Chapter 4 Decision

Soon, I realised something was amiss as his rough kisses bruised my lips. He pressed me as hard as he could on the cold rock that I was sitting on earlier, sending chills through me. Every landmark in Tyi, including this rock was magical, and the cold froze me from inside my body.

What had happened to the weak and shy man that night in the cave when I professed my feelings and asked him to take my first time? I shuddered as I realised how monstrous he was right now. With a single stroke, he ripped apart my robe and tore off my undergarments, throwing the tattered strips of clothing aside in the darkness of the woods. How savage.

I pulled myself from his lips forcefully. “Hans, what is this violence? Is that needed?”

“You deserve to be punished, Winter,” he laughed evilly and pulled my feet apart without asking. His savage actions make me weak and exposed before him and in contrast to the previous love sessions we had, I feel like a victim instead of a willing party.

Yet, I wanted to experience this side of him. I knew my love for him surpasses all this harshness for him, so I allowed him to do what he wanted. I wanted to see what was the extreme he would go with me, since I was no weakling like Autumn.

So, he wanted me to play along with him? I would do it. I mimicked my sister’s weak voice, “Hans, please be gentle with me. I’ll… I’ll do whatever you want.”

His eyes enlarged, gleaming with an unsaid greed. "I'll take you on that. Good girl."

He said those words while cupping my chest as he explored my body with his fingers. My sensitivity to his touches caused me to jolt with excitement as he prodded each part of me. I muffled my moans, unsure if the noise would offend him.

“Ah, you like it, don’t you, Winter?” He compelled me to answer with a deep voice.

I nodded weakly. He didn't stop. Instead, he leaned closer and sucked hard on my neck, following with my shoulder and slowly moving down to my mounds. He didn't leave a single part untouched.

"Ahh." I stifled a groan, while he left his mark on me. It just made me get more aroused. Then he moved his fingers downwards and swept over my opening. I squirmed, feeling the betrayal of my body again and again. Whatever he was doing, he must have got it right, because fluid seeped between my legs. My cheeks flushed with heat as he kept teasing my body.

“Winter, I want you, not your sister,” he rasped hungrily near my ear. His fingers danced over my curves, which just makes me blush more. “You have an amazing figure and you know it. That night after we did it, I couldn’t take it anymore. I wanted more, that’s why I came to you.”

Such words, convincing as they were, could only lead to my demise. I knew what was going to happen, but I willingly fell into his trap. Perhaps I was dumb to believe that letting him do as he wished would change his mind about marrying my sister.

“And we are…” I swallowed as I tried to understand what relationship we had. I desperately wanted to be his, but I knew that in doing so, I would have to kick my dumb sister out of the picture.

I had to be that harsh. I detested her for being weak and taking my love. If only she had never been born, perhaps I would be the one getting engaged and married to Hans. I wished she was dead, for how she displayed her weak self and used it against me.

“Give yourself to me fully, Winter. I promise you, your sister and I will just be a sham marriage. But she cannot know about us.”

I moaned as I felt him penetrate my crevice with his fingers. My fluid keeps gushing, which he seems pleased with. From the expression on his face, he wasn't new to what he was doing. I was about to lose control when he stopped moving his fingers suddenly and challenged me with a stare.

“Winter, answer me. Will you, or will you not?”

His manhood was near my core now. Hans had beautiful eyes that played with my soul but right now, his stares dominated me, compelling me to answer.

“Yes…” I moaned louder. He probed at the entrance to my cave now. He didn't enter me until I gave him the answer he wanted to hear. When he heard my answer, he thrust himself deep into me, conquering me furiously with his aggressive moves.

I cried out again and again. He was much larger than me in size, and having him inside me for the first time was excruciating. Although we already had sex on a few occasions, his rough treatment left me extremely sore after intercourse. I guessed that my body wasn’t used to sex yet.

The thrill that we were doing the deed in the woods excited me, taking away some of the pain. He smothered me with more kisses but considering how he took me for a very long time, my ordeal never seemed to end.

“Do you like it, Winter?”

My chin hurt from the force of his grasp. He dominated me with his gaze. I nodded feebly, succumbing to each wave of desire passing through me.

“I saw you and Charley at the lake earlier, Winter,” he warned. “I don't like the way he was looking at you. Be warned.”

I gulped. Just hours ago, Charley, the son of my mother’s guard Gerald, had come to look for me saying he had gifts for my parents. He had asked me a few unrelated questions, and I had just dismissed him.

“There’s nothing between me and him, believe me,” I said truthfully. He nodded.

“Still, you made me jealous, so you will serve your punishment,” he continued with his torment on me. Before I can protest, he pushes his entire length inside me. I winced, but seeing how delighted he was, I decided to bear with the pain instead.

“I’ll be aware next time,” I told him submissively. “I’ll only be yours.”

“And, not a word to your sister,” he ordered, slamming inside me mercilessly. I gave him the affirmative, believing his word that he and my sister will just be a ‘sham’ marriage after all. Eventually, he stopped and flushed his seed into me as usual. I watched the whitish liquid dripping between my legs and reflected on the ensuing soreness of the aftermath of our activity.

It was mortifying what jealousy could do to a man. Yet, I could only feel something was wrong from the way he stared at me possessively. His gaze on me qas so powerful that it made me shiver and succumbed to him, becoming the slave to his desires.

He was venting his frustrations on me. I knew my sister could not have intercourse with him due to her feeble state, so he took it on me. My heart burned with pain to see this other side of him.

We lay under the moonlight and shared our thoughts. Perhaps, the intimate moments make him return to his gentle side. He caressed me softly as he whispered sweet nothings to me. But he didn't use that word on me like he did with my sister.

He called me beautiful and the apple of his eye, but not love. He just said he has feelings for me, but what were those feelings, if not love?

I knew as much as I hated Autumn, my conscience couldn't let me see my sister suffer another relapse. Neither did I want to lose the man I held dear in my heart. I had said big words that night in the cavern.

In fact, my brain could not process anything. Originally, I thought one night with him was enough, but now, I felt I couldn't leave him. Between the choice of being the treacherous sister who was sleeping with her older sister's fiance behind her back and losing Hans, I chose to become Hans' secret lover.

I knew once Hans and my sister marry, I will be reduced to no more than a mistress.

But my body was getting addicted to each of his touches and kisses. I wanted him more than I could even imagine. We spent the entire night in each other's arms, talking about the past.

In the end, I made a decision I was unsure that I would regret in the future.