“Ashina!”
The voice struck through my skull like lightning. I jerked back from Maya, with my heart slamming into my ribs as if trying to break free from my chest. My breath caught halfway at the aggression behind the growling at the door.
Nothing about whoever was there meant something good.
I didn’t even want to think about who it could possibly be, not when Maya slumped sideways with a groan, her eyelids fluttering. She was barely conscious now, and her body was twitching as if every nerve inside her had gone rogue.
“What the hell…” I whispered, taking a shaky step back as my heart beat spiked up.
Maya’s face twisted, contorting with pain. Her goody, drunken smile from earlier vanished and was replaced with something painful and almost terrified. Her brows pinched, and she clutched her stomach like it was tearing her apart from the inside out.
“Maya?” I rasped, clenching and unclenching my fists as panic bubbled to the surface. The familiar urge to fix things, to make it stop, rose like a bile. “Come on, stay with me.”
There was another knock that was louder and more urgent, making me jump out of my skin as I turned towards the door.
Can you just stop?!
“Ashhh, I don’t feel so good…” Maya groaned, her voice shaky and fragile.
The knocking behind me turned violent.
“Ashina Kai,” the voice behind the door growled my name with as much of venom as they could possibly muster. “Open this door, or so help me God.”
I rushed to the door and looked through the peephole.
Shit.
My boss. Dr. Cavanaugh.
No way. Not after the disaster at the restaurant. I was pretty sure Mr. Cormac had somehow contacted him, and now, he was raining down my door like that was going to happen.
And definitely not now, with Maya writhing on my floor and whatever the hell was happening to her.
More voices filtered through the door from outside.
“What the hell is going on?”
“Some of us actually like sleeping, you maniac!”
“Do you want me to call the cops?!”
“Oh fuck of! This bitch just cost me millions!”
Maya let out a sharp scream that made my blood freeze.
I turned, and what I saw knocked the breath clean out of my lungs.
What the…
Maya’s eyes weren’t brown anymore; and they shimmered with a liquid silver that was streaked with amber. The markings of a werewolf.
My knees went weak beneath me.
“No…” I whispered. “No, no, no…”
My brain sputtered, overloaded with trying to understand, process, or fix anything at all. The rational part of me, the scientist, was breaking beneath the weight of the raw panic that threatened to swallow me whole.
Maya’s skin shimmered with sweat, and her body convulsed again, jerking like a puppet caught in an invisible war.
“Maya!” I lunged for her, catching her just in time before her body hit the floor. I winced as her skin burned against mine. It was like holding onto a live wire.
I groaned as her weight collapsed onto me.
She was so heavy. Too heavy.
Heavier than a normal drunk human should be.
I didn’t have my full strength, thanks to the suppressants. And thanks to that, I was paying the price for trying to stay human.
I gritted my teeth and dragged her towards my room, even as my legs buckled and hands shook under the strain of her weight.
I half-lifted and half-dragged Maya down the narrow hallway in our apartment.
Her arm slammed into the wall with a sickening thud, and she cried out, sobbing in pain
“I’m sorry—I’m sorry—just hold on. Please,” I gasped, trying to adjust my grip.
The door still thundered behind me, rattling on its hinges like it might give way, the sound blurring with the pounding in my ears.
Once I successfully got Maya in the room, I didn’t even stop to think. I sprinted to my lab, typing the code into the panel that hid it. The door slid open to reveal a cool white light bathing the cramped space.
My hands flew across the shelves until I found the portable blood test kit and clutched it tightly before running back to my room, barely registering the ache in my lungs as I dropped the kits beside Maya.
I needed answers before I lost my freaking mind. I needed control because none of this made any sense.
Growing up surrounded by werewolves and knowing our biology inside and out did nothing to prepare me for what was happening to Maya. There was never an incident of a wolf turning a human into a werewolf that I’d ever heard of or come in contact with.
And yet there I was.
I rushed to my closet, flung it open, and yanked down a heavy metal case that held the wolf chains I had gotten for myself. Just in case the wolf suppressants failed for whatever reason and my wolf broke loose. But that had never happened, and I’d never had to use them.
Until now.
I dropped the box beside Maya again, who was thrashing, and moaning with her skin shimmering with sweat.
My blood ran cold again as I saw black veins crawling from the point of the bite.
I tried to take deep breaths to calm myself down. One thing at a time, right?
“It hurts, Ash…” Maya whimpered, her voice slurring. It was so full of pain, it made my chest ache. “Why does it hurt so bad?”
“I don’t know,” I whispered, the words catching in my throat. “I don’t know what’s happening to you. But I swear, Maya, I’m going to figure it out. I’m not leaving you.”
Her lip trembled. “Make it stop,” she grunted. “Please. Please, I—I didn’t mean to—he said it was just a mark—”
He?
I blinked, but there was no time to unpack that. My fingers worked on autopilot, clicking the restraints around her wrists. My hands trembled as I secured them to the bedframe.
I swallowed down my sob and secured the last of the chain in place.
“I’m sorry,” I choked, not even sure if I was saying it to her or myself.
Maya screamed again, this time with a force that felt like it might tear her apart. The veins around the bite had turned blacker. And it was spreading, crawling higher, faster, down her neck, toward her heart.
“Maya?” I reached out, my voice shaking.
She turned.
Her eyes gleamed, amber glowing like twin flames. Her teeth had lengthened. Her fingers curled into claws.
“Ash!” she screamed before letting out a feral and wild growl, and her fingers curled like claws as she stared at me, eyes glowing amber.
She thrashed violently against the chains.
“Maya, you need to calm down!”
With a snarl, she thrashed violently, and the first chain snapped.
“No—no—Maya—fight it!”
But she didn’t hear me anymore.
“Maya!” I croaked, backing away.
Another scream tore from her lips, feral and wild, and the final chain burst free.
Chains dangled from her wrist as she bared her teeth and launched at me.
I barely had the time to scream.
“No!” I screamed at the sight of Maya as a wolf, my heart shattering into a million pieces. “Maya!”A strong arm caught me mid-step, locking around my waist and yanking me against a broad, solid chest. Kael. His grip was strong, but I thrashed against him, my teeth bared in a half-shifted snarl, as panic swirled through me.“Let me go, Kael! Let me go!” My voice cracked, but I didn’t care. I needed to get to her.Heavy boots pounded behind us, Kael’s guards fanning out in a perimeter. Their guns were already raised, barrels pointed directly at the trembling wolf. My chest constricted as Maya’s hazel eyes scanned the threat around her, confused, terrified, on the edge of snapping.“No!” I screamed, my voice sharp with fury. “Put your weapons down! Now! Do not fire!”Her lips curled back over her teeth, a growl building in her throat. One wrong move and she would attack. Or
My instructions grew more frantic as I realized I might have been taking us in circles.I let out a strangled scream at yet another dead end as I slammed my hand against the dashboard with tears spilling out of my eyes.“I can’t remember!” I cried out. “Why can’t I remember?! Maya!”Kael swerved to the side of the road and parked. His hand immediately wrapped around my wrist, stopping me from striking the dash again.“Hey. Ash, look at me!”My eyes darted to him again.“That. It’s not helping, okay? You need to breathe and think rationally. Was there ever a time you went and weren’t blindfolded?”“Yes, the first time,” I heaved, breathing in and out. “I drove there. Veyra gave me encrypted coordinates.”Kael nodded, already dialing someone. “We can get my tech guys to trace that. Do I have your permission?”
My chair screeched across the floor as I stood so abruptly it nearly toppled backward. My heart was thundering, and my fingers trembled wildly as I reached for my bag, needing to confirm that the information was wrong. I could barely grip the zipper because everything blurred into one another.All I could hear was my heart's fast beating. Even Kael’s low voice, trying to break through my panic, was just noise.I snatched my phone out with my numb fingers and dialed Veyra’s number. One ring. Two. It was greeted with the beeping tone of her voicemail.No, no, no.My hands moved faster as I redialed. There was still nothing. My thumb slammed on the screen of my phone repeatedly as fear tightened its grip around me.“Stop!”The phone was yanked from my grip.I snarled as I spun around. “What the hell do you think—”Kael.His hand was raised, holding the phone just out of my reach. &l
I could barely breathe.The weight of everything Kael has said clung to me like chains. My mind reeled, spinning with everything. His bloodline was cursed?! And I didn’t even suspect a thing about how he must have been so bothered about it.It was a lot. For him and for myself.Because what was that about him being handed a mission while still bleeding from the wreckage of everything he thought he held dear? A mission to end The Order?I hadn’t expected to feel sympathy when I came here today, but there was something so painfully human about his story that made my throat tighten with unspeakable emotions.Not to undermine the torment I went through when I had to pick myself back up, but it seemed like while I was flailing in darkness, Kael had been clawing is way through it, in order to be able to do something right at least.Kael’s voice cut softly through my thoughts. “They weren’t exactly called the Order bac
“Ask,” I prompted her. “Ask whatever you want to know.”She straightened, and her eyes sharpened. “I want to know everything, from the beginning. If there’s any chance we work together, I need to know what’s real and what isn’t.”I nodded, tensing slightly. I’d known this was coming. Still, it didn’t make it easier.Ashina exhaled, most likely noting the way I’d tensed up. “Back to this? You used to be better at sharing.”“With you,” I said quietly. “Only you.” I didn’t say the rest; that losing her had stripped that ability from me.Her eyes softened, just a touch, as if she didn’t need me to say it because she already knew that.“Why did you reject me before you died?” she asked. “You said you were saving me. From what?”I drew in a slow breath. My fingers tightened slightly on the edge of t
As I entered the lobby, past the empty reception desk, the memory of the last time I’d walked in here snagged at the edge of my senses. I’d strode in with determination to clear my meeting and had stopped short at the familiar scent I’d caught a whiff of. For the first heartbeat that followed, I thought my mind was playing tricks on me.After the news that she had died, I’d caught her scent at unsuspecting places. But that was at the beginning when the grief was the hardest. None of it had been recent, so catching that same one that I knew was unmistakably hers was like a cruel twist of fate. And so I couldn’t help myself as I paused and turned in the direction from which it was coming, following it like a possessed man.I ignored the surprised calls for my attention from Dawn and Tyro. And the moment my eyes landed on her, my heart had nearly stopped. This person who looked so much like Ashina was just a few feet from me and was very much