LOGINI could still feel the front of his shirt against my forehead when I got to my desk, the faint pressure of it, the warmth. It didn't soften the irritation, and the irritation didn't cancel the wanting, so I carried both into the morning like two bags I couldn't put down. I wondered whether tonight would feel different now that he'd promised to stop arriving with the answer already wrapped.Claire found me before I'd finished my coffee. "Partner wants an extra pilot slot on Thursdays. They've asked twice.""Do we have the coverage?""I think we do," Claire said. "It's good for us, honestly. It shows demand, and it keeps the partner invested."Grace joined us on a call a few minutes later, and her voice was more careful. "I'd rather not say yes until I know the coordinator can take it without us thinning the backup on Fridays. We've stretched that before.""Can you find out?" I asked."She's in a session until noon. I'll ask her after.""Then I'll wait," I said, and I did not offer to g
"Yes," Damien said at last, quietly. "That's what I was going to do."I didn't answer, and he didn't ask me to. The silence went on long enough that I almost lay down with my back to him, and then I found I didn't want to. "Come here," I said, and he shifted close, his arm settling around me, and I let it stay. We still hurt, and we still wanted this much comfort, and neither of us pretended those two things cancelled each other out.Wednesday morning, I was crouched at the dresser searching for an earring while Damien stood a few feet away working a button through its hole. Neither of us had slept well, though we'd slept in the same bed, which felt like its own small answer. When I glanced up, he was watching me in the mirror, and the look lasted a second too long to be accidental. Heat moved through me, remembering the night before, and I turned back to the drawer before it could turn into anything."I've been thinking about why I did it that way," he said."I'd like to hear it.""Y
"By the end of that first week, I told them I intended to accept," Damien said, "if the practical terms could be made to work." He said it slowly, like a man setting something heavy down on a table between us. "Nothing's signed. It's conditional. But I gave them that answer.""And since then?""They've started preparing around it. Talking through how the work would be organized, who would report to me, what the first few months would look like." He winced faintly. "Not as if it's settled. As if it's likely."I understood the difference at once, and it sat badly in my chest. Exploring something was a man standing at a door. This was other people quietly arranging furniture on the other side of it, because he had told them he'd probably walk through.My fingers loosened around his without my deciding to. He noticed, and I watched him not tighten his grip, not pull me closer, not lean in to kiss the moment into something softer. He just let my hand stay where it was, resting against his,
"Two weeks," Damien said.I sat there with the sheet pulled up around me, the bed still warm from where we'd been tangled together, and let the number settle. Two weeks was not a lot of time, but it was exactly long enough to hold the cancelled restaurant, the sketchbook evening and the reception. He had known the whole time he was standing beside me under those lights, being admired for how well we managed."Two weeks," I repeated."They approached me first, and I said I'd consider it." He rubbed the back of his neck, something rueful and careful in the motion. "By the end of that week I'd agreed in principle."I thought of the sketchbook he'd handed me on the night I cancelled, how touched I'd been by the gift without knowing what he'd swallowed beneath it. Later he had told me the sentence he'd almost said, and he had still kept this one back. I did not think any of those moments had been false. I only wondered where he'd put it, all those days, while he handed me everything else.
He pulled me through the hallway, our fingers still laced, and I bumped into the doorframe laughing while trying to kiss him at the same time, which he found entirely too funny for a man who'd supposedly been devastated an hour earlier."You're hopeless," he said, catching my waist to steady me."You're the one who walks backward through doorways while kissing someone.""That seems like a skill, not a flaw.""It's a hazard," I said, and he kissed me again anyway, slower this time, both of us finally unhurried in a way we hadn't managed in days.We settled into bed tangled together, his arm heavy across my waist, and I fell asleep faster than I had all weekend, the particular exhaustion of relief rather than tension pulling me under. Tuesday morning arrived with sun through the curtains and Damien already half awake beside me, his hand finding mine before either of us had said a word."I have an idea," he said, voice still rough with sleep. "Tonight. No rescue mission, no apology dinne
"I want ordinary evenings," Damien said, finally, like the sentence had been sitting ready and heavy for weeks. "Nothing to celebrate, nothing to arrange. Just you, home, with nothing either of us is proving.""We have ordinary evenings.""We have fewer than I want, and I've been bad at saying so." He pressed his palms flat against the table, gathering himself. "I want to finish saying this before we're both too tired to listen. I wish you were home. Not qualified. Not followed by *but ignore me, go do what you need to do.* Just that, sitting there plainly.""You could have just said that.""I know. I'm saying it now." He glanced up, something exposed in his expression. "Saying go has always felt safer than risking what happens after I want you here."I started to answer, some reflex rising to reassure him immediately, and caught myself before the words fully formed, letting him keep going instead."I've kept work I didn't need to keep too," he continued. "Missed chances to leave earl







