I'm pregnant.
The doctor told us a while ago. None of us spoke after the doctor's revelation.
Maging ako hindi ko alam kung ano ang dapat na reaksyon ko. May bata na sa tiyan ko. That thought made my heart ache.
Pinilit kong pakalmahin ang sarili ko. Everything makes sense now. The heaviness of my body, the delay of my menstruation which I thought normal, the uneasiness, the discomfort, the roller coaster of my emotions, at lahat ng iyon ay dahil buntis ako.
Nagsalubong ang tingin namin ni Asher. He lowered his head to avoid my gaze.
"I'm sorry, Jezrel.." His voice cracked.
"I hate you, Asher. I hate you! I hate you so much!" He leaned forward and stopped me from moving hysterically. Ang sama sama ng loob ko! How could that one night ruined me like this? Hindi ko gusto ito! Ikakasal ako kay Dwight. Paano? Oh, God. How could we be so careless?
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I woke up as the rays of sunrise touched my skin. There was no trace of Asher when I woke up. I checked over my phone and noticed that there was a message from him.Asher:I woke up early because I had a lot of things to do. I cooked your breakfast.Nag-ayos na ako kaagad dahil kailangan ko pang pumasok. Balak ko ng mapaghinga rin sa trabaho para sa anak ko.Last night's memory was still vivid in my head. My cheeks flushed. But that thought turned to thin air when I remembered how awful I was. I hated my father because of what he did. But look at what I did, too. I betrayed Dwight.I've been lying and convincing to myself that what Asher stirred up inside me were mere nothing but ang
I woke up earlier than the usual. I tied my hair as I walked around the apartment. The weather seemed fine, too. Tiningnan ko 'yung ref saka ang cabinet niya. Plano kong magluto na lang ng fried rice, itlog saka hotdog. Inayos ko na ang paghiwa ng bawang saka nilagay sa kawali. I was busy cooking the egg when I felt a hug behind. "Morning." His bedroom voice welcomed me. He was sucking my neck. "Asher, nagluluto ako," sabi ko pa. Hindi siya nagpatinag bagkus ay mas lalo siyang sumiksik sa leeg ko. "I thought you left me..." Parang bata niyang sabi. Lumingon ako saka hinarap siya. "Why would I do that?" "I'm just afraid, Jez," turan niya. Lumayo siya ng kaunti saka hinaplos ang tiyan. "Good morning, baby." I smiled at what he did. "Are you excited seeing this pretty little thing?" he asked when his gaze went to me.&nbs
"Nagugutom ka, Jez?" I nodded. The next few days were difficult for us. Although, Asher's been here, supporting me and taking care of me. Dwight kept on messaging me and I never bothered replying to him. We decided to talk to him today. Dwight was now recovering as what Marco said. Si Johnson inuulan din ako ng text at tawag kung bakit hindi ko raw dinadalaw si Dwight. Si Marco na lang nag-e-xplain na may sakit ako kaya hindi puwede.Hindi pa naman obvious ang tiyan ko. Magtwo-two months pa lang. Dwight went to a lot of therapies, dahil nga sa injuries na natamo niya noong aksidente. I wanted to take care of him but not now when my body's not cooperating. Parati akong nagkakaroon ng morning sickness. Ang hina ng katawan ko. Imagine how mothers went through the same pain as me. Mommy went to me yesterday. He saw Asher and I in an intimate position. She was mad... really mad that she hated me to the core. I remembered her last words before she went out.&nb
Trigger Warning. Some scenes may be sensitive. You are warned."No, Jezrel... No, tell me you're lying. Nangpa-prank ka ba? Surely, that's not funn." He shook his head. I hated this. I hated how he was slowly breaking down in front of me. "Jezrel naman..." Tanging hikbi lang ang naisagot ko."I-I'm sorry, Dwight. L-Let's just end this," sabi ko nang tuluyan siyang hinarap. I needed to tell him this. We needed this. His mouth fell open before he tore me his flaring eyes."Putangina, Ano?! Hindi puwede! Kung buntis ka man, e okay lang tatanggapin ko. Jez, 'wag mo lang akong iwan, please. I need you, babe..." He leaned forward to me. His eyes were frantic as he scanned my whole face."Si Chezka..." Bigla kong nasambit sa piyok kong boses saka malamig siyang tiningnan. "I saw a picture of her sitting in your lap."Sumi
Asher was seating on the couch, holding an ice pack on his hand when I came inside."Ako na," saad ko sa kanya saka niya inabot sa akin ang hawak niya. I took a step closer to him and gently patted on the corner of his eyes. "Si Johnson ba may gawa nito?" Tumango siya."I deserve this," he said. Kita pa rin ang putok sa gilid ng labi niya. My heart clenched painfully seeing him in this state. "How was your talk with Dwight?" he asked while he was gently caressing my belly. I liked how Asher always asked me like what happened through out the day to me; he's always interested to me."Okay na kanina. Kumalma na siya. I explained, Asher. We were all hurt. I loved Dwight. He was the first man I've ever let in my life because I really hated men after my father cheated on my mother. You know that. But there's no saving when relationship couldn't be saved anymore. If there's something I've learned from our relationship is to never decide for your own. Dalawa kayo
Warning. This chapter is sensitive. I warned you.Nagising ako nang naramdaman kong nabangga ang ulo ko sa kung saan.Wait. I was moving. Where was I? My hand went to my aching temple and I realized my face stung.Nanlaki ang mata ko nang maalala kung ano ang nangyari.Kumunot ang noo ko. Si Terrence!"Don't panic, Jezrel. It's just me," the creepy voice from him welcomed me.I gasped in fear. God, no no. I tried to adjust my vision and I found myself inside his car."Terrence! Tigilan mo 'to, please! Ibaba mo ako!" I cried out. "Saan mo ba ako dadalhin? 'Wag ganito! Maawa ka sa'kin!"He threw me a fast glance. "Maawa? Are you hearing yourself, huh? I begged for your love but what did I get in return? Nothing. You just played with me."&nbs
"Kasalanan ko 'to, Dwight," paulit-ulit kong sinabi. Fuck! This was my fault! I should've taken care of them! I should've not let them alone there. I frustratedly raked my hair with my fingers."P're, we can't do anything about it." he said, trying to calm me. I tightened the grip of the bottled water I was holding.I was lucky enough that Dwight helped me. It took me a lot of beating from him for his forgiveness. Alam kong mali ako dahil minahal ko rin ang mahal niya. He also had to go to the psychiatrist. What happened last time was his last blow. I was glad that finally we're back to square but the bond that we had was not the same as how it used to be before.Fuck! I'm scared... I've never been this scared not until when their lives were on the line.Mahal na mahal ko sila, e.Itinukod ko ang kamay ko sa ulo ko at sinabunt
I wasn't able to sleep for the whole night as I had to take care of Jezrel who was peacefully lying.I caressed her hair and kissed her forehead. Pagkalabas ko sa kuwarto nakita ko si Dwight na papasok pa lang sa loob. Tinapik niya ako sa balikat. He placed the foods he brought then we found a place outside the hospital to sit together. We were both holding a cup of coffee, admiring the city lights from where we were."Jezrel is a strong woman," sabi niya saka uminom ng kapeng hawak niya. I couldn't agree no more. Because she was. After all, she was a fighter."I would say this again, Dwight. I'm sorry for betraying you." Humigop din ako mula sa hawak kong venti size. "I couldn't help getting guilty each day for falling for someone out of reach, especially knowing the fact that she was yours." Pagpapatuloy ko.I heard Dwight sighed. "We have already talked about this last time, right? It was my fucking fault, Ash. Inaamin ko na nagpabaya ako.