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Zaria's POV
It was supposed to be my engagement party today. I'd stayed up all night getting my dress ready. Mother was elated that I was finally getting married to the man of my dreams but what did I wake up to?
A freaking video of myself in the most ugly form and guess who'd posted it just to spite me and completely dent my image?
My very own fiancé Callum.
I stared at my phone as it kept buzzing due to the thousands of notifications pouring in trying to make sense of what I kept seeing.
"I always knew she wasn't meant for Callum." A lady had said with an emoji that was throwing up.
My hands trembled as I replayed the video. It was a private video Callum and I had made and he promised me he'd never post it.
"She's ugly and I always wondered why Callum had stuck to a low class bitch like her."
"Lmaooo she really thought she was the one."
I sat up in bed and read every single one because apparently I was a masochist. The video was from two years ago — me, at a house party, drunk and dancing badly. He'd made me give him a strip tease.
“Twerk for me baby,” Callum had said trying to pull down my skirt but though I was drunk, I still kept it on.
Callum had found it, downloaded it, added a caption that I couldn't even finish reading, and posted it to his seventy thousand followers at two in the morning.
While I was asleep in his bed and in his apartment. I put the phone face down on the nightstand and sat there for a moment just breathing.
I picked the phone back up and looked at the notifications again, tears blurring my sight.
Then I heard the front door and I leapt out of bed. Maybe his account had been hacked, so I wiped my face clean. Callum would never do anything like this, right?
Callum was in the doorway.
“Callum,” I called. “I saw…..” I froze mid sentence. Callum wasn't alone, Ashley Milan was beside him and she had her hand wrapped around his.
It felt like I'd been struck on the head with a sledge hammer and I felt my stomach churn.
No….no…. I shook my head. This can't be happening to me. It's all a dream and I'll wake up to Callum’s kisses very soon.
"Zaria." Callum said my name the way you say the name of a problem you've been putting off dealing with.
I looked at Ashley. She looked back at me with a smug smile and she leaned her head against his arm.
"How long?” My entire being trembled. The tears were already flowing. “How long has this been going on Callum?” My voice quivered.
"That's not—"
"How long, Callum?"
He let go of Ashley's hand to cross his arms, which was a thing he did when he was repositioning. "This isn't about her. This is about the fact that you and I have not been working for a very long time and you've been too comfortable to see it."
"You posted a video of me." I yelled. “That was a video that was supposed to stay between us!”
"I posted the truth." His voice was so calm it made my skin crawl. "You've been walking around here acting like you belong in spaces you don't belong in, Zaria. Like that ring meant more than it did."
Ashley made a small sound beside him.
"It was a promise ring," he continued. "It was never an engagement. I never called it that."
"You called it that." My voice was embarrassing me, going thin at the edges. "You called it that at dinner, in front of your parents—"
"I was being kind." He tilted his head slightly. "You wanted it to be more than it was so I let you have that. That's not my fault."
I stared at him.
Four years and I was looking at a stranger. A calm, unbothered stranger who had let me build an entire life on something he'd apparently decided was temporary and had not once thought to tell me.
"You need to get your things out today," he said. "The new lease starts tomorrow."
Ashley was looking at her nails. “And make sure you don't take anything my baby bought for you.”
“Yes,” Callum agreed. “But you can keep the filthy ring.”
“What did I ever do to you?” I sniffed. “If I did anything wrong, you could have told me Callum.”
“There it is,” he laughed. “That desperation to get tied to a man. For Christ sake Zaria, I don't want you. Stop forcing yourself on me.”
His words felt like a slap across my cheek. Me? Forced him? He was the one who came up to me at the library back in college and told me he liked me.
How could it be that I was the one who forced him?
“Just leave my house.” He shoved me and I caught hold of the wall before I fell. Ashley hissed and walked inside with Callum following her.
I pushed off the wall and went back into the bedroom and I packed. I didn't cry. I moved through the room, opened drawers, pulled things off hangers, filled two suitcases and a duffel and didn't stop moving because the second I stopped moving it was going to hit me and I couldn't let it hit me in front of them.
They were in the kitchen when I came out with the bags. I could hear him talking, low, and her laughing at something, the sound of the fridge opening, two people making themselves at home.
I left without saying anything and as soon as I stepped into the porch, the door opened and Callum came out alone.
Callum came out alone. He stopped a few feet away and looked at me with disgust.
"Don't be dramatic about this," he smiled. “You asked for it anyway.”
I didn't say anything.
"You knew what this was. You're smart enough to have known." He pushed his hands into his pockets. "You moved in with a man who hadn't married you. You took up the position of a wife without the title, without the ring, without any of it — and that was your choice, Zaria. I gave you a promise ring. That's all it ever was."
The cold was getting into my jacket.
"No man is going to want you after this," he said, almost gently. Almost like he was doing me a favor. "You gave everything to someone who didn't ask for it. That's not something you come back from easily."
He went back inside and the door clicked shut.
I stood there on the empty street with my suitcases and I finally, finally let myself cry.
Four years. I had loved this man for four years, had moved into this apartment eighteen months ago when he said it made sense, when he said we were building something, when he slid a ring onto my finger at dinner and called it a promise and I had believed him.
How could I have been so foolish?
Nikolai's povForcing my head to think straight and properly after that night was terrible. First, I thought I had to keep my mind blank from any thoughts that would lead to Zaria but it only got worse when I thought it was working, only for people to ask me about her.Especially Coach.The question first came out like he didn't care until it landed on a spot that I wasn't expecting at all and I felt triggered instantly.“Niko!” He slapped her hand on my back, it was enough to shake my thoughts to a rough start instantly. “How's our little superstar?” I laughed nervously, straightening myself and trying to keep a healthy distance between me and him. “Doing what's best, if that's what you were hoping to hear from me.” There was a brief delay in his face before he let out a maniac laugh that didn't land so well with me. “Right, right. Ready to get this game right? We have some…” He pointed to some guys dressed in suits behind us. “Some professionals who'd like to interview you about y
Zaria's pov The first ray of light that had hit me was the type that had you spinning and rolling from your bed down to the bathroom floor, throwing up like crazy.Out of my mouth came out every taste of wine I had drowned the previous night, a nauseous feeling sat in my stomach and what followed next was rumbling.I was hungry.I forced myself up to my feet as I bent my face over the sink and watched my face and mouth clean, then I took a long shower. When I got out, my dress was sitting on a chair and my heels were already in their stations.I scratched my head, trying to remember how I was able to take them off. “I mean, I didn't sleep with them on, so how did they come off?” I changed into another cloth and made my way to the living to find Nikolai stirring eggs in the kitchen shirtless. I had stared for more than enough time that he caught me right in the act.“Staring now? Come on, there's no shame in admitting it.” He teased, waving the spatula in my face. I waved him off, p
NikolaiWatching Zaria ace the interview was something. I would've taken pride in the fact that it was our fake religion that made her get it, but when she shoved that email in my face, I saw more than someone who was just qualified.She really was overqualified for the job and still deserved it more than anyone else and I saw the reason why.I stood by the table, watching her and Valeria talk like they had known each other for a really long time. It was adorable and I had to admit, I was a little jealous, just a little bit.After she was done, she came to meet me by the entrance. Her smile from earlier had grown wider this time.“Someone's all smiley and happy about her new job.” I teased, nudging her. “At least you'll be leaving me some peace in the house.” I added that last part to see the look on her and it was definitely worth it.She rolled her eyes at me. “Oh please, you say it like you don't make the most noise whenever you get the chance to.” From the entrance, she led me bac
Zaria's pov What Nikolai didn't tell me was at the party, I was going to be made to greet everyone else there. Everyone who had a hand in the government or whatever they were really into.I didn't think it was going to be more than greasing cheeks together and flashing fake smiles all over the place at this point. Nikolai tangled my arm with his as he smiled his way through the crowd. Seeing the old ladies easily getting swooned by him made my skin itch. Who even thinks the jerk was worth it? “Hey, keep a smiling face for the invisible camera…” He whispered as he gritted his teeth together, keeping a fake smile that could still be mistaken as charming.I tried smiling, it worked until my cheeks began to hurt and I couldn't hold them in anymore. “I can't believe you brought me here to keep my cheeks standing for a couple of old money folks who care about nothing but getting pleased by you.” My arm was starting to ache but Nikolai won't let me take it down.He led me to a corner tha
Zaria’s povJust as he had promised, Nikolai had a dress set and ready for me. It was the type that you'd put on and try resisting going on a runway with it. Nikolai made absolutely sure of that.I watched him drop the box on the couch as he waited for me to fully recognize what it was. “Nikolai?” I stretched as I got examined the dress, resisting the urge to tear a scream through my lungs when I lifted it out of the box. “I didn't ask you to get me a million-dollar dress. Look at this!” I gasped.The glitter shimmered on both sides of the burgundy dress, I could literally hear it sing in my ear. How on earth was this man able to get exactly what I wanted.He smirked, rubbing his palms in a style that seemed shady but amusing. “Told you I was going to get something to wow the media. Plus, I need you to step out in style, if they are going to talk about something, it needs to be glamorous. See what I did there, huh?”I let out a huff, ignoring his cheeky smile. “Yeah, I did. So when i
CALLUM'S POVI sat back against the headboard, staring blankly at the wall.“What the hell?” I whispered under my breath in genuine confusion.But even though she wasn't fully right…I had found myself thinking about Zaria a few times over the week.Nothing deep, just random thoughts here and there…wondering what she was up to.And yes, I'd convinced myself it had nothing to do with her new relationship…even though my thoughts about her business had started in earnest after I saw their picture while doomscrolling at work.For four years, I had convinced myself that Zaria was too small for me, too needy and ordinary, too comfortable. I told myself that picking Ashley, someone with the right pedigree, the right connections, the right tax bracket, was just smart math. It was an upgrade. She was savvier, cooler…sexier.But now, I wasn't so sure. And Ashley's nagging tonight wasn't helping.Actually, she was kind of exhausting. Everything with her was a performance, a transaction, a status







