“P-please, let m-me go.” I pleaded, my voice coming out as a stutter. They both laughed, “You brought us here and now you want to leave?” The second one slurred, yellow teeth glinting under the moonlight.“I’ll g-give you anything y-you want!” I sputtered, my hands shaking as I gripped my purse. “Just name your p-price.” “You hear that Jim?” The first man turned to his friend. “She said anything I want,” then he turned to me, his eyes darkening as he grabbed my neck, callo
DIANA My vision blurred with tears as I rushed to the elevator, ignoring his voice. “Diana…Diana!” I could hear him calling after me, but I couldn’t look back. I couldn’t face him. How did he view me all this time?? An unfortunate case to be pitied? Enough to have around but never lust after? What went through his mind when he touched me? When he kissed me? Is that why he always stopped? Because he knew what I looked like underneath. I should have known. As I entered the elevator, I rapidly pressed the button to take me to the ground floor. As the doors closed, I looked at the mirror and I could see it all. Even though I was covered head to toe, somehow, all I saw were the scars… finally exposed.I wiped my tears angrily as I rushed through the lobby. As I broke through the doors, the chill in the wind hit me almost immediately. It was unusually cold tonight… or maybe it was just me, the sudden realization that he knew what I was. He’d always known. I decided to run, at
DIANA It was Mr. Leota at the door. He didn’t have the usual smirk on his face, he looked serious… too serious.“You’re here…” I mumbled. He didn’t say anything, just walking past me into my apartment.My heart pounded as I stood by the doorway, turning to him slowly as I shut the door.Did he already know?He wasn’t even looking my way, his back was turned to me instead, and my mind raced as I imagined what he’d do next.Would he yell? Cuss me out? Fire me? The suspense was killing me as I stood there.Finally, he turned to face me, walking towards me and closing the gap between us as my breath hitched.“I wasn’t expecting you to come here..” I watered my lips, staring at him with drawn brows.“Why?” He only raised a brow.“You were with your friend, so…” I looked away, hiding the anxiety I felt.“Hm.” He hummed, his eyes regarding me for a moment.“You guys seem really close...” I swallowed, my gaze flashing to his for a moment to catch his reaction.“We are.” The smile that rose
DIANAI tried so hard to conceal the shock on my face, as I stared at the man before me. He was almost the same height as Mr Leota, tall with a lean figure, his perfectly cut beard framing dark eyes that eyed me in judgement.I hoped deep down as I stared at the man that Mr. Leota was mistaken. What kind of Ill luck did I have??“Nice to meet you.” I managed to say said with a shaky smile, but he didn’t smile back, he only nodded and turned to Mr. Leota, completely ignoring me.“Shall we go?” He raised a brow. “-we’ll miss the reservation if we spend more time here.”“Relax, old man, we’ll make it in time.”Mr Leota waved him off with a scoff.Old man? I stared at the man with slightly raised brows.How old was this guy exactly?“You say that everytime and we miss it everytime.” Ryan rolled his eyes.“Have a little faith in me.” Mr Leota smirked.“And where exactly has that gotten me?” He raised a brow at him.“Desperately in love with me.” My eyes widened as Mr Leota nudged him sligh
DIANA I had this pressing urge to slap whoever just knocked on the door, but to also thank them - who knows what would have happened if we had gone on with it… I tried to distance myself from him, but his grip was rock solid.“Mr. Leota, there’s someone at the door.” I tried prying his hands away, but he didn’t even budge.“And?” He raised a brow, shifting closer:“They’re probably here to see you.” I furrowed my brows in amusement at his nonchalance.“Then they can wait.” Then he leaned in, placing kisses on my neck, each one a spark flying through my body.“They could w-walk in at a-any moment.” I managed to breath out, desperately holding on to the last thread of restraint in my head. “I don’t mind that.” His hands around my waist fastened their grip, with no plans to release me.“Well, I do.” I strained to say, my voice coming out weak and airy. He wasn’t listening to me. His tongue danced on my neck like a paintbrush on a canvas, I couldn’t tell what he was painting, but all
DIANA Why must the universe always be against me???“Whatever nonsense you have to spew from that smelly mouth of yours can wait, I have a meeting to be at.” I scoffed, rolling my eyes at his scowling face.“So you think you can talk to me anyhow you see fit??” He took a step closer as his scowl deepened, his grip firm on my arm. “I would have said worse if I had more time.” I sneered. I tried to release myself from his grip, but it was futile. “Let go of me!” I frowned at him as I let out a breath.“What did you do to get into his bed??” He practically spat out, his eyes wide in rage.“I’m not having this conversation with you.” I pressed my lips together, turning to the side in irritation.“Answer me!!” He yelled, his tone dark as he pulled me closer.“I owe you no explanation! You hear me??” I pulled back, my anger rising as I stared at him. “None.”“So the rumors were true after all?” He smirked bitterly suddenly, “-you did find at fuck your way into the company.”“Kevin!” I ex