And Alice, what was going on in her heart and in her thoughts? Even if she didn’t want to realize, her feelings and her entire heart had revealed itself against her, she seemed not to be the owner of her inner world anymore, without realizing she was thinking about Ian. It was a mistake when she thought she could have had feelings for Gabriel, she knew that when she was close to him, such close to breathing his perfume. But, what about Ian? Seeing his smile was becoming her favorite hobbit in the same way as seeing her son in his arms. She was not ready to let her feelings speak for themselves, she was not ready to let herself be carried away by the energy given off by that man. She just wanted answers to the questions she didn’t dare to ask.Something she was sure of those emotions couldn’t turn into feelings. It was not healthy for him, it was not healthy for her. Ian would suffer so much, she couldn’t do that to the person who had brought magic to her son’s life. He didn’t deserve
The hours went by; some moments were busier than others for both of them, always with a smile on their faces doing what they loved the most. The encounters between them in the hallways of the hospital ended up in a smile. Ian enjoyed the vibes of positives given off of her after passing by his side, while Alice walked off with thousands of questions assaulting her mind. Why that smile on her face? What about those hidden words in his eyes? Why that shiny smile in his eyes? Stars hanging up from her sky in the world she built just for her son, stars that were from his world to decorate hers, because at the end, everyone has a world in their inner existence.At the moment she found herself alone just with her thoughts, she couldn’t help but think about the memories that Ian had brought to her life. She couldn’t help but remember that morning when Ian had called her in a different way.She took out the resignation letter from her pocket scrub. That day when she had finally made a decisio
Confessing what we feel, it's hard to accept, firstly for ourselves and then, learn to live with that while our heart feels like crying out those hidden feelings and secrets when looking into that person's eyes who stole our heart just with a smile to make it his or her own castle and do whatever change they want in it. Fear fills our heart in the mere instant we hear our hearts talking on their own, endless fears such as; the fear of being rejected by that lovely person, the fear of giving everything but getting nothing because that's love. Even the most genuine love is always going to ask for something. Even genuine love wants something, even a single gaze filled with love and care is enough to prolong the light of that cane called love. At that moment, Alice was so close to his heart, she feared. She just wanted to run away as her life depended on that, she just wished to be as strong and brave as he was to confess that. Those words sounded like a melody to her, but her fears made
It had been almost seven years since the day of his birth; it had been a little bit longer since she knew she was pregnant with Gabriel’s baby. So many lies, so much time had gone and she never came back to say a word to Alice’s son, who kept suffering day by day after his mistake. Alice did not deserve to be excused; Alice had nothing to say to back herself up. All she had done until that moment was a mistake. How come she dared to hide that baby that was not only hers but Nancy’s son as well? How come she could live like that for over six years? Her son, that little angel, just because he was too innocent to understand, she decided to decide for him? She could not be a good mom since she had done that t her own son.Nancy’s son made a mistake with the woman who loved him the most. Nancy was aware of that. She knew a woman can’t forget what a man did but that didn’t give the right to act like that. In the same way as Alice, Nancy had been cheated on too. Who was Alice after all to de
Believing that everything is over at the moment we confess the truth, the only truth that kept us awake in the nights we most would've wanted to sleep and forget everything is just a lie, a nightmare, and as soon as the sun rises, we'll get back to our reality, it as untrue as the same lie. Nothing is over when lies turn into truth, new cycles begin. Whether it's for good or for the worst.A sea of emotions was experimented at the moment. Alice, Joseph and Nancy, how many years had it been since the moment Nancy felt alive? How many years had it been since the moment Alice felt light with herself? How many years had it been until Joseph felt important and loved not only by his mother and aunt? He had not met his father but he knew he was going to love him as much as his grandmother was loving him. Now, Joshep could write thousands of letters and be sure they were going to be delivered because, in the end, there was indeed someone who was going to read him, read that little heart of h
A castle, a castle that had submerged from the ruins that a wrecking ball left one day, a wrecking ball that never cared of the pain it had provoked in the heart, a wrecking ball that just knew how to hurt, how to destroy, how to betray but never, how to pay off the love that the queen whose castle was destroyed was offering with every single gaze she dedicated to that wrecking wall. Countless times, for over five months, that wrecking laughed in her face when it saw what it had done to her and then, it just walked away. He never deserved her pure love, he never deserved her heart, her body, her tears, but above all, he never deserved the miracle she had carried in her being for over 9 months. The door of that castle opened in front of his eyes, those sparky eyes that existed just for her, he was not a saver, he was not a saint, he did not deserve the shiny light around her she was lighting up his way with, he did not deserve to be healed by that light. What good on earth did he d
Have you ever noticed the stolen gazes? Have you ever seen the yearning in his or her eyes? The merge between two soul, the merge between earth and rain, the merge between her and him, the merge between just two people who fell in love without realizing it.It was true they were young when they met, it was true he had fallen in love without realizing, it was true they were meant to be all along. Having him, having her at that moment when finally everything had been said, had made them touch paradise while being aware that mistakes should not be called mistakes if they had been committed for the first time.How is it possible not to make any mistakes when we are human beings? How is it possible to be perfect when the world that is welcoming us is everything, but perfect?If she was afraid one day in her own skin, she wouldn't remember it anymore. All that time thinking there was no man on earth that could be different from the man she loved and wrecked her, there was no man who could
Yes, it was possible to feel the heart full of happiness in the same way, it was possible to feel it strangely ill. Ian was her everything. Ian was all she could ask for but, regrettably, she had a date with her past. Nancy was not going to stop until she said the truth but, if only she could understand how hard it was. As soon as the smile on the face of Alice was erased, without hesitation, she took her cellphone, the keys of her sister's car and headed out, trying not to look behind. There was so much to explain to Ian but, that was not the moment to talk to him. Her only purpose was to gather enough courage to face her mother-in-law. She was not ready to talk to Gabriel and Nancy had to understand that. Maybe, it was too easy to focus on her problems first before stopping just a second and hear out her surroundings. Maybe it was better to let herself be loved before loving someone. Maybe Ian was full-aware of her feelings and she didn't need to let him know that when, for her,