Standing by the window, I take in the city below me, my city. People think men rule, that men are the only ones to strike fear through people. They always underestimate me. I laugh to myself at the thought. I was brought up to rule, to take over. While my father wanted a son, everything was left to me, and I have done nothing but prove to him that a woman can rule and ensure everything goes well.
My head falls forward, and this world isn't what it was before. My father retired, and things changed, but not as much as in the last few months with him gone entirely. Death took him, and for some reason, when people hear of his death, they fight me. They think I will crack and become weak; instead, I stood taller, stronger and fought back just as hard, if not harder.
Yet, I can't stop the feeling of hate. I hate myself for how I am and for the things I have done. This world is a man's world, or at least a woman without remorse because every time I cause blood to drop, it burns me inside. I hate myself. I have no choice, though. If I don't fight them, if I don't punish their behaviour, they will take over the city, my dad's city. My. City!
"Miss."
I spin around, hearing the voice. "Yes?" I look at Dwayne as he smiles at me.
He steps farther into the room. "Mr Lewis is refusing to answer."
I sigh. I thought I could go a day without the hassle, clearly not. "Mr Lewis, who is he?" I can't remember, how can I? There are too many people in this city for me to remember everyone, what they owe and how they act.
"He owns a small garage, biker guy. He has missed three payments." Dwayne explains, stepping closer to me. His eyes looking across my body, I swear these guys are sickening. Every time and the amount of times I have had to show my power by breaking fingers is stupid. They need to keep their eyes off me.
"Bring him in. Find him and bring him in." I haven't met Mr Lewis, and while I am a fool to think it, maybe he doesn't realise I took over from my father? That the debt is still there to be paid?
"If he refuses?" Dwayne asks.
I roll my eyes. Is he that stupid? "He doesn't get to refuse. It isn't a question, Dwayne, and he comes with you. No arguments." Moving, I sit at the desk. I watch as he leaves, my eyes glancing at George and Sam. "You two leave me for a bit. Stand outside, and I don't care. Just leave the room and close the blinds on your way out." I watch as they nod and close the blinds before leaving.
I hate having guards. I know I need them. If I die, no one is left to take over, and everyone will be fighting to be that top person. The police will start to gain back control, and then everything will change. No one thinks of that, though. They see it as once I am gone, they can rule, but to rule, they need my estate, to own this city. Without that, they are nothing, and the police will throw them away. Without the immunity I give them, they would be locked up.
My head falls back as I just relax in the perfect silence of the office. I am preparing myself for what is to come. The moment when I have to stand up to this Mr Lewis and force him to realise that while I am a woman, I am not a fool and won't be taken for granted. Force may be needed, and I need to be prepared because that is something I hate. If they see that weakness in my eyes when I try to torture someone or hurt them, they won't see me as their leader anymore.
No, I will be nothing more than a woman, like my mother was. No respect, not real respect. She only got the respect because of my father, because of who he was. Without him, she had no respect. I have earnt it myself. I have saved people from debt and given them a lifeline which is still debt but helps them keep their homes or business. I have ensured people get the message when they do the wrong thing. I take the money from businesses every month, and you could say I am The Sheriff of Nottingham, like from Robin Hood. I take from all the businesses just as my father did, for them having immunity and the life of living in this town.
I'm not that bad, though. I don't go to the old man's house and take his pension, and I don't go knocking on that mum's door who has pennies and take her money, purely business. Whether they are legal or illegal, everyone pays me for having a business in my city. Moreso if it is illegal and they need immunity. I got respect by doing things my father's way, but that immunity I offer runs out when someone forgets to pay, stands up against me, or does something stupid. I remove that immunity, the police take them, and I take their businesses.
I didn't want this life, but when my father kept saying how I could never do this because I am a woman, I swore I would. Just to prove him wrong, only I signed up for a life sentence. A life sentence I have no way out of until I have children and they grow, hopefully, a boy, because while I can do everything, and I am. I agree. No woman should do this. It is brutal, and all I can think of every time I wipe another person from this planet is that they have just left behind their children, wife, parents. I caused it, and I could show mercy but showing mercy is showing weakness.
I throw down the spanner, annoyed, the smell of grease flooding through me. I quit for today. I can't do it. Sitting down, I lean against the car."Fancy a ride?"I laugh without even looking up to Rooster. "No. This shit needs sorting. You heard from him yet?" I look up now."Nothing, disappeared once you took care of that Graham dude. I guess he left the city." Rooster laughs."No one fucks with Roosters, daughter. At least now they will know." They don't! I have known Rooster since I left school. He is fifteen years older than me. His daughter is stunning, a beauty but dumb as shit and always going for those guys who use her."Cheers for that, by the way." He says while looking at me."No thanks needed." I did what was needed. He couldn't. One swipe of his leg, and he would have been a dead man. If it weren't for his prosthetic leg, I would have told him to deal with it. I couldn't, though. I watched as little Jessie ran throu
I sit waiting, and they seem to be taking a while, and I have to wonder if this Mr Lewis guy is putting up a fight? I open the file we have on him, and it seems like he stopped all payments once he realised my father had died.Yet he still used his immunity, killing a guy and walking free. So he uses the immunity I give and then refuses to pay? I sit and read his file. It is interesting. While his garage is legal, he does a lot that isn't legal. He needs us to keep him out of prison, to keep him having immunity.Hopefully, just the threat of removing that immunity will make him pay up and behave. He is only twenty-five, yet he has grown in his city a lot. He has connections, from what I can see, connections to many people and businesses.Why would he not pay? Was it simply because he believed now my father had died, no one would bother him? Did he know I took over and just sees me as a weak female? That is one belief I will need to destroy if he does
I stand looking at her waiting. She says it is to watch me, yet her eyes were clearly checking me out. Lingering all too long on my body as she straddled me with that damn blade pushed against my neck. As she forgot her plan, her body had pushed closer to mine, the blade digging deeper."I felt privileged Miss Pierce, for a moment there I thought you wanted to be around me more." I smile at her as I step forward. "Wanted more than just me to pay off what I owe." I step forward again, god she teased me."You have it wrong. Money by tomorrow, and check in every few days. It was nice to see you, Mr Lewis, hopefully, next time it is on better terms and not me having to get someone to drag you here." She stands looking at me like she is waiting for me to leave.I step forward until I am in front of her. "Something tells me you would enjoy dragging me back here. That you enjoy me pushing you until you feel like you have to go to the extreme to prove you're not w
I'm there. Right back there seeing her above me. Feeling her grind against me. She is a fucking tease. One I need to fuck, even just once."Right here Diesel, you could have me right here and now." I hear Jessie's words and feel her body pushing towards mine. "Look at me Diesel, I dare you to." Her words are tempting. "You could always fuck me and imagine I am her." I keep my eyes closed, still seeing her there. Seeing the look in her eyes, hearing that small moan that escaped her mouth."DIESEL!" I open my eyes to see Jessie stood naked, shit. "Are you still going to refuse? You have me here naked right now, to fuck."Maybe it is a foolish move? But she is in my head and won't leave, and Jessie, well she just keeps throwing herself at me naked. Moving, I slam her against the wall, my lips attacking hers as I moan. My hands feel across her body and this is so fucked up. Fucked up because in my head I see her, I see her above me, the blade, I don't see J
I watch as he walks out of my office. What the hell was that? I stay standing, staring at the chair where he had sat. The chair where for some reason he got a reaction from me. He made me want him. By what?I look at the chair considering it. He did nothing diferent to the other guys. Many acted like him, so why did I feel like that? All I can come to is thinking it is him. He is the reason. I don't need to check on him as long as I get that payment tomorrow. So why did I tell him to ensure he checks in every few days?Part of me knows it is because I want to see him again, I want to touch him, fuck me. Which is crazy. No man can come into this life. All the men will see this as fun, a way to gain power and take power from me.I won't stand down or become my mother. I don't want that. This is my city and I know most men will walk into here and a relationship and take over. They will expect me to sit quietly and do as I am told and nothing more.No, I want
I wave to the guy as he drives the shitty car out of my garage. Grateful it is gone. After yesterdays events today I just want a quiet day. I sit back in the seat and relax. Work is quiet, or kind of. "Hey, you got it?" I look towards Dean and nod. "Yes, shut the door." He closes it and walks farther in. "This is the location to collect it from. Here are the keys. Had a fresh paint, licence plates changed, heres the docs." I hand him the keys and papers. "Ten k right?" He looks at me. "That is what we agreed for the car." He places the envelope down and walks out. It's a side business, kind of. I have a guy working for me outsidde the city. He takes a car, I clean it up, refresh it and sell it. They know it is stolen but ten k for a decent car that would cost ten times that is a good deal. I get to work on fixing the car that was brought in this morning. Hours passing as I do. My mind goes to Serena. I hear his bike first, then his boots stomp
I sit and look at the screen. He paid, but he paid less than he was meant to. Why? I feel annoyed, maybe because it means now I have to find him. Sure I can send some guards to get him and bring him back but that clearly didn't work last time.So, this time I will go. I find myself working most of the day, most people have heard about Sam so they are all too eager to agree and pay. It means I barely have to threaten anyone, which is great because I know Mr Lewis will put up a fight.Why not pay? That is what I don't understand. If he didn't have enough why not say that when he was here? The only reason I can find or think of is he is trying to push me, does he want a reaction?I watch as Dwayne walks in."She brought a baby." He looks at me and is clearly pissed off."And? I don't see the issue, why is that an issue?""She should know to come alone. She brought the baby as a way to try protect herself." He stands clearly annoyed."Oh,
Waking, I roll over to find my bed empty. Just like always, Mel has this thing where she dissapears before I wake. It kind of confirms that this is nothing more than sex. I climb out of bed and walk to the kitchen, the empty bottles laid on the kitchen side.That is strange, normally she grabs them as she leaves. Shaking it off I walk to the bathroom, I don't remember last night. I do, actually. I remember the resturant, Serena's eyes on me as I came.I remember so much of that, then we got back here, drank, and spoke. Then nothing. I laugh slightly. Maybe drinking that much was the wrong thing. It's Sunday, so today I will just sit and relax.I hear the knocking and groan, or not relax. Walking to the door I open it and watch as Rooster walks in. I watch as he throws himself down on the ctair. His foot tapping, I have a bad feeling about this.I go to close the door and it gets stopped, I look up and see Jessie. Okay, was I that drunk I did something, me