BLUE PILLS

When I was young, I remember asking my mom about my dad, I wanted to know who he was, where he was from, and why he had left me. Why wasn't he interested in meeting me?

Growing up, I was so insecure because of that. In Highschool, I was the girl whose mother had rolled in sheets with almost all the teachers and whose dad abandoned her before she was even born. Sometimes I wondered why my mom didn't just get rid pf the pregnancy, because she never loved me. She never wanted me – I ruined her life afterall.

Mom made sure to remind me at every little chance she got. She was always good at rubbing it in my face how better her life would have been without me in it. She would have still been with her boyfriend – my dad. He would have never left her. She um, she would have finished highschool and I don't know, got a degree or something? A cool job?

She wanted to be a lawyer. I stole that from her. I shattered her dreams the moment the pregnancy test showed two re