I almost lost it when Zan called to tell me Ryan had been in accident. The moment he said, all I could hear was my heart beating over time. And when I saw her laying on that hospital bed it’s like my life stopped and nothing else mattered. Seeing her cry broke my heart, she’s under my skin and when she feels pain I feel it ten times more.
I knew from the day we reconnected she would turn my world upside down. I hoped I could Stay away from her but if the past week is any indication staying away from her is going to be incredibly hard.
I pull up to Ryan’s apartment complex, I need to get her a change of clothes for when I pick her up later today. Fortunately, the first responders were able to retrieve her personal items from the scene. Her car is totalled but nothing else was lost. I shudder at how wrong all of this could have gone, the guy that hit her jumped a red light and slammed into her. How she got out of this with a few scratches is beyond me. And of course, Zan is manic, he’s been calling me nonstop since last night. I had to calm him down, he was frantic talking about taking a 3 three hour drive here at night. He was in no shape to drive I get his fear. If it was one of my siblings I would have lost it.
I get out of my car and walk to her apartment, I hesitate slightly at the door. I haven’t been here since she kicked me out. I feel all the anger and frustration of that night resurface, I close my eyes for a second to steady my heart. Today is not about that, she needs someone to take care of her. I unlock the door and walk through the door. I walk into the living room and my eyes collide with the sofa. I take a deep breath and look away. I walk into her bedroom and her scent hits me hard. I look around at the airy room. The windows let in so much light. The whole room is littered with live plants, the green blending in with the muted pinks, earthy browns and oranges. Everything has its place, everything is colour-coordinated. It's all a little bit OCD but calming. I walk to her closet retrieve an overnight bag and look for something she can wear. Sweats and pyjamas will do, she needs to be comfortable. I go to the bathroom and add her toiletries. Her organization is a plus, I locate her skin and body care products and take those. I get what I need and get out. I don’t want to linger in her space, I need to remind myself that she doesn’t want me. I need to keep my distance, I don’t think I can take her rejection again. I leave her apartment and head to the hospital.
“Hi,” I say, she turns away from the window and looks at me. She looks at the overnight bag in my hand.
“Hi,” she says sitting up.
“I went to your apartment to get you a change of clothes,” I say pointing to the bag, I walk into the room and place the bag on the bed.
“So thoughtful of you, I appreciate it” she says looking at me with the same look she did when she saw me last night. She takes in a breath and looks at her for a moment. I can see her fighting the emotions, I want to hug her, hold her and tell her everything is going to be okay but all I can do is back up. I can’t take her pushing me away, so I stay away. It kills me to her deal with all of this by herself but.
“It’s no trouble, let’s get you out of here,” I say after a moment of silence.
“Yeah,” she says in a whisper.
It takes her a while to change from the hospital robe into the clothes I brought her. She opens the door to the private bathroom as I am about to stand and check on her.
“All done,” she says when she gets out, I can tell she’s a little breathless from the effort of putting the clothes on but I keep that observation to myself. The doctor walks in at that moment, she lets her know what side effects to look out for at home and that if anything goes wrong we should come back immediately.
I help her deal with the discharge paperwork and a few minutes later we’re in my car.
“ I’m taking you to my place so I can be able to keep an eye on you. I would take you to your place but I have some work commitments and I need to be at home” I say before we can leave the hospital parking lot.
“Oh, Gabe. I didn’t even think about your job. I’m keeping you from doing whatever, I’m so sorry” she says looking stressed out. Which wasn’t my intention, I only said that so she wouldn’t freak out when I didn’t take her home.
“No you’re not keeping me from anything, I have everything sorted, I just need to be home so I can connect with my team. I just wanted to let you in on the plan.” I say hoping that that’s explanation enough.
“Really you don’t need to worry about me, I can get myself home. Get an Uber or something. You don’t have to disrupt your life for me” she says reaching for the door handle, she starts breathing hard like she’s trying not to cry.
“Ryan,” I say her name and touch her hand to calm her down. She turns and looks at me. “Let’s get you home, you need to sleep. We’ll talk about this later. Okay?” I say hoping she won’t fight me. I need her to just let me take care of her. I don’t have the strength to argue with her and not to mention Zan would kill me if he found out I left her alone. The reason he’s not here right now is because I told him I would be there for her.
“Okay,” she says when she sees the look on my face. I haven’t slept so I’m a little off. We drive to my house in silence. She just needs to sleep and I need to work for a few hours and the world will readjust. When we get to my house she’s sleeping in the passenger seat. I touch her and call her name so she can wake but she doesn’t come to. The doctor did say the painkillers were strong and they would knock her out. I carry her out of the car and straight to my bed. I gently place her on the bed, I’m tempted to kiss her soft lips but I don’t. I force myself to straighten up and walk away.
As soon as I walk out of the room my phone rings its Zan
“Hey” I answer
“She hasn’t called me yet” is his answer, he’s stressed all the way out
“The doctor gave her something really strong for the pain. She’s out.” I say getting to the point, when Zan is in a bad mood he doesn’t like long pointless answers.
“I should be there, she’s alone. The whole family is way over here. I should have gotten into my car and got to her last night” he says more to himself than me.
“Look, trust me. I wouldn’t tell you to stay home if something is seriously wrong. I wouldn’t do that to you but this is your sister. I got you and I got her. She just needs to sleep and rest for today and tomorrow we’ll drive home. I’ll get her to you safely. Trust me” I say trying to get him to see reason.
“I know you got me, I just hate that she’s alone” he says after a moment of silence.
“She’s not alone” I say meaning every word.
I wake up with a startle, my heart is beating so fast I place my hand on my chest to calm myself. I was dreaming about the accident, only this time I got hurt so bad. I look around the room trying to figure out where I am. The last thing I remember is Gabriel picking me up from the hospital, the rest is nothing. I lay in the bed for a few minutes waiting for my heart beat to back to normal. I take my surroundings in, the big king size bed. All the white linen and the royal blue headboard. The room is painted in a faded blue or is it green? I don’t know what colour it is but it’s calming. The floor to ceiling windows have white drapes and the is huge. In front of the bed is a fireplace and to the left of the fire place is a sitting area with books on a side table. To the right of the fireplace is a door, I look at it wondering if it’s the bathroom. I need to go and I’m hungry. I haven’t had anything to eat since lunch yesterday. The hospital food was bad. I only ate the fruit and now m
Ryan is sitting across from me in my living room. If you had told me this would happen a week ago I would have probably punched you in the face. The pain of her kicking me out still lingers, two minutes before she said those words I was deep inside her wet, tight pussy. My cock hardens at the thought. She moves uncomfortably in her seat, I realize I’m staring at her. I look away, I don’t want to feel like she’s not welcome or safe here. “How do you feel” I say breaking the silence. “I feel so much better, the pain killers are really helping me with the body pains.” she says smiling slightly. “You look better” I say looking at her thinking of last night. My heart skips at the memory of the look on her face when she saw me. The pain that was all over her face and the fact that she was relieved to see me showed how scared she was. “I had a rough night, again thank you for being there for me. I really do appreciate you for that” she says looking sad again I hate when she feels sad, I
I shift uncomfortably in the passenger seat in Gabriel’s car. I was successful in avoiding him the whole morning. I woke up early and went to my apartment to pack, for a few hours I could think and last night’s conversation was all I could think about. I can’t believe I told him about my dreams, it felt good to let it all out. But now that we’re stuck in this car together, it doesn’t seem like it was a good idea. I look to his side to steal a look, he’s concentrating on the road. He looks so comfortable and in control but then again he always looks like he has it all sorted. His long fingers are wrapped around the steering wheel. I flash to the night we slept together, how he grabbed my ass hard. His blatant want written all over his face. I sigh and pull at the seat belt. “Are you okay?” he says looking and I remember where I am. “Are you uncomfortable?” he asks concerned. “Yeah, I’m good” I answer looking to my side at him. “Maybe we should have flown home” he says and looks his
“So what happened with Gabriel” my sister asks me, she leans over the garden chair next to mine,. A look of glee plastered on her face. It’s 11 o’clock and the evening air is so cool. Dinner was interesting I spent over an hour avoiding eye contact with my mother. I’m sure she heard what I said to Rose but she didn’t bring it up. All through dinner I kept my attention on my niece and nephew, they kept me entertained us with stories about school and adventures they have with their friends. We’re sitting in the backyard, we’re surrounded by flowers and shrubs. It reminds me of Gabriel’s garden. This one is significantly smaller but it gives me the same feels I had when I was there. I realize I want to be there right now, I want to be there with him. Those few minutes we spent in his greenhouse were amazing. It’s only sad that I didn’t feel it in that moment. Am I one of those people that I need a master class on how to be more present? “He fucked my brains out” I say leaning close to
The house is bustling with people, the caterers, and decorators came in at 8 in the morning. I’ve been up since 6, and the conversation I had with Rose is on repeat. I can hear my mother talking to people about where things go and what to do. She loves planning parties as much as I do, I would have helped out but past experience has taught all of us to get out of her way with stuff like this. Like she always says “just look beautiful and show up for the party. I got this”. The whole family is coming today, Zan with his girlfriend and Rea and Rena with their significant others. Rose’s husband will be here as well, I’ll be the only one going stag. I get up from my bed and look out the window, the garden I was sitting in last night is now covered with a see-through tent. The middle of the tent has a square dance floor and the workmen are placing long tables around the dance floor. The whole party will be held inside the garden, the garden itself is the decoration. When the sun sets the w
My heart is beating over time as I listen to the phone ring. On the third ring I think about disconnecting the call but he picks up. “Ryan” Gabriel says on the other end of the receiver. “Hi, do you want to hang out?” I blurt out afraid, I’ll chicken out and hang up. “Uhm…sure.” He says after a brief pause. “What did you have in mind?” he asks. “Honestly, I don’t have a clue. Do you have any ideas?” I say relieved he didn’t reject me. I know I don’t deserve his kindness. “Well… Do you have a bikini?” he asks and I can hear the excitement in his voice. “Do you have an ocean hidden somewhere?” I ask confused. We’re in Limpopo. “I’ll pick you up in 30 minutes.” He says ending the call. I don’t have swimwear but I take gym shorts I can pass off ass swimwear. The kind that ride up so far up the butt, you can’t possibly go to the gym in. I pack a nice bra and add a few cosmetic items. I add sunscreen, I don’t want to burn. 30 minutes later he’s outside my house. Fortunately, I’m alon
He looks at me for what feels like an eternity. His eyes move from mine to my lips, and his breathing deepens. I see the raw lust in his eyes then he starts to pull away from me. I wrap my legs around his waist and move him even closer to me. I move in and kiss him gently. He opens his mouth and moans into mine. Our tongues touch and my whole body feels like it’s charged. I close my eyes and kiss him. He starts to float us around the pool. I smile and feel his smile too. After a while, I raise my head and look at this beautiful man. “I want to have sex with you,” I say and his eyes go wide with excitement. “But,” he says and the excitement is gone. “I want to be in control,” I say and look at him. He searches my eyes for a moment., opens his mouth to say something but thinks against it. “Okay,” he says and keeps us floating in the pool. But doesn’t move to get us out of the pool. I realize it’s because I said I want to be in control so I should take control. I untangle myself from
“You promise?” I ask him when I can speak. He smiles and puts on the body oil. I test out my knees and get on all fours again. I’m still a little bit shaky but I sit up and watch him. His skin absorbs the oil and I get the urge to kiss him. I kiss his neck with an open mouth. He moans but doesn’t stop what he’s doing. I watch him lather the oil all over his body. I stand up and stand in front of him. He leans back and looks at me. I look at his beautiful body. His dick twitches. I get on the bed a straddle him, my favourite place to be. His cock is between my pussy lips. I slide back and forth on the length of his shaft. My juices coat his cock, I slide easily. His mouth is open and he’s looking down between my legs. I feel my body build, he’s not inside if me but my orgasm is coming. I slide faster and faster and come all over him. He kisses me hard and then stops abruptly. He slides me off him and walks to the bedside table. He takes out condoms and walks back to me. He hands me on