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Chapter 18: Retail therapy

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Rejena

I stare at my computer, lost in memories of Dalon’s smile, his burst of laughter. I wonder for a moment how it was that I got to the point. My heart is once again broken, but this time, it wasn’t death that stole him, but the truth that came too late. I wonder if he has read the book, if he even cares. I tried watching the race Sunday, but it killed me when I watched him smile as if nothing happened the weekend before and it killed me. I had never cried while watching a Formula 1 race, but I had also never been so proud of someone that broke my heart. He came second in the race after a terrible start where he tried to take a risk that didn’t work out.

I rub at my chest, the pain coming in waves and I am once again trying to fight off tears. “Jena, can you come here please?” Dan asks, reminding me that I am at work and no longer in that space with the man I can’t seem to let go, even when he has clearly moved on.

“Hi, Dan. How can I help?” I ask, my voice softer than usual, my s
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