Chapter 13.

I packed him a bag for the hospital and even as I helped him get dressed I felt as if I should be on my knees apologising for disrespecting his wishes. It was in me to obey, I felt at home and in my rightful place obeying the man I loved. And although common sense was screaming at me that I had done the right thing, when he told me to stay at home and wait for his return I felt like I was already being punished. He kissed me goodbye and said he would call me soon. Then the woman who I had felt so jealous of drove him away and I was left alone with guilt that only a submissive could understand. Yes, I had helped him. But I had also failed him because he had said, do not call that number. I knew deep down that he understood and in the end would probably have called her himself, but it was in me totally to obey and I had broken that. It was simmering away like an ache and only Jonny could make that pain go away with his forgiveness. We subs do not like making decisions when they question