SELENEIt is amazing how busy you can make yourself when you don't want to think about an issue. Thankfully Pen had given birth to a little boy, she now had two of each. Hopefully that would be the end of Juliens demands on her body. I quickly organised a package of toys for the other children, a big online card from myself and Troy. All filled with the joy for a birth that I knew deep down Pen didn’t want to happen in the first place. Celebrating the birth of an innocent that was forced upon the mother. The thought stuck in my throat as I entered my payment details for the pretend plastic joy I was posting her way. Avoiding thinking about the threat of Jimmy, Marie and Pen's shitty lives back home was exhausting. Above all, Rocco. My dreams were torturous, always ending up naked on those stairs, begging him to do whatever he wanted. My dreams always seemed to end in his dark eyes, glittering in the gloom overwhelming me once more.I also dreamt about the
ROCCOIf I wasn’t confused before I certainly am now.“So she realises it’s me and says “oh”, all breathy and sweet, then hangs up? What’s going on with that?”“Honestly man, if she’d have wanted to talk to you, she would have, it’s been two days you’ve got to move on,” Callum answered, not for the first time as he lugged crates of spirits in for the Friday night rabble. A big bachelor party in tonight, all three of us working to make sure it goes smoothly.Jacob is sorting out the dealers’ tables from across the other side of the room. We haven’t talked about anything serious since I slid over Troy’s number to him. He took it, shoving it into his pocket as though it was on fire. I’m guessing Callum has no idea but then he has got himself a girlfriend.Pauline, the dealer who I took the jacket off, has been caught under his spell. Hey, I told you I never slept with the staff. I can’t account for my partner's tastes. Pauline is a sassy brunette with bright ey
SELENEOf course, the only proper way to top off a weird, shitty week would be to bump into Rocco outside the restaurant. Troy and I still weren’t speaking. Like an alley cat he could choose to vanish when he wanted, he had a lot of friends, and I knew he was punishing me for going out with Greg.Like I told him at the time, and all the times before, he’s a sensible, safe choice. I’m not risking my heart, but I get some laughs, some company, maybe some good sex, is that not enough? Troy needs to stop thinking everything is a fairy tale. Following the path towards mates and destiny doesn’t mean happiness. You need to make your own happy place. Why not give Greg a chance?Sadly there was no bouncy gay stylist working for me as I got ready, no giggles or sneaky glasses of wine to loosen up. I solemnly dressed and went for a relatively boring black cocktail dress and heels. If it wasn’t for the slit up the thigh, it would have been workwear really.I almost felt num
SELENEAn eternity seemed to pass whilst I stood with my back to him, staring at him through the reflection of the mirror."What are you doing here?" I finally ask, in a voice I hardly recognised as my own. He took two steps so that he was directly behind me, still watching each other through the brightly lit mirror. His face was so serious, brooding and unreadable. Nothing like the vibrant, smiling Rocco who had fixed my hair outside the town hall. His wolfish, predatory side was out to play and it was hot as hell."I was wondering if your date is going well," he replied steadily, not taking his eyes from mine. It feels as though I am under a microscope, every bit of me under examination. Arousal pounds through to my panties. I can't stop it, even if I tried, he is only inches from my body and yet I want more. My hands press into the cold marble basin, to keep them secured."It is thank you,"After a beat too long, the crackle between is making my hair
1 WEEK LATER - FULL MOONROCCOWell the ball is very much in her court now. And she’s being cold as ice.I make another move and I’m desperate and needy. It’s been a week and nothing, so I guess I need to shut the fuck up and get on. She clearly has. Maybe Greg is what she wants. Arrogant bastard.So tonight. Tonight I am going to move on and make something happen with one of the women who comes in here tonight. It’s a Saturday, it’s a full moon. Crazy things always happen on a full moon.Jacob asked for the night off for a change, I am guessing he is heading to meet Troy, not that he said a thing, but it means I get Callum. we knock about nicely together.My beautiful red-carpeted, dark wooden wonderland. I place my hands on the bar and survey our little empire. So we’re technically millionaires now, it’s a fact that only makes me realise I want to spend that money on somebody other than myself. What do I desire? I have the suits, the apartment and ever
SELENEAfter the failed date with Greg, I text Troy the next day telling him I had some Rocco news. By the time I got back from grocery shopping an hour later he was already back at our apartment. The rogue alley cat had returned, helping himself to my food, drinks, and cosy blanket as we sat on the sofa, sinking into its billowing cushions like children.As I told him about the date and how Greg was bragging about his watch and possession’s he’d rolled his eyes and yawned. As soon as I mentioned Rocco appearing he started clapping and going, “tell me he grabbed you there and then, that’s the shit I’m needing to hear!” as the sofa juddered with his large, bouncing frame.“No it was just a hello and goodbye, but during the meal…Greg had to take a work call and so I headed to the powder room…Rocco followed me in.”“No! Oh no I cannot take this Selene you filthy minx!”And so it went on until I reached the, well, climax of the story. Troy mocked me with pretend
SELENEI clattered loudly into the hospital reception, a ragged whirlwind of handbag, coat, and suitcase. The hotel had arranged a cab whilst I quickly dressed and rammed everything I had back into the case. The drive should have taken over two hours, but I promised to pay double if he broke the speed limit. Charging down the empty roads, lit only by his headlamps I fought back waves of anger and fear like a cruising battleship.My wolf had switched from being a lazy, horny little creature. Now she was alert, tense and ready to fight any danger. I had never felt my wolf senses kick in so strongly before, it sent a thrill through me, reminding me I am not human, I am different. Every scent is sharper than before, seeing shapes further in the dark than any human could, as my wolf tried to seek out the injured Pen.I quietly approached Pen’s allocated room, abandoning my suitcase in the canteen. One of the reasons I sped here so fast was to avoid bumping into anyone el
ROCCOTonight has been a never ending series of catastrophes. I am not exaggerating for your sympathy this time. Pull up a chair and listen to this sordid tale of woe.After leaving the wide-eyed Brianna and steelt Callum I sprinted as fast as I could ten blocks to Jacobs apartment. We all live close to the Falcon, Jacob had a studio in this Art Deco style block. Funky angled windows, shards of metal decorating. I used to call him Gatsby for a while after he first moved in to annoy him.Yes, I am putting off telling you the full events.So…I take the elevator, having tried Jacob's number at least a dozen times by now. No answer, just voicemail. What choice do I have?Arriving at his glossy maple door I knocked politely. Framed in a fancy ridged white woodwork it looks like the entrance to another period of time. Except I can hear the dull thuds of bass. Music. Exhilaration races through me as I realise I've found him."Jacob!" I shout, banging loudly on