Leaving him.

Misty.

Orion wakes me at seven, hes picks me up from the bed, god im glad i lost all that weight he would never had been able to if i hadnt, he carried me in the bathroom and steps into the tub, it was full of warm water and bubbles he lowers us both in and my muscles scream in ecstasy, i hadnt realised i was so sore, we sat in silence for a while before he spoke.

"Babybgirl i want to thank you for allowing me to be the first to show your body true pleasure i also want to thank you for trusting me so willingly, im so proud of you and well i want to ask you to stay in touch with me, can i call you sometime?"

i nod before i raise my eyes and look up at him,

"Thankyou sir but i want to thankyou for showing me and my body that, that kind of pleasure can be obtained, but also for spending the time it took to get me there, aside from my children, its the greatest gift ive ever been given. and yeh id like it if you called sometimes.

Orion picked up a loofah and washed me from head to toe when it was time to get out he carried me wrapping me in a towel drying me choosing my clothes and dressing me, he even did my hair, i said nothing. Tears sprang to my eyes this was the closest id ever come to having a Daddy. id almost slipped last night, id almost called him Daddy, hed have run for the hills then im sure but id caught myself and now it was all about to dissapear as i went back to reality anyway.

we headed for his truck where he stowed my suitcase and then we rode in silence to a roadhouse. both of us picked at our breakfast but neither really ate neither of us really spoke either, it was awkward, id promised my self no more men then i allow for one casual encounter and now i dont want to leave, my body craves his touch again, my mind craves to know his, but it was pointless i had pups to get home to and no man or wolf wants pups that come from another.

i sucked in a breath, put a smile on my face and said "well this was fun, do you treat all the ladies in your life to such a good time or just the desperate ones?" he looked at me quizzically, i smirked and he laughed

"you werent deperate little miss independence you were deserving theres a difference."

i asked him about his next load and where he was headed and continued to make small talk as we headed for the train station, silence fell as we approached the drop off zone. he pulled up and exited the truck held out his hand as i climbed down and then pulled my bag out of stowe.

without warning he cupped my head and kissed me like he was drinking a life saving fluid from me, i responded likewise, we continued until there was a honk from behind us and he said "Let me know when your home, travel safe little one" and he was gone. i stood there wanton and dazed until a taxi pulled up in front of me and the driver honked asking if i wanted a ride, I shook myself to sense apologised to him and turned and entered the station.

i found my platform and sat on my suitcase against a wall with my knees pressed to my chest, memories of last night flowing leaving me wonder if id ever feel so high again. the memories and thoughts stayed with me constantly till i arrived at home where i become the victim of a game of stacks on under my eight pups.the older ones gently flopped on me while the youngers ones did not hold back i laughed and pretended i was drowning beneath them.

between the game and settling them at the table for the meal our aupair had prepared i quickly sent Orion a text,

Home safe, thanks again for everything and i mean everything, *winky face* Keep her sunny side up and keep being the kind person you are, to the world you may not be much but to some you are the world.

probably a bit full on but if i could make him feel anywhere near as good about himself as he made me feel well i owed him that much and the truth is id probably never hear from him again, he knew i had pups. it was almost a given id never hear from him again. yet after dinner i still checked my phone hoping. and again after the littlins were tucked into bed and later after the older ones had said goodnight. the message was left undelivered, i was almost tempted to call and see if hed blocked me,

instead i shared stories of my travels with my aupairs i did not tell them everything and even though id played it down as meeting a nice guy they were already planning our wedding. i rolled my eyes at them

"im off to bed guys, but please dont let me stop you from enjoying my wedding just one thing though i wont be there and neither will he, i laughed and retired to my room listening to them sing song about how i dont control the moon goddess and how she does control my fate.

i lay down and pull a pillow in to snuggle against, my phone lights up, "Glad to know youre safe little one. i wasnt ignoring you i was out of range."

i dont open the message i just read the notification and smile, at least im not that forgettable.

i drift off to sleep exhausted after the days travel nightmares plague me again only now when i wake i have memories to turn to that make me smile instead of fearing.