I look at oakley and he smile at me, nakakatawa sya sa suot nya. Ako naiinitan sa suot nya ngayon, I like him better when he's naked
Naughty elisha! Kapag naiyot iiyak iyak!
I cursed softly and hit my head lightly. I swear bibisita nako sa psychiatrist para ipacheck ang kahalayan ko, sagad na sagad walang palya
"Do you like the song?" I look at him saka kami umupo sa duwan ng hardin ni lola, I feel refreshing when the fresh wind touch my skin. Ang sarap sa pakiramdan
"I love it, where do you study at your college?" I ask him at ngumiti lang naman sya saakin
"St. Gregory" I cuss in my mind, kung third year ako, maaring naging schoolmate ko sya
"Me too.." I said lazily and place my hand on my thighs and caress it, nahiya ako ng sandali, why I'm acting like a shy teenager
OakleyAfter I went home, I can't stop thinking about elisha's face, her face turn into a red, her smiles that make my heart melt and her voice, like a very beautiful melody I heard. The best of the bestAfter my hard time to sleep. I woke up early and went to her place, sobrang kabado ako ng haranahin ko sya. I thought I will fail, but I make her happy at that nightShe remember what I did when she's in her college, no one can't resist her. Kahit na saan sya pumunta, people saw her as a beautiful ladyDesidido ako na ligawan sya, I know that I am too old for courting since it's 21st century, bihira ang ligaw. Daan lang sa santong baban ng damit and boom, the magic will happenI won't deny that elisha and I also start at being a each other's affair, pareho kaming kasal, pareho kaming hindi gusto ang maitali agad, I understand her. I feel it too, but kapag nasa harap
"Kuya, saglit lang. Pupuntahan ko si oakley" kuya christ chuckled and pat my head like a little baby"So you like that guy" marahan akong pumikit at hindi ko alam ang isasagot ko kay kuya, do I like oakley, do I deserve him? He's too good for me, I am afraid to disappoint him in anyway that I might do without realizing itNakakatakot kapag may aasa sayo at handang tumanggap katulad ng ginagawa ni oakley saakin ngayon, he meet my lola, and once my lola approve him, it means he's good and she like him for me"Ano, natulala kana dyan" I smile weakly and place my hand on my neck, do deserve it?"I need time to realize it kuya, I'm afraid to make a new mistake after the ridiculous problems I made last time" he light his cigarette and look at me, iniinggit ako ng gago"Wag kana magisip, sometimes you don't need to chose wisely elisha. Mamaya kakaisip mo mawawala nanaman pala sa ang pag
After I talk to lolo, I went to bar counter ng mansion at namili ng iinumin na alak, I miss the taste of alcohol"Oh bat andito kapa, welcome ka?" I hissed at kuya christ at inabot ang bote ng alak na may lamang ahasI remember that when I taste it, once you drink the alcohol pwedeng mag-apoy ang bibig mo sa sobrang tapangGumuguhit, para kang tinarakan ng kutsilyo sa lalamunan"Ang sungit mo, sabing habulin mo yung throne mo eh" I push him a bit at naabot ang bote ng brandy"Bakit ko hahabulin yon, ako babae at hindi maghahabol ang Salvia sa kanya!" Singhal ko bago nagsalin ng alak sa baso"But you cannot leave him in chaos, he saved you and you'll left him there, alone? That's not nice elisha" kuya said and I avoid looking at him, I know what he want to say"Stop standing behind your ego elisha. What do you think why he leave?" I look a
I feel my anger eat my own system, nanginginig ako habang kapit kapit ko ang steering wheel habang hindi pansin ang bilis ko ngayonI don't know how to calm myself while I am driving now. That is the worst thing that happen to me he have no right to said it to meWhy people keep acting like they knew everything. Kung makapagsalita sila parang tama lahat ng lumalabas sa bibig nila, they don't think before they judge youTangina lang"Fuck!" Gigil na gigil ako because every single words he say keep replaying in my mind. It's like a curse to me, he poisoned my mind by saying that, why I allow myself to hear that bullshits"Tangina nyong lahat!" I shout at the top of my lungs and stop my car at the open spaceNagpupumadyak ako habang palabas ako sa kotse, nasa kanang kamay ko ang yosi ko at sa kaliwa ang vodka na binigay saakin ng lalaki na iyon
Bumungad saakin ang puting kisame habang ugong ng AC ang tanging ingay sa kwarto at dahan dahan akong bumangon, I didn't wear the same clothes I wear last nightI noticed that I am laying at my bed, at the mansionMarahan at maingat akong lumakad sa kwarto ko, long sleeves and my undiesNag flash naman ang nangyari kagabi and my sweet smile fade. After I left veda, oakley find me. Hug me and I cry to his shoulder until I fall asleep last nightBahagya namang bumukas ang pinto at niluwa non si oakley na may dalang gatas habang nakatitig saakin at nilapag sa tabi ng vanity mirror ko ang gatas and he handed me a robe"Kakagising mo lang?" He ask saka ko inabot ang gatas and drink"Oakley..." I call him para saakin mapunta ang atensyon nya habang saakin na nga lumipat ang mga pagmamasid nya sa loob"The guy I'm hugging yesterday is my cousin"
"Gago.." bulong ko ng mapansin ko na may pang apat na lalaki nanaman ang nalapit saakin habang nagsosolo ako sa sulok kung saan ako nag iinomIt's far from everything, para akong tanga na nanakbo habang may mga bobong humahabol saakin para bigyan ako ng problema at poproblemahin"Sabing ayoko nga aba!" naiirita kong saad ng mapansin ko na parang tanga silang nagtutulakan kung sino bang unang lalapit saakinI date a lot of guy before, siguro umabot na ang balita sa media at nalaman ng madla that my relationship with edward is fallen apart now. Both of us is in fatal situation now"Stop ruining my night. Come on stop bothering me and let me enjoy my solitude" reklamo ko sa kanila at nagumpisa na silang mag alisanThanked God they listen to me, unlike edward, he doesn't know where to stopHindi nya alam na mas makakasira saamin ang pagpilit nya na maayos k
People will leave you in the middle of chaos, only you can save your self.They won't help you, in fact. They will drag you down, watch you fail and let you die in the middle of chaosThat's how it worksKung gusto mo talagang makalampas sa lahat ng dapat mong daanan, dapat hinding hindi kana lilingon pa.If you want to grow, you should learn how to grown on your own, stop believing that you need a person to make you grow. Hinding hindi mo magagamit ang tao lalo na kung ramdam mo sa sarili mo na may kulang ba ditoI heal myself because i need it, not because of Oakley"Ma'am, may package po na nag aantay sa baba" i look at my secretary and she look exhausted"Are you tired? Mag pahinga kana muna don, papaakyatin ko nalang ang delivery boy and please stop calling me ma'am if you want to keep you job. Ms. Elisha okay? Pina
"Are you ready?" problemadong problemado akong nakaharap sa salamin habang di maipinta ang muka ko, i try my best to look presentable but i still look like a bold star"No" sigaw ko habang pilit namang binubuksan ni Oakley ang pinto ng walk in closet koIt's been a month since i start my relationship with him, and he never fail to make me happy and satisfied, well sa office ko, yun lang ang huli naming kababalaghan at sa buong buwan ay walaWhy? Kasi hindi namab kailangan ng sex sa relationship, all i need is love and companion"What's the problem baby, mom and dad is waiting" mas lalo akong kinabahan, haharapin ko ang royal na pamilya ni Oakley, i can't breathe every time i remember that i will meet them"Di ba pwedeng mag back out, look i don't look presentable and i really look like a pornstar Oakley" tumawa sya hanggang sa bumukas ang pinto at naka simpleng long sleeves at pa