ログインThe plane touched down at JFK and my stomach turned inside out.
Six years. Six years since I'd set foot in this city that had broken me. Since I'd run with nothing but a bag and Marcus's baby growing inside me.
"Mommy, look!" Lily pressed her face against the window. "Is this where Daddy lives? Does he fly like Superman or—"
Her voice faded into the background as my mind drifted somewhere else entirely to a week ago. To a man whose last name I didn't even know.
We'd exchanged numbers that night, and he'd been texting me ever since. Good morning messages, questions about my day, and even an invitation to dinner when I got to New York.
But I didn't reply to any of them.
Moving on felt too fast— too reckless. But God, I couldn't stop thinking about him. About the way he'd looked at me like I was the only woman in the room. The way his hands had felt on my body. The way he'd made me forget about the burden I carried on my shoulder.
"Mommy!" Lily tugged my sleeve. "You're not listening!"
I blinked and forced a smile. "Sorry, baby. What were you saying?"
"Mommy, can we get pizza?" Lily asked as we checked in.
"After we settle in." I grabbed her hand and walked her to the room we were assigned to.
Our room was nice, bigger and fancier than the room we had back in Manhattan. I unpacked while Lily bounced on her bed, still talking about superheroes. And soon after ordered room service and turned on cartoons, knowing that would distract her for a while.
My phone buzzed, and I saw it was a message from my assistant
‘Fashion week schedule confirmed. Friday, 8 PM. VIP guest list attached.’
I opened the attachment and scrolled through the names: Celebrities, Designers and even Investors.
Then I saw it.
*Blackwell Family - Reserved Front Row*
My blood turned ice cold. Oh no! This couldn't be happening!
But then I remembered. The Blackwells always attended fashion week. They sponsored half of the damn event. And suddenly felt so stupid for not remembering such an important detail.
But maybe Marcus wouldn't come— Maybe just his mother, or his brothers. Anyone but him. I could handle anyone but him.
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Friday arrived too fast. It felt like I hadn't gotten much time to prepare for what I thought was inevitable.
I stood backstage in my black silk dress, adjusting it for the hundredth time. My models had just finished their walk, and I heard the loud applause from the audience.
My stage manager touched my arm. "You're up, Ms. Thomas. It is time for your final walk.”
I nodded and gave him a grateful smile, stepping towards the curtain and then— I froze completely.
A man I knew all too well stood in the shadow. It was him. Those same blue eyes and strong broad shoulders.
James. The man I had a one-night stand with some days ago. He had come like he had promised in one of his texts.
Our eyes met, and he gave me a smile. My heart fluttered and I felt heat crawl up to my neck. I looked away quickly and stepped onto the runway before I would do something stupid.
I started my walk and I felt the stage light hit me, dragging all attention to me. Then I saw the front row.
The Blackwell family section.
Marcus's mother sat there, Natalia Blackwell. Those sharp eyes that had always made me feel small, shameful and pitiful.
It felt like time slowed down as she turned her head to me and her eyes widened— then she gasped so loud that people turned to stare at her.
I smiled and kept walking.
At least there was no Marcus. Even though deep inside my mind I felt something wasn't right. Like something was going to eventually happen. I pushed the thought behind my head and continued.
I had done it. I had just survived my first New York appearance without seeing him.
So I turned to walk back, my heels clicking on the shiny floor, before I turned the corner to my personal studio.
That's when I saw him. He was standing at the side of the entrance, his body tilted in an awkward manner as if he was trying to stay hidden in the shadows.
MARCUS BLACKWELL.
I could not stand there anymore, so I walked away fast. I stumbled slightly in my heels, but I didn't let myself fall. I continued to walk away. When I was close to my studio, I looked behind me and saw him rushing through the crowd, desperately trying to reach me.
"Ms. Thomas! The after-party—"
"Five minutes," I breathed heavily. "I just need fucking five minutes,” I snapped and slammed the door in my face.
He was here. Marcus was here. He'd seen me…he knew I was back.
My phone buzzed. It was an Unknown number.
Though I had changed my number, I wasn't surprised when I found out he was the one.
“We need to talk. Now.”
I stared at the message again and again, my hand clenching into fist.
Six years. Six years and he thought he could just text me like nothing happened.
“Aria!” He screamed. "Open the damn door. I know you're in there?"
I didn't move, and I couldn't even breathe. The room was spinning and I suddenly felt claustrophobic.
"Aria, I swear to God—" he pounded again.
"Sir." My assistant's voice sounded firm outside. “This area is restricted. You need to leave now!”
"I'm her fucking husband. She's my wife.
How dare he?! Had he forgotten that he had married me under a fake document. That he made sure the marriage was never real.
"Liar," I called through the door.
Then something snapped in me, I was tired of hiding. I was tired of feeling scared of people who only wanted me to be beneath them. Not anymore.
He didn't own me now. So I stood up and walked to the door, his eyes widening in shock when he saw me.
“Aria,” his voice came out soft— almost pleading.
“Leave,” I spat as I glared at him hard, my cold sharp voice showing how disgusted I felt with his presence. “You have no business here, Marcus. Leave!”
"Pl– please. I just need five minutes. I need to know where you've been— if you're okay."
I choked out a bitter laugh, throwing my head to the back before I looked up at him again. “Why?” I stepped closer to him, my eyes narrowed. “Six years, Marcus. You had six years to know if I was okay. Or did you lose count?”
“You want to know how I am? Or do you just want to know if I'm still capable of being your breeding machine so you and your mistress can have a stress free life?” I snapped.
He flinched and sucked in a breath. “You heard that conversation.”
The Paris order shipped on a Tuesday. Thirty-two pieces, each one cut around the water marks or with the tide lines stitched into the design on purpose. I signed off on the final box and pressed my palm against the cardboard like I could send a message through it. This is what surviving looks like. This is what staying looks like.Tayo took a photo of me doing it and sent it to the group chat with the caption: Boss sending love to France. I rolled my eyes, but I saved the photo. Proof for the days I forgot.That night I couldn’t sleep. Not from panic. From the quiet that came after a storm. The studio was empty for the first time in weeks. No fans. No interns. No orders to fill. Just me and the hum of the fridge and the weight of a week I’d been holding up.James found me at the cutting table at midnight, running my fingers over the leftover blue silk. The scraps too small for dresses but too big to throw away. “You’re thinking loud again,” he said from the doorway. “Old habit,” I
The fans at the studio ran for three days straight. A low, steady roar that got into my dreams and made me wake up thinking I was still mopping water off the cutting table. By Thursday the floor was dry, the air didn’t smell like mildew anymore, and the restoration guys said we’d gotten lucky. “Lucky” still meant two weeks behind schedule and a Paris buyer who’d already emailed twice asking for updates.I answered the emails at 2 AM, short and honest. There was a flood. We lost some pieces. The collection will be late, but it will be worth the wait. I hit send before I could delete it and rewrite it ten times. That was new too. Not apologizing for things I couldn’t control.James slept on the couch at the studio the first night because I couldn’t stand being there alone. The second night he convinced me to come home. “The fans are loud, Aria. You need actual sleep, not the kind where you’re half listening for pipes to burst.” He was right. I slept eight hours for the first time in wee
The morning after came soft. No alarms. No emails. Just light through the blinds and James already in the kitchen, moving quiet so he wouldn’t wake me. I heard the kettle click off and smelled coffee, then toast. Burnt, like always.I pulled on his hoodie from the chair and walked out barefoot. “You’re up early,” I said. He turned with a plate in his hand. Half the toast was black. The other half was just pale. “I was trying to get it right,” he said, setting it down. “Failed.”I sat at the table and took a bite anyway. Still tasted like him. “You don’t have to cook,” I told him. “I know,” he said, pouring me coffee. “I want to. You let me handle dinner last night. Fair trade.”Lily would’ve rated it a three out of ten. I gave it a seven, just to make him smile. He did, quick and real, then sat across from me with his own mug. No phone. No TV. Just the sound of the street below and us not filling the silence.My phone buzzed. Tayo. Studio flooded. Pipe burst. We’re moving
The apartment was quiet when I got home. Too quiet. Lily was at her dad’s for the weekend, so there were no shoes by the door, no half-finished drawing on the table. Just the hum of the fridge and the city outside the window. I dropped my bag and stood there for a second, not sure what to do with my hands.James looked up from the couch. He’d been reading, but the book was closed in his lap now. “You’re early,” he said. “Traffic was light,” I lied. Traffic was never light. I just couldn’t stand the studio anymore. Too many eyes, too many questions about the new collection.He stood and came over, not touching me at first. He knew. He always knew. “Bad day?” “Long day,” I said. Then, because he was waiting, “They want me to explain the inspiration again. Like I owe them a reason for making clothes that don’t make women feel small.”James nodded. He didn’t try to fix it. He just said, “You want to talk about it, or you want me to make pasta and we don’t talk?”I almost laughed.
Forever started looking different once we stopped waiting for it to end, it looked like mornings where the coffee was still terrible but James made it anyway and Lily rated it one to ten every single time like she was a judge on a cooking show, it looked like Luminère’s new studio with windows that let the sun in all day and fabric hanging from the ceiling like we lived inside a dream we’d sewn ourselves, it looked like me not checking my phone for bad news first thing because bad news didn’t own my mornings anymore, joy did, and joy was louder now. The “After After” sketch became a whole collection faster than I expected because once you start designing from peace instead of pain the ideas don’t stop, they just flow, soft knits that felt like being held, dresses with hidden pockets for notes and keys and courage, pieces in blue because blue was the color of the first stitch Lily and James gave me and now it was the color of us, and when it launched women sent me videos of themselves
Two years after Paris and the world still hadn’t forgotten my name, but I had finally forgotten how to be afraid of it, and that made all the difference because when you stop flinching at your own shadow you start noticing the light, and the light was everywhere, in Luminère’s new studio space that was three times bigger but still smelled like thread and Lily’s crayons, in the way James now had his own chair at the cutting table even though he swore he wasn’t “part of the business,” in the way Lily had grown three inches and lost her front tooth and decided she wanted to be a designer too because “Mama makes people feel brave and I want to do that.” The “Home” collection dropped and it wasn’t loud, it wasn’t trying to prove anything, it was just honest, soft fabrics and clean lines and that one blue stitch at every hem so the women who wore it would know someone thought about them while they were making it, and the orders came in slower than Dubai but steadier, from women who wrote l
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