LOGINAVAāS POV
HEARTBREAK
What do you do when you discover your entire relationship has been one big lie? That the man who has spent two years telling you he loves you has been screwing your best friend-the same best friend who shares your apartment, borrows your clothes, steals your fries, and tells you everything including every boy in her DMs.
Well, you definitely don't handle it the way I do. You don't plaster a fake smile across your face, walk back into the club, and pretend your heart isn't lying in pieces out in the parking lot. You don't keep their secret for them. You don't let them think they got away with it. And you certainly don't start drowning yourself in whiskey when you hate whiskey with every fiber of your being.
Yet here I am, several shots in and my head feels pleasantly fuzzy while my legs aren't entirely cooperating, and tomorrow's hangover is going to feel like divine punishment. But I don't care. Maybe if I drink enough, the ache in my chest will finally disappear.
"Damn, baby girl, " Rodney's voice makes my stomach twist. He chuckles softly as he steadies me when I nearly stumble into him.
"I know it's your birthday," he murmurs, leaning close enough that I can smell his cologne-that stupid, hypnotizing cologne I've spent the last two years getting addicted to, "But I doubt passing out in the middle of the club was on your birthday bucket list."
His hand settles around my waist and instead of turning me on, his touch makes my skin crawl, "You don't want your brother killing me, do you?"
The irony is almost laughable. If Alfred knew what his teammate had been doing behind my back, Rodney would be lucky if all my brother did was kill him. I open my mouth, ready to say something curt to wipe that smile off his face forever. Before I can, someone hooks an arm around mine.
"Come on," Jill chirps brightly, "It's your birthday," she says with an innocent smile that makes me want to scream. "You should be dancing."
The snake. The lying, backstabbing snake. I force the corners of my mouth upward into a smile, "You're so fucking right."
Emma and Leon quickly join us on the dance floor, blissfully unaware that my entire life has imploded within the last ten minutes. The music pounds through the club while our bodies dance to the beat of the songs booming in the confines of this place. I dance with enthusiasm. Or at least I pretend to. Because while my body sways to the beat, my mind is somewhere else entirely.
When did it start? How long have they been sleeping together? Weeks? Months? Did they laugh about me afterward? How many times did Rodney kiss me after kissing her? How many nights did he tell me he loved me while she'd already been in his bed? How many times did Jill hug me and call me her best friend? Sleep in the room next to mine knowing she was betraying me every single day?
The questions keep coming and each one hurts more than the last. I steal a glance at Rodney. He's laughing with a couple of his teammates, looking completely relaxed. Then for the briefest second, his eyes drift toward Jill. Itās not long enough for anyone else to notice. She looks back at him, and throws him a quick, tiny smile. Itās enough to confirm everything.
My gaze lingers on her longer than necessary. What does she have that I don't? Is she prettier? Funnier? Smarter? More exciting? Was I never enough?
No.
Absolutely not. Why the hell am I questioning myself? I'm not the one who cheated or lied. I'm not the one sneaking around behind someone's back. He's the asshole and she's the snake. So why am I the one standing here feeling like I'm the one who did something wrong?
No.I'm not letting him- them win. Not on my birthday. I need to do something. Something they'll never forget. Something no one in here will forget.
"Hey..." Leon's voice cuts through my spiraling thoughts, "You okay?"
"I'm fine." The lie slips out easily. Hell, I even manage a smile.
"If you say so." I can tell he doesn't believe me.
I can tell. But instead of arguing, he simply moves a little closer while we dance, like he's quietly making sure I don't fall over. For a while, that's all we do. Dance. Drink. Well, I drink. A lot. At some point people start handing me tiny colorful birthday shots and I donāt even bother asking them what is on them. If it's alcoholic, it disappears in my mouth. The burning in my throat is nothing compared to the one spreading through my chest.
Halfway through what I think is tequila, though honestly it could be gasoline at this point I lean toward Leon, "Can I ask you something?"
"Sure."
"I want to blow shit up."
"Metaphorically?" He raises an eyebrow. Iām surprised I can decipher that move in my state.
"I honestly don't know anymore."
He laughs once before realizing I'm completely serious. I lean in even closer, "And don't interrupt until I'm finished."
"Okay..."
"If someone wanted to do something so unbelievably public... so outrageously petty... that it'd haunt someone for the rest of their college career..." I whisper, "...what would they do?"
Leon goes quiet, then he sighs, "Sweetheart..."
"Hmm?"
"I know."
My brow furrows, "You know what?"
"I followed you outside." I think I stop breathing for a moment at his words, "You were gone for a while. I got worried."
His voice softens, "I saw them too,"
I stare at him, "You... did?"
He nods once, "I thought you were going to confront them."
"So did I."
"You want to hurt Rodney?" Leon asks.
I don't even hesitate, "Yes."
"Then don't punch him."
"I wasn't planning to."
"Don't scream at him either."
"I wasn't planning that."
"Good."
He takes my empty shot glass and sets it on the nearest table, "Tell me..." His eyes flick toward Rodney, "Who do you think Rodney hates most in this entire university?"
I don't even have to think, "Chase."
"Exactly."
I frown, "What does that have to do with anything?"
"Everything."
Leon smiles-a slow, mischievous smile that instantly makes me nervous. There is a reason why he is the king of bad decisions.
"You know why Rodney can never stand Chase?" He gestures toward the opposite side of the club, "There he is."
I follow his gaze and it lands on Chase. He's currently trying and failing rather spectacularly to dodge the relentless advances of a cheerleader rumored to have hooked up with him sometime last semester. She keeps touching his arm while he looks like he'd rather be anywhere else. Nearby, my brother Alfred is sitting in one of the booths with a girl perched comfortably on his lap.
Typical.
Leon continues.
"Rodney hates Chase because he'll never be Chase Rivers."
I snort, "That's dramatic."
"Is it?"
He starts counting on his fingers, "Stinking rich family, much richer than anything Rodneyās family will ever be? Check,."
I nod reluctantly.
"Captain of the hockey team? Check"
Another nod.
"Top of the class despite barely looking like he studies? Check,"
"...Unfortunately." Itās quite unfair honestly.
"Campus heartthrob? Check,"
"Don't inflate his ego."
"And," Leon finishes, lowering his voice, "he's probably the only person with enough influence to ruin Rodney's spotless reputation."
I look between them. Rodney. Chase.Then back again. A slow, dangerous thought begins forming in the alcohol-soaked corners of my mind.
Leon watches my expression change.
"Oh no," he mutters.
"Oh yes," I whisper, unable to stop the tiny smile spreading across my face.
Whatever I was about to do, it was going to be spectacularly stupid and I know Rodney deserves every fucking bit of it.
We kissed hard, then remembered ourselves and kissed softer. He guided me back until my legs hit the bed, and we fell in a heap, laughing without sound.āQuiet,ā I said.āI know.āāLeon, if heāāHey.ā He put a finger on my lips. āIāve got you.āI believed him. That was the dangerous part.Iāll keep most of that night to myself. I remember small things. His hands trembled on my buttons, and I loved that, because it meant it still mattered to him. I remember him pulling the blanket over our heads like a tent. I remember pressing my face into his shoulder so I wouldnāt make a noise, and the way he held on like he was afraid Iād vanish.Afterward we lay still, our hearts racing, listening to the house.āThat wasā I began.A door clicked down the hall.We both turned to stone. Footsteps padded across the floor outside. The bathroom door shut. Water ran.Chase.Leon wrapped his arm around me, hard. Neither of us breathed. The toilet flushed. The footsteps went back. A door closed.We counte
“We should go back,” she murmured into my shoulder.“Kira, there’s something I need to...”“Tomorrow.” She kissed my jaw. “Whatever it is, it can wait until tomorrow. Tonight you’re mine.”I let her have it. It was the first lie I’d ever told her. It was only a delay, and I was ashamed of it anyway.We dressed by the dying fire. When I picked up the key from the table, I found a folded note underneath it that I’d missed earlier. I opened it with my back to Kira.Took you boys long enough. Lock up when you leave. And Leon, you can’t outrun the truth. She knows.Kira read it over my
Kira hadn’t let go of my hand since we left her shop. I wasn’t going to be the one to do it.The town thinned out behind us. Ten minutes later there were only black trees and the low hum of the heater. I kept my eyes on the road because if I looked at her, I’d pull over and never get to where I was going.“You still haven’t told me where we’re headed,” she said. She sounded almost shy, which wasn’t like her.“Somewhere with a door that locks.”“My shop has a door that locks.”“Your shop has a front window and a nosy neighbor.” I turned my thumb over her knuckles. “I’m done grabbing ten minutes with you behind buildings, Kira. I wan
He kissed me again, and this time he was hungry. His hands slid down my sides, and I pulled him closer. His fingers caught the hem of my sweater, and I leaned into him.Outside, a car door slammed.We flew apart. My lips tingled. His hair was wild from my hands."I should go," he said. "Before someone recognizes the truck.""Probably."Neither of us moved. We stayed there, caught in each other's space, waiting for the other one to leave first."Thank you," he said, quieter now. "For being brave enough to say it.""Thank you for being worth it."He kissed me one last time, fast and hard, and slipped out the back.I stood alone in my empty shop, heart racing, mouth still warm from his.I had done it. I had reached for something instead of sitting there hoping to be picked. Whatever came next, whatever pain was waiting down the road, in that moment I felt proud.No more shrinking. No more crumbs. No more asking for permission to want things.My name is Kira Rivers. I run my own business.
But I hadn't. Not like this. Sending it meant saying, out loud, I want something. It meant risking the exact kind of pain I had spent years dodging.He risked his career, I told myself. I can risk my pride.Which brings me back to the send button.Are you awake? I typed.I pressed it.Three dots popped up. Disappeared. Came back. Then: Yes.One word, and I read an entire speech in it. His hesi
Leon POVChase had one rule for me: stay away from his sister. By nine that morning, I had already broken it twice in my head.Chloe's singing woke me. My shoulder ached, but Kira was the bigger problem. Last night I held her face and nearly kissed her. I told myself it was a mistake. My body disagreed.The kitchen was a mess of noise. Marcus burned pancakes. Ava argued with Chase over who got the last of the coffee. Kira sat in the middle of it wrapping presents, glasses slipping down her nose. She saw me and looked away fast, but not before her ears went red.I took the seat farthest from her. Our knees found each other under the table anyway."Did you two sleep?" Chase asked."Yes," she said."No," I said.Ava choked on her coffee. Chase put his fork down. "Okay. What's going on?""Nothing," we said together. Worst lie of my life.Then Chloe climbed into my lap with a picture book. "Uncle Leon, read." I could have hugged her. I took her to the couch, and she was asleep before the s







