6

Sitting in the garden with a book in my hand and a pair of airpods plugged in my ears was the best combination.

Hometown smile by Bahjat bursting in my ears.

My eyes kept on scanning the lines until it was dark enough to go back inside. Lifting myself off the swing, I hurriedly went inside towards the kitchen.

Skipping through some cupboards, I came across my fathers favorite cupboard.

He used to lock his food in it since me and my mother always liked to steal and than devour it. He had the best taste in everything. His cooking was just extra. Sighing I brushed past it. Sadness washing over my features once again.

Grabbing a pack of Doritos and a glass of cranberry juice, I strided back to my room. I sat down on the overused bed making myself comfortable in it. Placing my laptop on my lap, I played an episode of Stranger Things. If you haven’t watched that show than you live under a rock, my friends.

Munching on my Doritos I started to watch it. Hours later, I had finished the whole season.

My eyes became droopy and I slowly drifted into sleep, more like nightmares.

The next morning I woke up with an extreme headache. My brain was pounding like it had got hit by a hammer. Getting up, I winced when nausea washed over me. I felt like I had to throw up. Moving quickly towards my bathroom, I emptied all the contents I had eaten yesterday in my toilet. I could hear my erratic heartbeat ring within my ears. After throwing up several times, I rested my head on the wall behind me.

Closing my eyes, I blew out a deep breath. Calm down Tina.

My head was spinning. My whole body ached from the impact. I could taste the salty bile in my mouth threatening to come out again.

I slowly got up with a blurry gaze and walked towards the sink. Rinsing my mouth with a few gargles of water, I walked out of the bathroom not bothering to look at my reflection because I knew I looked like shit.

I went towards my side table. Taking a hold of the nearest painkiller and an anxiety medicine, I swallowed it dry.

Laying back on my bed, my eyes fluttered close due to the exhaustion. My body felt numb. It ached. My breaths were shallow.

Everything was just so painful to endure.

And once again I had to deal with my body by myself.

No one was there. Not even my mother.

Lucky me. A thought escaped my mind making me chuckle.

Miss you and love you daddy.