Mag-log inGianna.
The sunlight slipped through the curtains, warm and irritating. My body felt heavy, like I’d run miles in my sleep. I groaned, rolling over, and immediately regretted it. My skin was hot—too hot. It wasn’t just warmth; it was a slow burn that crawled beneath my flesh.
Oh, no.
“Don’t tell me—” I whispered.
It’s starting, Rory purred, her voice smug in my head. Finally.
I buried my face in my pillow, trying to shove the sensation away. The heat period. It was supposed to be mild. It had always been mild before. But now… now there was him.
Ivan.
Every time I thought about him, my chest tightened and that strange pull got worse.
I pushed myself off the bed and stumbled toward the bathroom. A cold shower—that would help. It had to.
By the time I got out, my hair was dripping, but the fire under my skin still lingered. I threw on a white tank and loose shorts, hoping the air would cool me off, but as soon as I stepped out of my room, I smelled him.
Smoke. Cedar. Something darker.
I froze halfway down the stairs.
He was in the kitchen, shirtless again, just sweatpants hanging low on his hips. His hair was a mess, damp from a shower, and he looked… relaxed. Too relaxed.
“Morning, ginger,” he said without looking up, pouring himself a cup of coffee.
“Don’t call me that,” I muttered, walking past him to grab some water. My throat was dry—everything was dry.
He smirked. “ Someone had a rough night.”
I ignored him, focusing on the glass in my hand. But even that small act was hard when Rory was practically humming in my head.
He smells good, doesn’t he?
“Shut up,” I hissed under my breath.
Ivan raised a brow. “Excuse me?”
“Nothing.”
He leaned against the counter, watching me over the rim of his cup. The air felt thick. Heavy. I could feel his gaze on my skin like a physical touch.
He’s looking at you, Rory teased. And you love it.
I swallowed hard and looked anywhere but him. “Do you mind? Some people like breakfast without an audience.”
He chuckled, low and deep. “I’m just wondering how long you’ll keep pretending you don’t feel it.”
My heart stuttered. “Feel what?”
He tilted his head, that arrogant smile still on his lips. “You know what.”
I turned to leave, desperate for distance, but as I passed him, his hand brushed mine. Just a second—just skin on skin—but it was enough. A jolt ran through me, sharp and hot.
“Don’t touch me,” I said, stepping back.
“Didn’t plan to,” he replied, his tone teasing, but his eyes darkened like he’d felt it too.
I forced myself to walk away, ignoring Rory’s delighted laughter in my head.
This is going to be fun, she sang.
“No, it’s going to be hell,” I whispered.
But even as I said it, my heart betrayed me—because deep down, part of me already knew Rory was right.
Will I survive this?
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It was midnight. I couldn't sleep.
I tossed and turned, the sheets twisting around my legs. The air was cool, yet my skin burned. It wasn’t just warmth — it was restlessness, a fire that refused to die down. My pulse raced, my breathing shallow.
The heat period.
It had always been mild before — a whisper of discomfort, easily ignored. But now… now it was unbearable. Every inch ached, my wolf restless beneath my skin, and it didn’t help that he was just a few doors away.
Ivan.
Even thinking his name sent a rush through my veins. I sat up with a frustrated groan and crossed to the window, letting the night breeze brush my skin. It didn’t help. Nothing did. My body was alive with need I didn't understand — I didn't want to understand.
Uhhh I still felt hot. I took off my top and threw it on the bed and almost immediately the door shut open. I immediately turned to face the window. Fuck!!!!! Ivan just saw me bare chested.
“Didn't anyone teach you to knock before barging in?”
Silence. My chest rose and fell in uneven breaths as I felt his presence behind me. Directly behind me.
“You'll only be in pain if you resist,”he said, his fingers already brushing my thigh, and I did nothing to stop him.
“Ivan—”I said to warn him but it came out more of a plea.
And then, I felt his lips on my neck. It felt like electricity had sparked beneath her skin, each nerve alive and trembling. The air thickened, heavy with the scent of him, with the pull of something deeper — instinctive, magnetic.
I should have pushed him away, I hated him. Right? But then I tilted my head, giving him better access. Well done Gianna.
“even your body can't resist me gianna”he whispered, in my ear, giving my ear lobe a teasing bite,then continued kissing my neck.
I couldn't speak, every word I thought I wanted to say caught in my throat. My hands had already dropped, his hands now found a way to my b****T, he caught my n****e between his fingers playing with it, while I bit my lips, trying hard to not make any funny noises.
His right hand slid down to my waist band and then he turned me around.
My lips parted and then he covered my mouth with his, my hands went to his neck pulling him closer, I wanted all of him. I couldn't hold back.
He raised me up and I wrapped my leg around him as he took me to the bed and let me down softly, then he met my lips again. The kiss wasn't soft, or slow. It was rough, laced with desire and hunger.
His hands roamed my body, he caught my waist band again and took the shorts off, before I could blink he shifted my panties aside and then I felt his fingers inside me, that did it.
“ahh”I moaned, as his fingers curled inside of me. He added another, causing me to release another moan.
“fuck Gianna. I'm making you sound like this,”he said, increasing the pace of his fingers.
“this won't do ginger, I want you.” he said, removing his fingers.
We want him too. Rory said.
He looked at me as if asking for permission and I gave him.
His lips met mine again and then I felt his huge member inside me, tears filled my eyes as I tried to adjust to his side.
“This your first?”he said, almost sounded like he was concerned.
“mmhmm”I simply nodded.
“fuck. You should have told me, I'd have
slowed down a bit—”
“I'm okay”I said almost too quickly. I didn't want to talk, not right now. Talking wasn't what we were supposed to be doing.
“You sure?”
“yes”he thrust in slowly, meeting my lips again. While I moaned in between kisses, he increased his pace. He thrust in faster and harder, while my nails dug into his back.
Pleasure. That was all I was feeling now.
Ivan.The house felt… normal.That was the unsettling part.Nothing about it matched the weight sitting in my chest.Voices downstairs.Cutlery faintly clinking.Doors opening and closing like any other day.Like nothing had shifted.Like the world hadn’t quietly tilted under our feet.I stood by the window in my room, fingers resting against the frame, my gaze unfocused as it drifted past the compound walls.Cars moved.People lived.And yet—It had already begun.The seer’s voice didn’t echo.It didn’t need to.It stayed.Quiet. Certain.I exhaled slowly, dragging a hand down my face.Gianna.The image of her earlier slipped in without warning.The way she paused before answering.The slight tension behind her eyes.The way she said “I’m fine” like she needed it to be true.My jaw tightened.That wasn’t just stress.I knew stress.That wasn’t it.A knock sounded at my door.Firm. Familiar.“Come in.”The door opened, and Dad stepped in, closing it behind him.No hesitation.No small
Gianna.I didn’t know how to feel about going to school today.Not in the dramatic way, I hate school kind of way.Just… blank.Like my emotions showed up late and didn’t bother explaining themselves.I stood in front of the mirror longer than necessary, staring at my reflection like it might tell me something useful. My eyes looked the same. My face looked the same.But something underneath it all felt… off.Tired didn’t even cover it.It was deeper than that.Like my body had been running all night without me.I dragged a hand through my hair and exhaled slowly.“I don’t even care enough to care,” I muttered under my breath.I grabbed my bag anyway.Because life doesn’t pause just because you feel like you’re unraveling quietly.Ivan was already waiting downstairs.Of course he was.Leaning slightly against the car, phone in hand, but not really using it. The moment he heard my footsteps, his head lifted, eyes finding mine immediately.That small shift in his expression…It didn’t g
Gianna.The ride back felt longer than it should have.Not because of the distance.Because of everything sitting quietly between it.The moment we stepped out, mum was already there.Waiting.Like she hadn’t just been told something that could split everything open and leave nothing the same.Her eyes found mine immediately.And something in them softened… just a little too much.“Mum—”She didn’t let me finish.Her arms wrapped around me before I could even process it. Tight. Careful. Like she was trying not to break something fragile.Or maybe… like she thought I already was.I stood there for a second.Stiff. Unsure.Then slowly—I melted into it.My fingers curled lightly into the back of her shirt, gripping just enough to ground myself. She smelled the same. Warm. Familiar. Safe.And for a moment—everything else went quiet.She pulled back just enough to look at me, her hand coming up to cup my face, her thumb brushing lightly over my cheek like she needed to feel that I was st
Gianna.The seer didn’t look at him.Her eyes were still on me.“I know why you came.”A pause.Then—“It has already begun.”My brows pulled together before I could stop it.“What has?” I asked.Her head tilted slightly.Not confused.Not surprised.Just… interested.“You feel it,” she said.Not a question.A statement.My fingers twitched faintly at my sides.And right on cue—that pressure behind my eyes pulsed again.Sharp.Quick.Gone before I could fully react.I swallowed.“I don’t know what you’re talking about.”Her lips curved faintly.Not a smile.Something quieter.Something that made it feel like she knew exactly what I was trying not to say.“You will.”Silence settled again.Heavier now.Thicker.Like the room itself was listening.Ivan stepped forward slightly beside me.“We were told there’s a way to break it,” he said, his voice steady. Controlled.Her gaze finally shifted to him.Slow.Measured.“There is.”The words didn’t feel like relief.They didn’t open anythin
Gianna.The moment his lips left mine, the world didn’t rush back in the way I expected it to.It didn’t crash. Didn’t flood.It just… hovered.Like everything around me had paused mid-breath, waiting. Not for him. Not for anything outside of me.For me.Ivan’s hand was still at my waist, his thumb brushing lightly against the fabric of my shirt in slow, absent movements. Not impatient. Not demanding. Just… there. Like he needed that small contact to stay grounded.Or maybe that was me.I didn’t move.Because moving meant thinking.And thinking meant going back to it.Break the mate bond.The words didn’t hit like a punch. Not this time.They settled.Slow. Heavy. Unavoidable.My chest tightened, but it wasn’t sharp panic. It wasn’t that drowning feeling I was used to when things got too real.This was quieter.Deeper.Like something inside me had stopped reacting… and started listening instead.I stepped back slightly.Not away from him.Just enough to breathe.His hand slipped from
Gianna.The silence that followed my question felt heavier than the words that came before it.Ivan didn’t speak.Marcus didn’t either.And that… that was worse.Because silence only ever shows up when the truth is already too close to the surface.My pulse slowed in a strange way. Not calm. Just focused. Like my body was preparing for impact before my mind caught up.“I asked a question,” I said again, softer this time, but sharper underneath.Ivan shifted slightly.I noticed it immediately.That small movement he always made when he was trying to decide between honesty and protection.Marcus finally let out a breath.“Gianna—”“No,” I cut in quickly, my voice firmer now. “Don’t do that. Don’t start with my name like it’s supposed to calm me down.”Something flickered across Marcus’s face. Not anger. More like… understanding he didn’t want to have.Ivan stepped forward half a step.“Gia, it’s not what you think—”“That’s exactly what people say when it is what I think.”My chest tigh
Gianna.I stayed rooted in that spot for what felt like hours, each word she had thrown at me replaying in my head like a broken recording that refused to stop.What if she was right?The thought didn’t knock politely. It barged in.All of a sudden everything started overlapping in my head. Moments
Gianna.A few days later.I was lying on my bed, scrolling mindlessly through my phone, half reading posts, half thinking about nothing in particular, when a notification popped up.Alina.My thumb hovered for a second before I opened it.“Hey, let’s go out today. Watch a movie or something?”My ey
Gianna.By the time Alina had left, I felt a strange mix of relief and exhaustion. The school day had been long, but having Cassie and Rue around afterward helped me breathe again. We all left to grab something to eat, their teasing and laughter filling the air like a gentle distraction. I laughed
Gianna.Monday came faster than I wanted it to.The house already felt different when I woke up. Too quiet. No extra footsteps padding down the hallway. No unfamiliar scent clinging to the air. Alina had left early Sunday morning, her bags gone, the room extra tidy, like she’d erased herself on the







