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The front door slammed open with such force that the walls shook.
I looked up from my laptop, heart hammering, as my mother stumbled inside like something was chasing her. Her eyes were wild, her chest heaving, her designer handbag, when did she get a designer handbag?—hanging crooked from her shoulder. "Mum?" I jumped up from the couch. "What's wrong? Are you okay?" She didn't answer. Just stood there in the doorway, staring at me with an expression I couldn't read. Fear? Excitement? Guilt? "Sit down," I said, rushing to the kitchen. "Let me get you some water." My hands trembled as I filled a glass. Ever since Dad died six months ago, Mum had these moments, these breakdowns where the grief would hit her like a truck and she'd come home looking haunted. I thought this was one of those times. But when I pressed the glass into her hands and sat beside her, she took one long sip, set it down on the coffee table, and turned to me with a smile that made my stomach drop. "Bella, darling," she said, her voice too bright, too cheerful. "We're moving out. Today." I blinked. "What?" "To a big estate. A beautiful one. You're going to love it." My mind went blank. "Mum, what are you talking about? We can't afford…" "We can now." She grabbed my hands, squeezing tight. "Everything's changed, Bella. Everything's going to be better now. We're going to live in a luxury house, have luxury cars, have everything we've ever wanted…" "Stop." I pulled my hands away, my confusion turning to ice. "Mum, this house is fine. It's all we have left of Dad. It's the only thing he left us…" "We can rent it out. Or sell it." She waved her hand dismissively. "It's of no use anymore. From now on, we're going to live the life we deserve." I stared at her like she'd grown a second head. "Mum, is there something you're not telling me? Because I really don't understand what you're saying." Her smile faltered. She looked away, then back at me, and I saw it, the guilt I'd sensed before, creeping into her eyes. "Come here, girl. Sit down properly." She patted the couch cushion. "I know you're not going to want to hear this, but at this point I have no option but to tell you. And you'll have no option but to accept it." Dread coiled in my chest. "A few days ago," she began, her voice softer now, "I had a problem with a client. The design I delivered was a complete mess, and I don't know how it happened or who was behind it. My coworkers threw me under the bus. I was so frustrated, so betrayed… I wasn't paying attention when I crossed the street, and I walked right into traffic." My breath caught. "What?" "I almost got hit by a car." She gave a shaky laugh. "But the driver stopped just in time. And the owner of the car… he insisted on taking me to the hospital to make sure I was okay. Then he drove me home. And we started talking. And then…" She hesitated. "We kept in touch. And a few days ago, he proposed." The room tilted. "Proposed," I repeated slowly. "Yes." She was smiling again, that too-bright smile. "We got married this afternoon. His name is Dominic Hayes, and we're moving into his estate tonight. Our new home." The blood in my veins turned to fire. "Married?" My voice cracked. "Mum, Dad just died a few months ago! His death is still under investigation, the driver who hit him hasn't even been found, and you're already married to another man?" "Bella…" "No!" I stood up, my entire body shaking. "I'm not going anywhere with you. I'd rather live here alone than move in with some stranger who thinks he can replace Dad!" "Bella, please…" "No, Mum! How could you do this? How could you forget him so fast?" "I haven't forgotten him!" Her eyes filled with tears. "I loved your father, Bella. I still do. But he's gone, and I… I can't keep living in the past. I need to move forward. And Dominic, he's a good man, Bella. A kind man. He offered me a job at his fashion company. He's very successful, very wealthy. He has companies, businesses… He can give us the life we never had." "I don't want that life," I said through gritted teeth. "Don't you?" She stood, facing me. "Don't you want to stop struggling? Don't you want to stop watching me work myself to death doing bakery jobs just to keep the lights on? I'm doing this for us, Bella. For you." I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. But instead, I just stood there, trembling with rage and heartbreak. "I'm only going with you," I finally said, my voice cold, "to make you happy. But no one, no one, will ever replace Dad in my heart." Mum's face crumpled. She pulled me into a hug, and I let her, even though every part of me wanted to pull away. "Thank you," she whispered. "Thank you, darling." Before I could respond, the sound of a car engine rumbled outside. Mum pulled back, her face lighting up. "Oh! They're here to help us pack." I followed her to the window and looked out. A sleek black SUV was parked in front of our house. The kind of car I'd only seen in movies. The back door opened, and a man stepped out. And my breath stopped. He was tall, impossibly tall, with broad shoulders and a sharp jawline that could cut glass. His dark hair was perfectly styled, his suit tailored to perfection. Even from a distance, I could feel the power radiating off him. He moved with the confidence of someone who owned the world. And when he turned toward the house, his eyes, dark, unreadable, intense, locked on mine through the window. I forgot how to breathe. "Come on!" Mum grabbed my arm, dragging me toward the door. "Let me introduce you." I barely heard her. My heart was pounding too loud. The man, Dominic, stepped into our tiny living room, and suddenly the space felt even smaller. He filled it with his presence, commanding attention without saying a word. "Dominic," Mum said, beaming, "this is my daughter, Bella. Bella, this is Dominic Hayes. Your new stepfather." I forced myself to meet his eyes. Big mistake. Up close, he was even more devastating. Sharp cheekbones. Full lips. A gaze that seemed to see straight through me. "Bella." His voice was deep, smooth, controlled. He extended a hand. "It's nice to finally meet you." I stared at his hand for a long moment before shaking it. His grip was firm. Warm. And when his skin touched mine, a jolt of electricity shot up my arm. I pulled away quickly, my face burning. "Nice to meet you too," I muttered, looking anywhere but at him. What the hell was wrong with me? An hour later, the car was packed. Well, overpacked. Mum had insisted on bringing half the house, despite Dominic's polite suggestion that everything we needed was already at the estate. The SUV was stuffed with bags, boxes, and random pieces of furniture, leaving almost no room in the back seat. "My love," Dominic said with a small, amused smile, "you really are a luggage enthusiast. Even when it's unnecessary." Mum laughed, swatting his arm playfully. "I like to be prepared!" I wanted to gag. "All right, everyone in," Mum said, climbing into the front passenger seat. The driver, a silent, stone-faced man in a black suit, slid into the driver's seat. Dominic opened the back door and gestured for me to get in. I looked at the tiny sliver of space left on the seat and felt my stomach drop. "There's no room," I said flatly. "Oh, don't be dramatic, Bella," Mum called from the front. "Just sit on Dominic's lap. It's only a short drive." My blood ran cold. "What?" "Come on, darling, we don't have all day." I turned to Dominic, expecting him to protest. To suggest literally anything else. But he just looked at me with those unreadable dark eyes and said, "It's fine." Fine? It was not fine. But I didn't have a choice. Not without making a scene. So I climbed into the car, my face burning, and awkwardly sat on the edge of his lap, trying to keep as much distance as possible. The door closed. The car started moving. And I immediately regretted every decision that led me to this moment. Dominic's body was solid beneath me. Hard. Warm. I kept my back ramrod straight, my hands clenched in my lap, my eyes fixed on the seat in front of me. Don't think about it. Don't think about it. Don't think about it. But I was thinking about it. I could feel the heat of him through my jeans. The steady rise and fall of his chest. The faint scent of his cologne, something dark and expensive that made my head spin. And then the driver hit a pothole. I jolted backward, my body pressing against Dominic's chest. His hands shot out, gripping my waist to steady me. "Careful," he murmured, his voice low, close to my ear. I froze.My mother called on a Wednesday.She called every Wednesday now — not the update call, not the checking-in call. The actual call, the one that went wherever it went, the one that had produced some of the best conversations I had ever had with her.“How is she,” she said.“Opinionated,” I said. “She cried for forty minutes last night because she disagreed with something.”“She’s Thomas’s granddaughter,” my mother said. “Of course she’s opinionated.”“She’s three weeks old,” I said.“Precocious,” my mother said. “Also Thomas.”I looked at the photograph above the fireplace.Thomas Morgan at twenty-six.The stubbornness in the jaw.The attention in the eyes.“How’s Patrick,” I said.A pause.“He’s here actually,” she said. The specific casual quality of a woman mentioning something she has not quite decided how to mention.“He’s there,” I said.“He made dinner,” she said.“Patrick made dinner,” I said.“He cooks,” she said. “I didn’t know he cooked. He arrived with ingredients and just—”
BELLA’S POVShe arrived on a Tuesday in September.Of course she did.September — the month the whole thing had started, the entrance hall and the assembled version of a man who had been losing the battle against it from the first morning. September, one year exactly from the arrival at the estate with the bag and the book and no plan to become what I had apparently become.She arrived at four in the afternoon, which Dr. Hargreaves described as efficient, and she was — as advertised, as predicted by everyone from Marcus to my mother to the twenty-week scan — a girl.Thomasina.Thomas’s daughter’s daughter.The room changed when she arrived.Every room she was ever going to be in.She had his eyes.Not Dominic’s — though she had those too, the dark intensity of them, the looking quality. My father’s eyes. The specific shape of them, the attentiveness already present in a person who had been in the world for approximately forty minutes.My mother cried.Not the controlled brief cry of t
BELLA’S POV We got married in June. Not the estate — that had been the first conversation, the one that happened the morning after the proposal over eggs that nobody burnt for once, which felt significant. “Not the estate,” I had said. “No,” he had agreed, immediately, which told me he had already thought about it. The estate was the house where the arrangement had happened and the back stairs and the managed distances and all of it. It was also home — genuinely, fully home — but a wedding needed to be somewhere that was only the wedding. Not layered with everything the house had been before. My mother had suggested the enclosed garden. We had both looked at her. “Too small,” she said. “Obviously. But the spirit of it.” The spirit of it — the forty-year space, the bench at the correct angle, the rosemary in its corner, the space made by a woman who had loved something properly for a long time and had left it in good bones. We found a place in May. A garden — not a
BELLA’S POVThe baby became visible in March.Not dramatically — not the overnight transformation of film pregnancies. The slow arrival of a fact that had been internal becoming external, the body deciding that the thing it had been doing quietly was now going to be apparent to anyone who looked.I looked in the mirror on a Tuesday morning in March and thought: there it is.Twenty weeks.The halfway point.Dr. Hargreaves had done the scan the previous week — the room, the screen, the specific unreality of watching something move that was also somehow yours. Dominic had been in the chair beside me, the person in the chair beside me, exactly as he had said he would be.He had looked at the screen with the full attention.The genuine noticing quality. The real looking.He had said nothing for a long time.Then: “She moves like you.”I had looked at the screen.“You can’t possibly know that,” I said.“She’s impatient,” he said. “Look at her.”I had looked at the screen.The thing that was
BELLA’S POVUniversity started on a Wednesday.I took the train in from the estate — forty minutes, the November countryside now January grey, the bare hedgerows doing their patient thing. I had the bag with the books and the enrollment letter and the specific feeling of a person returning to something they had left and finding it both the same and entirely different.The campus was smaller than I remembered.Or I was larger.One of the two.My course director — Dr. Emmeline Walsh, fifties, the kind of academic who wore interesting scarves and had no patience for imprecise language — had met me at enrollment. She had looked at me over her glasses and said: “You’ve had a year.”“Yes,” I said.“Good,” she said. “It’ll be in the writing.”She was not wrong.I saw a therapist on Thursdays.Her name was Dr. Adaeze Okonkwo and she worked from an office in the city that had two plants, one of which was clearly struggling, and she had the quality of someone who had heard everything and had de
Week five.The university sent the enrollment confirmation.Jennifer made dinner to celebrate — something ambitious that produced three separate disasters and one genuinely excellent result and required the evacuation of the kitchen at one point due to smoke.We ate the excellent result at the kitchen table and Jennifer said: “To Thomas Morgan’s daughter. Who is going back to university. Who is going to be extraordinary.”I looked at the glass of water I was drinking.“To Thomas Morgan’s daughter,” I said.We drank.The kitchen.The November evening.The yellow walls.I pressed both hands on my stomach.Thirteen weeks.The thing real and present and mine and not mine simultaneously, the thing that was its own person already, with its own schedule and its own certainty, arriving because it was time.“What are you thinking,” Jennifer said.I looked at the window.“That I’m ready,” I said.“For university,” she said.“For all of it,” I said.She looked at me.“Two more days,” she said.“
BELLA’S POVHis hands were still on my waist. His breath was warm against my neck.And for one insane, terrifying second, I wondered what it would feel like if he didn't let go.I forced myself to sit up straighter, pulling away from him."Sorry," I mumbled.He didn't respond.The car kept moving.
BELLA'S POVI should have walked away the moment I heard the sound.That was the smart thing to do. The right thing. The thing any normal person would have done, turned around, gone back to their room, closed the door, pretended they'd heard nothing.But I have never, apparently, been particularly
I looked at my phone. It was Jennifer, my friend. But Jennifer wasn't hearing me, in fact, the call kept cutting out. Neither of us could hear each other properly.The call ended.I dropped the phone in frustration and headed to the bathroom to take a bath.The bathroom was absolutely gorgeous. Mar
BELLA’S POV For a second, neither of us moved. He just stood there, holding my underwear, his dark eyes locked on mine.I snatched it from his hand and shoved it behind my back. "I, I'm sorry. My bad.""I'm just going to take this and leave," he said, his voice tight. He grabbed whatever he'd been







