INTRODUCTION

ASHER my husband was on his knees crying as he begged me not to leave.

It feels like my heart is pounding in pain but I shouldn't show him that I am not affected. But the truth is I wanted to hug him and comfort him.

I will do this for our own good so that he will not get hurt more. I don't want to do this but I need to. I don't want him to get hurt because of what happened to me. I know he will be mad at me after this but I will accept the consequences. Or I want now right now is for him to be happy.

"Ashley, please don't leave me."

"I am sorry, Asher, but my decision is final. Please set me free."

"I love you more than anything. You are the woman that I love and I promise to be the last. If I did something, if I hurt you, if you didn't like something on me, please, forgive me. Ash, from now on I will tell you every move I make. I will let you know everything I do so that you will not be angry with me."

I hold my tears because I don't want him to see me affected. I need to be tough, to be strong in front of him. I knelt down to match him so we can face to face each other.

"It's not your fault, Asher. It's my fault because I defiled my marriage during the times you were away," I said and smile bitterly.

"W-what do you mean?" he asked as he continued to cry. "What did you do?" I need to do this. This is the only way I know so he can accept our separation.

"I cheated on you while you were away and I found someone else better than you." I don't want to hurt him but I need to because once he finds out the real reason why I leave, he will feel more pain. I don’t want him to blame himself for why he left me and choose to prioritize work. So, I will sacrifice my dignity as much as I can even if he thinks differently about me.

"Why?" He asked and I feel his pain when he spoke that words. "Where did I go wrong?"

"Nothing is wrong with you. Let us say that because I've been free while you're gone. I'm sorry, but I realized that I want to be free again. To be former Ashley Lewis so let's end this. Set me free so I can be happy."

"I will still accept you," he said then held my hand. "You will still be free and I will let you do whatever you want as long as you stay by my side. I will forget this night that I found out everything you did. That you cheated on me. I don't care about what happened. I just want you to be with me." He begged but I shook my head.

"I'm no longer happy with you."

"Ashley."

"I feel that you cannot provide for all my needs. You have no warmth for me and I am no longer happy with you in bed. You're lame, I am not satisfied." Then I stand up but he grabbed my legs and hug while crying.

"Please, Ashley, I am begging you. Please don't leave me." I shook my feet to remove his hands and walked towards the door. But I immediately stopped when he spoke.

"Ash," he calls me in a serious tone. "When you walk out on that door just think that you left me dead." I looked at Asher who was clenching his fist tightly and looking at me seriously. "Once you leave me, you have nothing to return to." I glanced at him and wanted to hug him and tell him the truth. But I chose not to listen to him anymore and I headed out.

"I will, and goodbye."

Forgive me, Asher, when I loved you, I promised that you will be the last.

But I did not know that I would be given such a test like this and destiny wants us to separate.

You are the only one I love, and I knew that no one can replace you.

But I can’t afford to see you get hurt because of me. Someday you will forget me too and you will understand my choices.

I wished you happiness, thank you for loving me, and GOODBYE.