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GENESIS

Even in my unconsciousness, I could feel that emptiness inside of me. I could feel the hole, the empty, painful hole that was once filled with life, I could feel the vacuum there. I knew that something was different and I feared what it was. When I opened my eyes, the first sight I wanted to behold was my beloved husband. His scent was the first thing I wanted to caress my nostrils, his warmth the next feel I wanted to feel against my cold skin. But he wasn’t there as I had hoped. And that had shattered whatever was left inside of me. He had threatened to leave me, maybe he did.

The fear of such possibility had made me fear and panic especially when I didn’t see him around me. It scared me but the familiar faces gave me a little bit of comfort. They were family and ones I loved. They had such effect on me. Not till I recalled what happened, how I fell. My hands had voluntarily found its way to my stomach where I wanted to feel the life inside of me. I was in a hospital for sur