A V E L I N AChristian didn't answer any of my calls. Neither did he reply to any of my messages. It was obvious that he was ignoring me.It's been a month.A month since I saw Lorenzo. A month since he left and went back to New York. A month since I told him to leave me for good.He still calls. To check on the kids. At least, that was the only good thing I could do for him. I never let him hear my voice or see my face. Once he was done talking to the kids, I end the call immediately.The kids couldn't go a day without talking to him. Even Zion had warmed up to him and would always speak to him about his day or the new friends he made.I was at the grocery store with Zion and Autumn when a man with his children passes. He carried his two kids and got whatever they pointed at. My heart squeezed as I watched my children's expression.It wasn't because I couldn't get for them whatever they wanted, it was the realization that they had never and would never have this type of relationship
A V E L I N AI saw a car parked as I drove into the front porch of my house. I didn't need anyone to tell me whose it was. It was Christian's car. I parked my car next to his, turned off the engine and stepped out. Christian was in a casual outfit, a dark blue polo and a washed light blue jean. He had on a face cap too.I stood in front of him with a slight smile, "Hi." I said, unsure of the mood he came in."I'm sorry about the other day." He said and I shook my head."No, I'm sorry. I should be the one apologizing to you. I can't imagine the humiliation I put you through. It wasn't intentional, Chris.""I know, I know. It isn't easy to get over your ex who you once loved. I guess I was expecting better from you but I still can't judge you. People make mistakes. Which is why I came back. I like you, Avelina. From the moment I saw you walking aimlessly on the street, I knew I was interested in you. But you had an aura of a broken woman. One who's lost her purpose. Then, I saw you an
A V E L I N A I couldn't sleep.After I hung up, I felt an emptiness inside of me. I had made a big mistake. A huge one.Christian was a nice guy and all, but I couldn't be with him. He wasn't the man who made me happy. The man who was able to bring a smile to my face. He wasn't Lorenzo.Lorenzo, he was my everything. He was my reason for living. And I hated myself for not realizing that earlier.I grabbed my phone and dialled his number. I wanted him. Needed him. To feel his arms around me and have him whisper sweet nothings into my ear.But my calls went straight to voicemail. Maybe this was a sign. Maybe it was meant to happen.Tears fell down my cheeks and I sobbed quietly, wishing things were different.My life would never be the same without Lorenzo in it.I loved him.With all my heart.But it was too late.Too late for me to realize what we had.Too late for us.I was going to move on.I had to.It was the only way to live a happy life.A happier life without him.But it's a
A V E L I N ACarina and I waited for the doctor's appointment. She was sitting in front of me, playing with her phone while I was biting on my nails, deep in thought.I was so nervous, and the feeling made me feel nauseous. I hadn't told anyone, but the last time I was pregnant, the morning sickness was awful. It was almost unbearable.And the worst thing about it, was the fact that it stayed for the entire nine months. I couldn't keep food in my stomach, and when I tried, the food just wouldn't stay in.I had to be in the hospital for a week, we all feared that I was going to lose the twins. I hoped this baby was going to be different, but knowing my luck, I wouldn't be so lucky.I didn't even know what the gender was, but it would be great if the baby was a girl. But, did I even want to keep this child to begin with?I had no idea.Everything was a mess."Hey." I looked up and saw Carina looking at me with a frown. "You shouldn't worry. It's going to be fine.""I know, I know.""Th
A V E L I N ALaying in bed, the picture in my hand and the test results in the other.I didn't know what to do.What was I supposed to do?This was the best decision, but, at the same time, I was scared. I didn't want another child.But, I had no choice. I didn't have a choice. A week had passed and I was yet to make a decision.I didn't know what to do. I couldn't. I was scared. I had to. I was conflicted. But, the answer was clear. I didn't have a choice.My mind made up, I stood from the bed and walked into the closet to look for clothes. After putting on my clothes, I picked up my phone and dialed the doctor's number, she picked at the third ring."Hello?""Will it be okay to come now?""Oh yes, Avelina." She said after few seconds. It might have been my head, but I thought I heard a hint of disappointment in her tone but nonetheless, she kept her professionalism. "Of course. When can I expect you here?""I'll be there soon. Thank you.""It's nothing. Take care, Ms. Marquez.""Yo
A V E L I N AThe next four months flew by in a blur and I had managed to hide my pregnancy from the whole world.Not even a rumor of me being pregnant had slipped. I had earlier thought hiding a pregnancy as a public figure would be hard but my baby had also cooperated by not showing.Well until my fifth month which was the second month of my second trimester. I was currently standing in front of my full body mirror in my closet as I stared at my baby bump in just my bra which was barely fitting anymore and panties and wondered how I was going to fit in any of my clothes without showing anymore. My belly has literally grown overnight. Autumn started at my reflection in the mirror and looked back at me. "Mummy, you're so huge." She said, her small eyes widening as she placed her little hands on my bump.I didn't have the heart to get offended at my daughter's insinuating of being fat. Of course.Little children never had filters.It always be your own kids, for real."Baby sister is
A V E L I N AAs soon as I arrived home, Carina noticed my change of mood and she immediately rushed over to ask me what was wrong."Nothing.""Tell me what happened. Did that old bitch mess with you?""She was a fucking bitch and I'm glad she decided not to work with me. Can you believe she asked me if I was pregnant? Like how the fuck does she even know? Aren't I hiding it enough? I feel so fat.""You're not fat. You're pregnant.""Exactly. Pregnant! Do you have any idea how many people would judge me for being pregnant while being a single mother of two toddlers?""Who cares? People who aren't in your shoes have no right to judge you. And if they do, then fuck them!"I laughed, "Yes, fuck them. But the world would be a better place if those people didn't exist.""Agreed. Come on, let's get you out of this dress. Your kids are playing with their nanny, they're safe."Carina dragged me back upstairs and helped me out of my dress. "This is so comfortable." I told her, putting on a whi
A V E L I N AEverything felt sore, like I'd been hit by a truck. My body hurt so bad, my head felt like someone was banging a hammer inside of it.When I opened my eyes, I was in a bed, a very uncomfortable bed. My eyes wandered around and I realized that I was in a hospital. "What the hell?""Mommy, you're awake." It was Autumn, my sweet little girl."Sweetheart, are you okay? What happened?""The doctors said you were not feeling fine, so they brought you here."I was still trying to figure out what was happening. "Where's your brother?""He's in the cafeteria, eating pizza. He's with Aunt Carina.""Can you go call them for me?" I asked, rubbing my temples to ease the throbbing pain in my head.Autumn nodded and ran off."What the fuck is going on?""Good afternoon, Ms. Marquez. My name is Dr. Jameson, I'm your doctor.""I don't remember calling for a doctor. What the hell is going on?""Your friend called and had you brought here."I immediately started panicking, as i touched my