Different

I could feel Jordan breath out heavily after my words and guilt struck my heart. Did I understand? Of course, I did and if I was not pregnant already, I would have probably agreed to his decision and opted for an adoption. But I had a baby now and I felt like I betrayed him by saying those words and also lied to his father. My life was turning to a mess that should be cleaned up soon and till that time, I guess I had to keep lying.

Jordan hugged me tighter and buried his face in my neck. His hot breath against my skin was intoxicating and it brought a lot of thoughts into my head. But I was tired, weak and definitely not in the right frame of mind for such. Finding myself in a better position, other than the couch, I had been in earlier, I found sleep again beside my husband and this time it was more peaceful and worth it.

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I opened my eyes sharply, and jerked at the pressure in my bladder. I jumped from the bed and ran to the bathroom to ease myself and almost peed on my body. Whe