LOGINLily's POVI couldn't sleep. The next full moon, tomorrow night, and if I decided to go through with it, Darius and I would do the spell that had the potential to break our connection once and for all.Should have been a simple call. He had violated me, forced a connection I absolutely did not want. And of course it should want broken.But I had spent the evening in his study, and our conversation had knocked something loose. The way heâd claimed that to live without my forgiveness was already a death. How utterly convinced heâd been when he vowed to help me sever the bond, even if it meant killing him.This was evidence that I had been waiting to see. And he'd passed.I felt myself walking downstairs to his study with no deliberate direction. I knocked softly, half hoping that he would be asleep.But the door opened immediately. "Lily," he said, surprised. "Is everything alright?""I couldn't sleep," I admitted. "Can we talk?""Of course. Come in."We sat down by the fire again, in t
Darius's POVLilyâs words lingered between us, weighted with an absolute sense of finality. âI want to talk about the bond. About breaking it."My âwolf howled in my body with a sound of pure pain. Every instinct demanded that he say no, fight it out, use the bond to make her see how very wrong this was.But Iâd vowed to honor her decisions, even when they killed me.Naturally," I lied, trying to sound even when I wasnât. "What do you want to know?"She leaned back in the chair opposite my desk. âIâm gonna need to know if you really meant that. For helping me break the bond, if thatâs what I choose. Or was that more of a virtue-signal honor to which you were just all talk but no action?âThe question stung. "I meant it. If you want it broken, Iâll help break it. No matter what it costs."âIf it means giving up your life?â she asked quietly.I stared at her. "What?"âBreaking a forced mating isnât just easy,â lily replied. "I've been researching it. The rituals are risky, potentially l
Lily's POVThere was something between me and Darius changed by the conversation in the library. Not in any dramatic way â I didnât suddenly forgive him or give him another chance. But my wall of protection had a few crevasses in it, through which the possibility that maybe, someday things could be different began to seep.In the coming days, I kept wanting him around. Not on purpose, at firstâIâd tell myself I was just going to the library at my regular time, or looking into pack business that turned out to be him. But slowly, I had to face the truth.I wanted to talk to him.Our talks began tentatively â we were both so careful, I remember, not to say something that would shatter the fragile truce weâd brokered. We discussed pack business, the changes he was making, the difficulties and demands of leadership.But eventually, inevitably, we started discussing other things. Recollections from our childhood - the time when he was just Darius and I was just Lily, before ranks and duties
Darius's POVIt had been nearly three weeks since Lily came back, but every day was too long. The connection thrummed under my skin, a disconcerting reminder of her in the palace. I sensed bits of her feelings through our bond âisolation while in training, supposed sadness at the Academy, sometimes deep enough for my chest to hurt.But she stayed away from me, watching from the shadows the way Iâd said she could.The distance was agony. Every alpha instinct in me was yelling at me to get to her, use the bond bringer her closer. But I had given my word, and Iâd die before Iâd break it.So I took my energy and became the alpha female I should have been from the start.âIf you could keep the papers in order,â Marcus said, talking about files in my study, âthe new council as structured is working famously. âWe are receiving perspectives we have not paid attention to in years because of having people in the representation of all ranks.âI nodded, approving a suggestion for the refurbishin
Lily's POVThe days that followed his departure for Malik turned into a routine of loneliness and self-discovery. I arose early, exercised with Marcus in the grounds until my muscles ached, read ancient volume after ancient volume covering Snow Wolf Queens in the library, and spent my evenings meditating as I tried to control the powers that tingled under my skin.Malikâs token to me lay on the bedside table, catching my eye as I went in and out. A reminder of options, of possibility, of a future that could be had that wasnât predicated on forced bonds or painful history.I should have felt it when he kissed my hand goodbye. Should have felt a spark, or a tug, something that indicated my heart was responding to his evident adoration. He was everything Iâd want, kind and respectful, offering me freedom and a clean slate.But I'd felt nothing. Just appreciation and camaraderie, but no romantic tug.Occupying that reality was difficult for me during my training. Was it their forced bond
ChapterMalik's POVIt became unbearable staying in the guest quarters at Moonshade Pack; I was a living ghost, and everyone knew that I didn't belong. I was standing by the window, watching the morning sun pour through the trees and feeling that I could not much longer defer my departure.My pack needed their alpha. Cameron was getting despondently urgent matter messagesâquestions about border clashes, where things needed to be done, and resources reallocated, the wolves were asking when I would be back.But moving on was also accepting Lily was slipping from my grasp.âYouâre sulking again,â Cameron murmured from the doorway. âYouâve been doing that quite a lot recently.âI didnât look away from the window. "Just thinking.""About her," he said flatly. âMalik, you got to realize the world. She wanted space from both of you. And there is history with Darius that stretches back years. What do you have? And a couple of conversations and one dramatic rescue?âHis bluntness stung. "I've g







