*Valerie*I dabbed at my flowing tears gently after what seemed like hours. I never expected Adam to be cool with the news about our sex resulting in the twins but I also didn't expect this reaction from him.He just yelled at me for not telling it to him earlier and I couldn't help but just feel hurt. I also pretended not to see the hurt on his face when I broke the news to him.Well, I didn't expect any of it. The worst I ever expected his reaction to be was me being so daft to not use protection. I thought he'd insult me for getting pregnant, I thought he would behave nonchalantly to the news but this was completely different. Now I don't even know what to do, I don't know if I should go after him or just stay here and cry my eyes out. I'm confused! And I truly hope my boys are okay.The thought of them made my eyes well up with more tears. What if they refused to eat anything given to them? What if they've been starving since the day before?What if they fall sick because of the
*Valerie*Next morning~~Thanks to Kenneth, I could take a comfortable nap, even if I couldn't sleep too peacefully without knowing the welfare of my kids. I forced my eyes open, stretching my hands to reach out for Kenneth but he wasn't on the bed anymore."Did I wake up too late?" I asked no one in particular as I willed myself to leave the bed, but then I sighted Kenneth's retreating figure as he paced round the room.Worry and fear gripped at the thought that there might be gruesome news from the kidnappers."What's wrong, Kenneth?" I asked, showing up behind him. He paused, but didn't face me"What's going on? What happened?" I asked again with a shaky voice, but there was still no answer."Kenneth, just spill it, will you?" I said brokenly, my tears threatening to fall anytime soon. This suspense was making it all so obvious already."Ken? What the hell is going on?" I yelled, this time with my tears flowing in rhythm but his answer broke me even further."Nothing much is going
*Valerie*Tears tugged at my pupils, threatening to fall anytime soon. Kenneth's words suddenly weighed on me, making me want to disappear from the entire face of the earth.How could he ever say that? Who the hell does he think he is to say that? Why the fuck would he say that I won't ever find my children?I strolled towards no direction exactly but then, I needed to get things straight with Adam. This is probably just another sign that we've been slacking off big time.If only we've made a move to find those kids, then maybe that would have reassured Kenneth. Now, I could only conclude that Kenneth feared for me. He was scared that I might end up like those kids. That's the only logical explanation anyway.I strolled around the pack house in search of Adam. Every corner of the house was as familiar as the back of my hand, it got me wondering why they didn't refurnish and change the entire structure even after eight good modern years.I could still recall my time with Adam, Analisse
VALERIEI sniffed in once, twice, thrice as I walked out of his study. I didn't have any idea what to feel, how to feel or what to do and Adam wasn't giving me a chance to think properly too.I was caught up in a spot, stuck and with no leads on how to act. Maybe I shouldn't have come here after all. Maybe it was a mistake I made for coming back to Moonstone pack.Tears welled up in my eyes as frustration filled me to the brink. All I'm ever wishing for right now is to find my kids, how can that simple request be so hard right now? To think... I'm even stuck in some foolish emotional thoughts that are making me even angrier.I hate the fact that I'm the one who needs help the most, but I'm the most useless and helpless one here. I needed the help of those three to find Jaden and Jordan but I'm here finding it hard to be on good terms.Kenneth isn't helping things either. I'm just sick and tired of being stuck in the middle."Kenneth!" I called weakly, strolling round every possible pl
VALERIEI felt so mad and angry even though I shouldn't be. I shouldn't expect anything from someone like Adam and I was angry at myself for actually expecting him to be a better person.How could he let me be the only one stuck in the middle while he acts as if nothing happened? As if we never had an argument right there at his study?He really is the mean type. I wonder how I managed to fall in love with him throughout the precious time of my life.I regret not meeting Kenneth earlier! I regret every decision I made up to the morning Analisse and Adam betrayed me. I started to regret the moment I agreed to come here in search of my son's too.He is surprisingly and amazingly good at acting nonchalantly. I don't know why I'm getting all worked up when I shouldn't even care but it hurts to think that none of my pain means anything to him. I bet he's just trying to help me because he contributed to the creation of those boys.I bet he didn't want to look like a coward and the bad guy t
~~Valerie I once read somewhere that it took a special kind of bravery to stay sober in a room full of drunk people. I was sitting before the makeshift bar in Adam's party, watching my friends take shot after shot of burning liquid from nameless bottles. I stared at their swaying, bleary-eyed form, wondering why anyone would want to subject themselves to that for an entire night and end up wasted in some random place, and wake up with severe hangovers. Stupid nineteen-year olds. I stared at the golden-colored liquid in my own glass. Apple juice was all the refreshment I needed. Maybe it wasn't bravery though. Maybe I was just being plain stupid and I should have enjoyed the night with my friends. Alcohol would have definitely helped me to survive the events of that night. "Bar!" Rendall, the one who was closest to me yelled and slammed an empty glass on the table, his eyes unfocused. "I mean...drink..." "Don't get too drunk, Rendall. You're the one driving us home." Cheryl slu
VALERIE~~I slowly peeled my eyes open, the morning sunlight filtering through the window and warming my face. I groaned and stretched my limbs, then turned to the side to avoid the glare of the sun, pulling the sheets with me. It took me several blinks and head scratching to realize that I was in Adam's bedroom, not mine. Wait, where was he? I sat up and looked around. The only indication that he had been in this room were his shirt and dress pants, which were slung over the back of a nearby chair. I looked down and realized I was utterly naked, the memory of the night before lingering in my mind. Then I smiled in satisfaction: for as long as I could remember, I had dreamed of waking up beside him, and now that dream had finally come true. The sheets smelled of him: that pure, aqua scent that had driven me nuts since I was thirteen years old and I'd finally discovered I had feelings for him. As I rose from the bed, a sense of eagerness filled my heart. Today would mark a new c
VALERIE~~My eyes burned with tears as I pushed myself into my silent home. It was one of the numerous things my parents had left for me before their death.The house was one I had grown to love and cherish. Even my friends, Analisse and Rendall admitted to how cool the building was but right now I'm alone and desolate in that very building which was once a lively place.I was totally clueless on what to do next. I can't possibly keep living here, around my friends after knowing the bitter truth but it wouldn't be easy trying to leave since the building was my parent's.I was still thinking about that when my phone beeped. It was a big announcement from the pack house. The Luna's coronation. My tears threatened to fall but I wasn't ready to give in to the torment.'I'll be fine on my own' I reassured myself as I gulped down a bottle of wine.My door suddenly barged open and a number of guards swam in, shocking me to the core."What the hell is going on?" I yelled but no one replied. T